Baby Jones Coming Soon

2025 JUST GOT BIGGER!!!!

Myself and my beautiful girlfriend are happy and proud to announce that our lives will be changing in July 2025. We are entering the parenting world together.

Our beautiful baby waving at us from the 12 week scan.🥰

Here's the gorgeous set up we used to make it publicly known on socials.❤️🥳

Here we are together, celebrating Christmas and the new year in style, knowing in a few months time we will be proud parents.

Thanks for all the well wishes so far 😊❤️

My Girlfriend Is My Hero

How can I begin to express how proud I am of this special woman? How do I explain my love and proudness and the sheer amount of happiness that I feel around her and with her and for her?

Well, when I think long and hard about this strong, inspirational, golden hearted lady in my life, there's just two words to sum her up......MY HERO!

This summer she pushed through her mental and physical limits and did a whopping 25K Walk and she not only did that but also in a place not familiar to her and the biggest city and capital of the UNITED KINGDOM and that is London!

As you can see she was featured in a post from Girlguiding Cymru!

Her incredible achievement was documented in GG cymru newsletter also.

My Gf also played a pivotal part in saving a nursery from redundancy also.

My girlfriend also lead her unit and did a remarkable job at the Remembrance day parade.

Of course my Girlfriend raised some money having a PJ day at her nursery and got thanked by CHILDREN IN NEED.

I have known her for a decade but it's only been the past year that I have truly KNOWN her. I am so lucky to know her and have her in my life, not just as my girlfriend or best friend or partner but as my hero.

Inside and out she is an inspirational role model and the love of my life and I cannot wait for our future together and to make her my official wife. 

It's been an incredible year babe, keep doing your best, you got this!

All my love, forever and always.

Random Ramblin's 52 - Summer Of 20 20 4

It's been a little while since I wrote anything here, so please forgive my absence and allow me to fill in some blanks 😊

I've literally been super busy with 2 jobs. I've had a weekend break with my loving lady to London, which was absolutely amazing!❤️ My sweet pea did a 25k walk for charity in aid of mind and apart of Girlguiding for her Queen's Guide Award. Furthermore, I am so proud of her and all her achievements and the amount she raised🎉❤️ I will be doing another post on my Girlfriend's charity walk as well as a post about her hardwork with Girlguiding cymru❤️

It's been a lovely summer. Took my beautiful Mrs away for her birthday and celebrated🥰

Basically I've had an amazing hard-working summer and the days off I've had I've lived them to the fullest with my wonderful girlfriend🥰

I watched Despicable Me 4 and that was good. I have also seen the god awful Borderlands movie, and the less said the better. Speaking of Bad Video game movies, ahem, what the hexagon is that Minecraft live action trailer?!

Also, video games not even 10 years old getting remastered is just dumb🙃

Linkin Park are back and with a new line-up. Emptiness Machine is great. I don't think the band should be dubbed Linkin Park, but rather something else subtitled A Linkin Park Project. 

That's all I got for now folks, gotta go back to the grind of life again now unfortunately. 

Stay Shiny, I will return soon!

You Make Me Feel Alive

Tell me something my dear, how is it that I have lived for 30 years on a planet of 8 billion souls and yet, it's only now I'm discovering I'm actually living. I have no idea how I have made it this far without you, and without this overwhelming feeling of happiness and how sensitive I am to your care, actions and words, that make me tear up from this powerful feeling called love.

Love looked like a fairy tale, It looked luxurious and beautiful. I have seen what I thought was love and I have also been in what felt like love but it was like something not for me with how I was shown and given love.

I'd be yelled at and feeling scared and confused and told it was love. I was hit and shoved and reminded it was just love. I was bullied and belittled and was explained it was coming from a place of love. Yet those examples made me feel low and question myself. It makes me question and overthink myself to this day. There's been people I felt love for but it wasn't really love it was admiration because I felt human in how I was initially treated but alas being too nice for your own good is apparently the worse thing you can be when in this "love". My head makes me want to check and get confirmation and make sure I feel and am treated well and loved and the other person loves me and tells me and shows me. For all these years I've been blindly led through life where being nice only gets you hurt and pain. Trusting someone is hard to do now because of the years of torment my soul has endured and for how much my light in this world has been dulled.

I was told "I love you but" too many times to count where I know the next line will be "I'm seeing someone else or I like someone else". How crushing it is to pour your heart out and to have the water of your heart frozen solid and then crushed to pieces by someone you trusted and thought you loved, or to have that person pull out a knife and stab you in your heart and your brain and to feel one or the two break or snap. I've cried for ages Infront of someone who told me it was over and first it was dread and anxiety leading up to a statement being told to me of how it's over and how then I feel an ice cold dagger pierce my heart and I feel the cold blade shiver my body as my heart begins to get cold and ache. While tears flow furiously from my eyes and I blabber trying to scramble to gain answers as to why this pain is happening and all that I am feeling, my brain snaps and my tears decrease and my pain numbs as I then start laughing and smiling. Reassuring myself that it's all okay and it's fine and that I thank the other for the years we had and wish them well as I depart from their presence never to see them again. You get told "please don't do anything stupid, let me know when you get home safe" and you think to yourself "wow they still care, maybe a friendship could still happen" as you dive in deeper into your delusion.

Through delusion the heartbreak endured and grew worse, then came anger and betrayal and worthlessness, through those things became a downward spiral of ill intent. Through pills, alcohol, food and trauma came a wall of "stop or you won't be here anymore I'm serious" and so the inner mind of sound body and mind came out and instructed me to kill off the memories of pain, close up, burn, seal off all the trauma and that person and time to wise up and become a better person. Although i have been broken for a long time I've never liked seeing anyone sad or hearing they were not doing good so I would always take the mantle of being a star and raising others up and listening and doing whatever I can no matter how big or small a gesture it was to make sure I can make someone's day and someone laugh and smile. Years of pain of bullying of not seeing yourself as worthy of happiness or worthy of love teaches you that no one should feel that way. Looking back at those times why did I allow myself to feel like that for so long?

You close memories and people and seal them off in the back of your minds hoping to never see or hear them again but sealing them away doesn't always work. Someone will remember something, a word or phrase is said or something said in a certain way and even seeing those ghosts of trauma appear really messes with your head. You feel such anxiety and dread, you don't wish them to cause any bad for you or others and you convince yourself you won't ever see or hear these ghosts again but triggers are a powerful part of trauma. The old feelings of hurt reappear but never all consuming, the anxiety is consuming, the memories of the past pain is all that ever appears of how you felt used and betrayed and how someone who was supposed to show you care and what was supposed to be love actually showed you the opposite so you are mad at yourself for allowing to stick with it for so long when you really should have left and endured a possible shorter pain than the path of pain you went on. You always wish if you could go back and do and say something else to avoid those wretched paths that took you through pain but it's important to remember always who you are and where you are and how strong you are for surviving the days you never thought you would.

30 years of life, thinking I'm broken, I'm defective, I'm no good, I'm too nice, overthinking is going to be my killer, I'm going to die at 30 because of my weight, I'm not worthy of happiness and love and then for an old familiar face I loved looking at years ago reappears and wants to sit by this brooding, scarred, old man and is helping nurse his wounds better and asking him questions and genuinely caring about his thoughts and his past and that he is as beautiful still as the day she first saw him. It's really something special. Although I have my fallbacks and feel low or not confident in myself or I'm not good enough etc she never sees me differently. She cares always and she smiles and caresses my face and wipes away my tears and snots with her beautiful eyes shining and her warm smile glaring at me. She's a lot like me and I am scared, so scared to hurt and upset her and to lose her. I love her hard and so much than I've ever loved anything in my life. Although my anxious attachment mind needs reassurance and hear and see and feel love she gives 40% of the time, the rest I just know and feel and believe and have never doubted. Sometimes my head gets messy because of my past and I end up thinking paranoid things and I cannot apologise enough for it, my past is not where I am anymore and I am finally alive but the trauma I have been left with just needs me needing more work on myself and needing her help in reassurance and healing hugs to keep it all away. Those scary mean feelings don't happen all the time thankfully but when they do I feel intense in my mind, someone could whisper something as a joke to me and I'll answer with fire breathing back. My angelic ladybug struggles with her own head at times too as she's been through a lot like me and still views herself as not this angelic woman that I've always seen and still see her as. She's told me her pains and shown me her traumatic scars and she's recoiled back from me thinking I'd leave and be disgusted by her when all I've ever been is warm, loving and gentle with her. I love her full stop and I love her without any conditions with my whole heart and soul and I will pour all of me into her always, I'm not half assing things I'm going full gear and I need her, I want her, I crave her in all forms. Despite how glorious making love is, sex isn't something I always want or care about, it's not what I want every day all the time with her, it's not about sex. It's about the love, the connection, the care and support and holding her and being held by her that matters the utmost to me. I've been a beast for years and lived like a zombie with no care and so much self hate towards myself. This woman is mine and she has opened my eyes to a whole new world, she has made my heart beat once again and become warm, she puts bandages and plasters on my mind and she keeps my soul warm. She is the apple of my eye, the sunshine in my grey days, the moon that glistens with the stars, the water to my crops, the missing piece of my heart, my soulmate, my warrior, my princess, my woman, my wife. No matter how many miles apart we have been, she has always made it clear and she has a mission to keep in touch with me. It's something I never expected because I never had this happen before with someone needing to talk to me every single day without fail and when they are super busy or stressed out, for my special lady to always be in touch with me makes me feel so honoured and special and makes me feel so loved and appreciated. I never get bored and I never get sick of her no matter how long it's been and how long we been talking and spending time together each day. I have needed her for the longest time and I'm so thankful and grateful I finally have her and get to spend so much time and my life with her. I wish to marry her, to live with her, to have our own family and I've never wanted those parts of my life to start more than I have right now. Wish I could fast forward to raising our son or daughter in the air and teaching them how the world works and about the importance of good manners and being kind. I want to fast forward to seeing our childrens children too, I want it all and I want it now quite frankly my dear. When we are apart I miss her like mad and I cant wait for things to get easier and I can't wait to see her. I miss her straight away when she leaves to go home or go away. I've never missed someone so much and needed time with someone so much. I am always made to feel safe, cared, loved, happy, heard and seen by her and with her. I love and appreciate her more than I can ever say. I hope she knows it and remembers each day, I wish for her to remember each and every day of my love and of how special she is to me and how I wish she could borrow my eyes and see herself through mine to see she needs not be hard on herself and that she truly is the gorgeous,sweet, kind, loving, caring, attentive angel I see every single day. We will always give eachother our best and treat everything equally and always support and love eachother every day without fail because it's natural to us to give to eachother so we love just like breathing we just do for eachother. We will always be there for eachother through thick and thin from this life to the next and more for our souls with intertwine like a fabled red invisible string where we are connected forever and ever. I love you baby❤️xxx

Random Ramblin's 50 - The Return Update

24/8/22 - That was the last time I did a Random Ramblin's post. The other random or rambly posts have been a part of my late night series of Ramblin's, which are sort of continuation of these RR posts, but the LNR posts tend to be about 1 topic rather than RR's multiple. Anyway, with that bit of random ramblin all wrapped out and cleared up, let's continue and dive into my life and what exactly has been going on since 24 August 2022.

RANDOM RAMBLIN'S

LIFE

Understandably I went through a rough time in 2022 BUT there were highlights from gigs I attended and of course making new cool friends and memories made with gaming with my existing friends too. RR's have a tendency of having large gaps of time between posts, why? Well the answer is simply I work on other things and forget to update about my life or anything cool or important happened or happening or anything I am looking forward to. So yeah and well outside of blogging and writing, I work and spend time with friends and family and my Girlfriend. Yes, I have a new GF, and she is so special, funny, cute, gorgeous, smart and just the world and more, she is everything I have ever dreamed of, and she makes me happy, and I feel so blessed and lucky and grateful for her and to share a world with her.

Since my last post I finished working the BAR for F&B's and now work as Customer Assistant for a book and hobby craft shop local to me, and it's great honestly, I love it and the crew I work with. I have never been happier in a job than I have in there. I'm also 30 now so wooo hahaha.

My rebuild of myself has been carrying on still as I gym it up, 2 times a week doing some weight lifting and cardio. 5 stone down and kept that 5 stone off last year, which is amazing. I feel my muscles getting bigger and my strength increasing, and I find the gym, fun and enjoyable and I love to go twice a week if I can.

The World Of Wrestling

It's funny how since the last RR post and this one that Vince has left and come back to the WWE twice. He seems to be gone for good now mind as the new allegations are really bad against him and the only way to win is to step down and go fight the allegations and provide the truth and if he is innocent ok that's cool but if not, well that's not good and expect to see him erased from wwe history. The Rock also now is a head shareholder of WWE and also owns his own Trademarked name "The Rock".

Rock is stealing Cody's spot against Roman at Wrestlemania. So Cody dropped his rumble winning privilege for nothing, so what was the point of him winning? I guess time will tell with what happens next as fans rally online for Cody. Oh never mind, during the course of me writing this post things have changed again and Cody Vs Roman is happening at Mania. WWE is also moving to netflix. The network is shutting down and they stopping dvds and blu-rays.

TNA is back and now after all these years of hard work and blood, sweat and tears, the man we owe so much thanks to has been fired from the company. We love and miss you Scott D'Amore.

Sting captured his final title in AEW and that's the tag titles with Darby Allin.

Film & Tv

The Iron Claw, the wrestling movie based on the true tragic story of one of the wrestling worlds most famous family, The Von Erich's is in cinemas now and it's heartbreaking but also spectacular.

A new DragonBall project is coming titled Daima and its set before Super but after Z and all our fave Z warriors been turned to kids again? It looks weird but its going to be something I watch and love no doubt because of DB.

A NEW MY HERO ACADEMIA MOVIE IS COMING!!!!

I re-watched Tomochan is a girl again and it's so lovely🥰 I need the manga and another season.

Music & Gigs

I am off to see Alestorm, Dragonforce & Amaranthe. Unfortunately Sleeptoken Cardiff is sold out😭

Poppy got new song Collab out with Bad Omens called VAN and it's good and catchy.

New band and my current fave album of the year is Dominum's - Hey Living People. It's so good!

The closing notes

I am also on Letterboxd so if you want to see my ratings or some reviews for films, join me there!

https://letterboxd.com/scotty2jonesy

Thanks for reading and visiting my blog today.

Feel free to check out my other blog post's.

Stay Shiny!

Late Night Ramblin's: Vol 11 - Reflecting On My Use Of Social Media

I started getting onto social media back in 2009. Facebook, Youtube, Bebo, MSN Messenger were the first of those sites. Later came Instagram, Facebook, Twitch, TikTok and maybe some others that I no longer remember haha.

When I joined Facebook for a few years, I was addicted and took it as a competition to how many friends you have and would add random people who had similar interests or who had good convos with online in the comments section and yes some of them I still talk to today. Others are long gone and dust in the wind, to many there was nothing evil behind the nature of why I stopped talking or removed them from my Facebook account. Over time, I grew to realize I should not be so open and trusting of strangers and also just keep to people who actually know me and I see or talk to often or who I actually like. Instagram had the same treatment when I joined that site, I'd let anyone follow me and grow my followers, I did have 300 followers, but then I realized not many were liking my stuff or seeing my posts and some become inactive accounts, so I had to clear a lot of that out. There has been one person I did not want to unfollow or remove as a friend, and she did nothing wrong, but in the pandemic I was in a bad mentality of believing no one liked me or cared about me, and I was not hearing off some people or seeing them, and so they were removed for that reason. No one also tells you how addicting it can be to get likes, but over time I have cared less about that whole thing. My social media now is just keep in touch with friends and family and keep highlights and photos for memories. I have been a fool as I have grown up with social media and yes absolutely posted cringe photos and posts and rants. 

When I joined Twitter aka X, It was literally to talk to celebs, wrestlers, bands because that website launched and everyone was saying how "All the celebs are really on there and use that" and It's always a rush when a famous face likes or retweets or replies to you in any way shape or form. I never expect it and screenshot and keep record of those moments because it is just an unexpected rush of happiness. I have been a dumbass on Twitter too and posted cringe and argued over silly and stupid things because I was a stupid teenager. These days I just use Twitter to talk to my friends I made there in America who only use Twitter.

YouTube, I cared about getting views but never had the funds to get better equipment and to get the better views and quality content from gaming. When I finally had a capture card system for my XBOX 360 it was something I could not set up and any help I had well no one could get it to work with my laptop and Xbox, it was weird and a shame it did not work out. Yes these days I do still do YOUTUBE, but I rarely post and the videos are just for my friends and for memory's sake at this point as I capture our dumb and funny moments gaming and any glitches haha. 

TikTok I joined in Pandemic as I was sick of friends sending me stuff and then had to click to try and watch on the app and download the app, and eventually I made one and made some TikToks that I thought be fun to do or chime in on and yeah I ain't posted on there in months. YouTube and TikTok have given me plenty of warnings and content removals, and that does dampen the fun and experience of those sites.

Twitch, I only use twitch to talk to friends and watch their stuff now and again, I don't make content there at all. Msn, Skype & Bebo I used early on in my social life and those sites have been dead for years. Just used to talk to friends on there and that was it. Discord is another I delete and got back a few times because of friends. I mainly use Discord to talk to one of my English friends there, as he hates social media and is not on any now. Snapchat I use every day, mostly talking to my pretty lady or my friends or old friends from work. Whatsapp, I only use for work, nothing else.

So yes, in closing, my use of social media has dwindled down over the years, and now they are treated as conversation points and highlight reels. It is crazy to look back at it all and think in the last 20 years of how much has changed, yes it's not quite 20 years yet, but it's close. Youtube was so good before Google took over. Facebook had games, and now it's trying to be its own cyberverse thing being dubbed Meta and of course Facebook owns more than just Facebook now.

If anything were to happen to me :(

Please keep me forever alive, in some form or fashion. Preserve my tattoos. Keep them safe, I paid good money for those. 

Log into my social media and announce the sad news and update my pages. Keep them alive. Think of me and my work in blogging and content creating on tiktok and YouTube. 

Publish any drafts. Finish any videos on my playstation or memory sticks. Please complete any of my games for me. Do something in my memory set something up. 

Hopefully I made a Spotify playlist to be made available for play at the wake and funeral. 

To my friends, I love you all please be safe and keep my memory strong. Do something I'd do every single day! If any of my friends has a baby boy please put my name in there somewhere carry my name on. 

To my Mrs, I love you so much, I wish to be holding you in my arms forever and kissing those gorgeous delicate lips for eternity. Have what you want or need of me, keep a piece of me forever with you in some form or fashion and if we have kids please just keep them and yourself safe. Daddy loves you all. 

I don't want to go. I don't want to leave you all. Hopefully people are waiting to see me and remember me in the world of heaven or Valhalla or both, why don't I venture between the realms? Haha. If anyone I don't like or who is fake to me shows up at my funeral, I will haunt you. 

Hopefully I don't leave the world until I'm 1000 years old, hopefully I'll have children and great ones and great great ones and so on. Hopefully I'll have a son and daughter who will love me and adore me and will carry on my legacy and dreams with them. 

My WWE 2K Soundtrack

So I am going to be bringing you 3 separate blog posts dedicated to the WWE games and the 2K soundtrack. This is the first, this is MY 2K soundtrack. I have asked my 2 best buds Jared and James to name 15 songs they'd put on a WWE game and so the results are coming your way shortly. Soon as we have seen my 15 song soundtrack anyway.

1: Pale Waves - Jealously

2: Sleeptoken - The Summoning

3: Bad Wolves - Killing Me Slowly

4: Halestorm - The Steeple

5: Letdown - Shipwreck

6: Mike Shinoda, Kailee Morgue - In My Head

7: Billy Idol - Mony Mony

8: Sabaton - The Art Of War

9: Cypres Hill - (Rap) Superstar

10: 2Pac - All Eyez On Me

11: The Notorious B.I.G - Juicy

12: Ghost - Spillways

13: Electric Callboy - We Got The Moves

14: The Roots, John Legend - The Fire

15: The Score - Born For This

Alright, this has been MY 2K Soundtrack, visit the blog again soon for James's 2K Soundtrack.

It's gonna be a wild fun one!

Stay Shiny!

An Evening With Halestorm - LIVE in Cardiff 2022

Halestorm is an American rock band from Red Lion, Pennsylvania, consisting of lead vocalist and guitarist Lzzy Hale, her brother drummer and percussionist Arejay Hale, guitarist Joe Hottinger, and bassist Josh Smith. Playing a staggering 24 track setlist to a sold out crowd in Cardiff's Great Hall. Halestorm knock socks off and blow the roof off with this unique concert experience of An Evening With Halestorm! 

I took my girlfriend to this epic concert and we had an amazing time!

Halestorm played the following songs: Acoustic: Break In, Dear Daughter, Beautiful With You (First time since 2016), Raise Your Horns, Familiar Taste of Poison, I'm Not an Angel, Mz. Hyde, Crazy on You (Heart cover), I Like It Heavy. 

Electric set: Back From the Dead, Apocalyptic, Black Vultures, The Hand, I Get Off, Do Not Disturb, I Am the Fire, *Band Jam*, Amen, *Drum Solo*, Freak Like Me, Love Bites (So Do I), The Steeple

Encore: Here's to Us, Bombshell & I Miss the Misery.

Its been 6 years since I have last seen Halestorm, and they blew me away again and this time they fully converted my Keirs to liking them which as a boyfriend you feel so much joy and happiness about your girlfriend loving something you do I feel😍🥰❤️ I got bit of footage from I am The fire and I miss the misery😁 Lzzy Hale looked so happy and was so appreciative of us fans and being able to play in Cardiff and they treated us to A STACKED 24 TRACK SETLIST WITH ACOUSTIC TO START AND THEN FULL ON ELECTRIC ROCK AND ROLL!!!!!🥵🥰❤️CANNOT WAIT TO SEE THEM AGAIN!!!!❤️

I AM THE FIRE LIVE
I MISS THE MISERY LIVE

10/10 WOULD ATTEND AGAIN!!!

THE BATMAN - A Vengeful Review

 It's finally time to see The Batman! 

THIS REVIEW HAS NO SPOILERS!!!!

It's one of my most anticipated films this year and has been for a while. I was sceptical of the casting and the look of the Bat-mobile but once the trailer hit us, I was highly interested and fascinated. The hype for this film has been high and sometimes when a film gets clips put out a few mins long before the film lands in cinemas, it can go one of either good or bad ways especially when a film gets a lot of hype and fortunately it did not go south at all! I am Scott aka 1stmetalgod and welcome to my blog and welcome to my Batman film review. 

The Batman takes place in Bruce Wayne's second year as Batman and people are being killed during the week of Halloween and cryptic clues and messages, or more precisely riddles are being left at the scene of each murder. It's up to The Batman to forge new relationships and call upon old friendships, unmask the culprit and bring justice to the abuse of power and corruption that has long plagued the city of Gotham. 

This is a comic book movie like no other! The performances from every actor in this film is fantastic. One unnamed character however is easily from the city itself of Gotham, the tone, the lighting, the visuals and overall atmosphere are phenomenal and what we should have always expected for and from a Batman film and also the score by Michael Giacchino is phenomenal and so catchy but each track also has personality hidden in it, take The Batman's theme for example it starts slow, dark, broody, ominous with a little western edge of tolling bells with fantastic slow building string instruments which lulls into the misery and grief that is inside Batman before transitioning back into the world's greatest detective and caped crusader and Gotham's own symbol of hope and fear, Mr. Vengeance himself, BATMAN. 

A beautiful score one which leaves with us cinema goers and follows us home. Flawless cinematography of which makes me think this was inspired by The Joker movie's artsy style. Here is a great Batman film in which it captures the detective side and elements of him perfectly and also THE FEAR and mythological presence of the legendary dark knight. This is quite possibly the best portrayal of the comic Batman we have had. This film takes many elements from comics like The Long Halloween, Telltale's Arkham Games, Batman Hush storyline, Arkham Asylum fight scenes, Batman Year One and even like I mentioned already Joker movie just to name a few. Matt Reeves and all the cast and crew have done a fantastic job here!

Gordon and Penguin were great and I cannot wait to see more of them in this universe and how Colin Farrell does with Penguin going forward and I can say the same for Zoe as Catwoman also who was really good. Rob and Zoe's chemistry was great and believable. The Riddler was scary and unnerving. Pat-man himself Rob was really good and even then by saying really good I don't feel like that does it Justice! The one thing I heard from big critics about this film was the fact that "Batman and Bruce feel the exact same broody boy and it's easy to tell it's the same exact person where as it should be not so distinguishable" and I get that absolutely BUT as Bruce remarks in the movie he's been doing this for 2 years and he has become a nocturnal animal and a shut in as Bruce and he puts all of him into Batman more than Bruce, so in all that time over those 2 years it's easy for him to have lost who is who in the inner conflict shuffle of his personality, the boy is tired, beat up, scarred and emotionally drained. I look forward to seeing more of Andy as Alfred too! As much as I love Alfred in general this was more Gordon & Batman which hey, it's still so great!

This is a great standalone movie with high potential for a new massive Batman franchise and I cannot wait for more!

THE BATMAN

10/10

5 STARS!

I got a feeling this could be considered for academy awards and wins some awards especially and watch this space for what's to come next ;)

Thanks for reading, stay shiny, have a nice day!

Important Notification Update

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Random Ramblin's 44 - The One With The 400TH Blog Post

What the heck do you mean this is my 400TH BLOG POST!!?!?!?

WOWE!!!!  Don't know how to respond to that news and it cause me hecking concern haha.

So I have been quiet here for a little while just wondering what to post, what to say because this is my 400th post and again It's crazy to see that and how far along this blog has come. 

(Some content here in this post may be upsetting and may cause triggers to some.)

Let's get a life update and ramble for a while randomly down the woods of my mysterious mind. 

So 6th March as you have read or seen, I had my first covid 19 vaccine. It knocked me off my feet with the side effects of the Zeneca first dose but I recovered fine 4 days after my jab. 

A question I get a lot is "Scott why did you dye your hair green?" the answer is simple, it's what I fancied, I wanted to dye my colour and I like green and so there we go. I will have red in my hair next but when that will happen well who knows. Also if you are new to my blog, hey I'm Scott aka 1stmetalgod as it is known on my youtube or twitter or even here on my blog which as you see it is titled 1stmetalBLOG. 

My Top 10 list's have made a come back and I look forward to doing more but I am in need of suggestions so please do send them my way via comments, fb, twitter just tag me @1stmetalgod.

Last year I did a charity awareness post and again this year I wish to do another one like it near the end of the year. 

I also last year wrote a lot of songs and poems and these are pure raw emotions I have expressed feeling through the power of the written word. These are just captures of emotions stuck in time when I look back at them and last year I went through so many complex emotions and the grief I have been suffering through the past year has been so rough and even now to this day I am still processing them and I am trying to do so in good and healthy ways but you know you can't be prepared for it all the time because it can hit you from nowhere and from everywhere some days. 

I lost 3 people last year and that has been some of the hardest shit I have ever had to go through and this pandemic and lack of seeing friends and family and loved ones and so much more has been so detrimental to my mental health so I have said and done stupid thing's and been depressed and quick to anger and sorrow and more and I've gone about things unhealthy and healthily. I've argued and fallen out and gotten back together with some very important people in my life during this crazy pandemic. It's all a learning curve for sure but as long as there's a support system, self care and self support and some sort of freedom within the world and ability to go places and see people it's a whole lotta good to have and to bring you back into balance and finding a balance whilst surviving a pandemic and coping with the changes and grief and the loss of so many things is and has been the hardest thing I have ever had to learn and adapt to and with. 

Keep in mind I have had to learn to walk, talk, write and to survive through epileptic seizures, broken bones and a car going into the back of my car during a driving lesson like almost 10 years ago not but I was diagnosed with whiplash from that. So I have overcome a lot and no doubt I will be overcoming more as we gaze into the crystal ball of life looking further into the unknown. 

Brings me to another point on my mind. My family will never see me, the spiritual and mental embodiment me now like they see me physically but you know I can't help but to feel they don't get that I like to be busy and doing something always, I'm not always laid back as I show around them and I am always thinking and wanting to be on the move and doing something like. It just urks me to be laughed at and ridiculed by my family and I'm sick of being told what I should do and stuff just leave me be and let me deal and figure things out and if I need advice I will ask for said guidance because I don't want to do shit or listen to what they have to think and want to enforce on me because that kinda thing makes me not want to do shit more. So I wish they would be happy for me when I am happy about something rather than drag me down because they may be in a shitty mood it really feels like the carpet is being pulled from under me. I just want respect and support and to not feel like a child and patience I would also like from others. 

I recently completed a few online courses. Child & Adolescent Mental Health, First Aid and Parapsychology Diploma. So I am now entitled to use these next to my name O.A. Dip (Parapsychology) as per instructions on the certificate of the diploma. I will hope to be educating myself more on things I am interested in and there's a career path I do wish to give a try and that's to become a support worker so I will be putting energy into finding out more about that kind of work and how I could become one, down the road here of life but for now I'm just learning new skills and gaining new qualifications for my own personal interest and development. 

Since January I have lost 3 and a half stone. I have had an injury in February placing me to rest for a little while and as of writing I feel well in my ankle and leg since pulling a ligament and bruising and having a small fracture in my pinky toe. I have been walking every single day before my injury and after my injury i have done little walks now and again and the last walk I did was a 5 mile walk and I am so easily prone to blisters and god have I suffered some nasty ones. I may have taken a slow detour but I am not going over board in comfort eating and other bad habit's I have had and have carried with me for all these 25 plus years. 

I feel like this past year and even the year before that I have been discovering a lot about myself and I am thankful for this and these discoveries even when times have been tough and I have thought about doing the utmost worse things to myself to take myself out of the life equation and this is sad but true. I was at a point in my life where nothing seemed to be going well and everything seemed dark and heated with others and loss of so many people and things all at once and living each day the exact same just was having me so hollow and dark and depressed and alone, it truly was a horrible thing to experience and go through. I was drinking a lot more than I ever have in my darkest clouds and taking more pain killers and in the darkest times I thought and even said out loud to people closest to me about having had enough and that a rope or more pain killers than usual are sounding like the best bet for me but listen to me now, I did not do or attempt any of that I merely imagined dark scenarios and thoughts and my friends here reading this, I urge you now if you ever felt or feel like this to talk to someone you trust about it all and please get the help and help youself out of it aswell, it's not nice and not easy to do but please it's better than taking your own life. These thought's and dark bout I had came from last year and not from the recent injury I must say to be clear. 

Point of a lot of this I am making is that, I am just still discovering myself right now and there's a lot of internal and external work I need or would like to do for myself just it will all take time and It won't come overnight and that I am ramblin' now but even through the darkest day's, this guy and the fire inside him will burn, always. 

So that will conclude my life update at this moment in time as of writing. Anything could happen at anytime and as ever I hope you are having a nice day and staying well and safe mentally and physically. I hope you enjoyed reading this, it was a lot of personal insight to myself and it's not always easy to blog or talk about openly or so publicly so to speak as my blog is of public nature. Probably the next life update of any kind I will give is when the pandemic is over or something else, who really knows we will just wait and see but I am certain for before then that I will be posting other interesting things here on my blog. 

So for now and for always, thanks for reading and supporting me and stay shiny!

First Dose Covid 19 Vaccine Side Effects

So it's 6th March a day after my first dose and 4am I was awake I could not sleep my arm was aching. I woke up when I eventually fell asleep to severe body aches, head ache and I felt sick and I coughed up phlegm earlier in the day. Later on through the day I felt really cold despite being told the house is warm and despite me being wrapped up in bed. Honestly this feels like a hangover crossed with flu. Temp fluctuations are so annoying. I also feel like my body is slow like as if I'm moving in water?

7th March I woke up with a headache, I also had hot flush with dead arm still but by the night time most of these subsided and instead I only had a slight tender arm and cold flushes. Overall I feel more myself today. Sneezing a lot not sure if related to these side effects or not.

See how I feel tomorrow now really, I think I will be all better by the morn! 8th March and I feel a whole lot better but I do feel like I got a cold today just sneezing, coughing and sniffling a lot other than that still a dead arm. 

9th March no other symptoms all fine, feel great just bit tired and still got dead arm but its easing. I think I'm out of the woods and may do a video update on youtube to follow up this week. 

Thanks for following and reading my documentation of my side effects and getting the covid vaccine!

When I Go Do This For Me

 Must remember to ask someone to get the narrator from dbz to do me an outro to my funeral with this piece of music - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lgqFvGWlPF0&list=WL&index=136&ab_channel=RobbieWallace2007%7BFifiLaFume%27sHusband%7D

"And so we see the body of Scott laid to rest. He was a good man with the kindest heart, with the best-est of friends. His loves for dragonball, star wars and wrestling will live on forever in the hearts of those who cared for him best. Scott never rest until the day was done where he made someone laugh, smile or feel special about themselves. He even seen lights in the darkest of places in the darkest of people. He made friends from enemies and made enemies along the way but one thing never changed and that was his heart of gold. Friends and family we ask you to shed a tear, to crack a smile, to be good to each other and always remember the legend of this man today, we are gathered one last time to say goodbye to, Farewell Scott until the next episode of after life Z."

I've Had My First Covid Vaccine!

 Friday 5th March, 

I went to my local GP after being contacted on Tuesday 2nd March (click here for that post)

I met with a nurse named Naomi and she was tidy and helpful enough, giving me the details on what I can expect and answering my questions I had about it. I rolled up my sleeve once we was both ready and she inserted the needle into my arm injecting the first dose into my arm. Astra vaccine is what I was given.

What I felt was a sharp pinch followed by like cold liquid touching my skin well going into my arm so say for example a bit of water splashed you and it ran down your arm? It's basically what that felt like.

Side effects I was told about were headache, aches in joints and my arm feeling dead so pins and needles like and static basically. I felt really tired then after my jab.

Further or any more update on side effects and how I feel, I will post another update with and you can bet in 12 weeks time I will be doing another blog post and video on getting my second and final dose of the vaccine down the line.

I am making youtube videos documenting this and the first video will be uploaded soon on my youtube channel which is called: 1stmetalgod. CLICK HERE FOR THE VIDEO!

Any questions you have feel free to message me or leave a comment.

Thanks for reading!

THANK YOU NHS!

I'm Having My Covid Vaccine

So on March 2nd 2021 at 6pm, I was contacted via my GP in my local doctor's surgery to attend an appointment on the 5th March 2021 to get my fist dose of the covid 19 vaccine. 

I was gobsmacked I was like "what? how? Yes I'll be there for my first dose, see you soon have a nice day bye!" to the lady on the phone. 

So yeah I'm relieved and over the moon but also confused as to how and why I have been chosen since I should be relatively bottom of the list but hey I'm not gonna turn it down. 

I'll post update and give my details on the experience soon as it's happened. I am making a video documenting the events and effects and all sorts as I go into and come out of having my first dose of the vaccine.

Stay shiny and stay tuned!

Merry Go (original lyrics metal song)

 I'm so tired of your paranoid worries, You wont even let me live my own life, you just try to control and lose all sense of reality when your told no.

AROUND AND AROUND AND AROUND WE GO

HERE WE GO

MERRY GO

AROUND AND AROUND AND AROUND WE GO

Wanting me to be on a schedule thinking its best for me when really you think I'm up all hours visiting others, Won't listen to my reasons or point of view, you'd rather go stir the hornets to come and kill me over and over again.

AROUND AND AROUND AND AROUND WE GO

HERE WE GO

MERRY GO

AROUND AND AROUND AND AROUND WE GO

Can't break this cycle of negative thought, blaming all the problems on me and not saying sorry, why do you think your higher, who picked you out of their nose in the first place?, you worry and call me constantly to check I'm still alive, is the torture on my voodoo doll not enough for you?, 

AROUND AND AROUND AND AROUND WE GO

HERE WE GO

MERRY GO

AROUND AND AROUND AND AROUND WE GO

MERRY GO

HERE WE GO!

Circles are never ending infinite symbols, can't break the negativity, you throw my help against the wall like glass it shatters and you use the shard to stab away at me, some help you are you say, do you even know me? Why are you lying to me? What aren't you telling me?, 

I'm not good enough, I thought I was not good enough for you and you felt not good enough for me, you won't let go of the pain and insecurity and now you've killed me, double standards are here in this industry, why can't you get the help that you need, why can't you trust me, why won't you listen to me?,

AROUND AND AROUND AND AROUND WE GO

HERE WE GO

MERRY GO

HERE WE GO

MERRY GO, MERRY GO

AROUND AND AROUND AND AROUND WE GO

MERRY GO

HERE WE GO

MERRY GO

THERE WE GO

Grey Skies (Original song/lyrics/poem)

The Grey skies are here,

My eyes have clouded over, from the grief,

I can't see the light,

Awaaaaay from the light of day,

Grey Skies, they haunt me, (they haunt me)

Grey skies, got a hold of me, (they got a hold of me)

Stay with me and hold my hand,

In the walk through never ever land,

I've been Peter, Always looking for my Wendy,

That mean ol Captain went and took her away from me,

It all happened so fast, in the blink of the eye of the tik tokin crocodile,

The grey skies are here, Peter can't you see,

My eyes have, clouded over and he's there tormenting,

A mean voice in the back of my head,

I shy from the bright of day,

Laying awake in bed at night, my shadow keeping me....awake,

Grey skies, wendy haunts me,  (she haunts me)

Grey skies, have their hold on me, (have their hold on me)

Tink, tink, tinkering with the bell,

A voice appears, grimacing a glee,

He insists it's Schmee, 

I lost my friends the only boys i see, 

When they all lost their faith.... in me, ( in me)

The grey skies are here,

They suffocate me drowning out the...liiiight,

I can't breathe, 

The night fills me with fright,

I lost my belief in magic this night,

The grey skies, above me, (they're haunting)

The grey skies, have their hold on me (they have a hold on me)

written 3:11am

13/12/20

by Scott Jones

The Gift Underneath My Christmas Tree - (original song/poem/lyrics)

There's coal on the fire, The house is warming up,
Presents are all around As the snow gently touches the ground,
Choirs are singing jolly ol carols of old,
As mother has the turkey roasting, nice and gold,
I look at pictures of years ago, Tears fill my eyes as I remember those who have came and gone,
My eyes get wide and my jaw drops down as you enter the room all alone,

You light up the room like a Christmas tree,
A warm Novus glow for all to see,
Wonderful sight to behold,
You make me smile, the truth be told,
I'm made to be oh so happy,
Knowing your the gift of Christmas, that standing underneath my tree.

The tv is showing, those same old films, we love dear,
Although your glasses fog up, you can't see your bingo cards clear,
But we all share a laugh along with you, like all the big old families do,
You count to three and then you jump as the crackers pop at tea,

You light up the room like a Christmas tree,
A warm Novus glow for all to see,
Wonderful sight to behold,
You make me smile, the truth be told,
I'm made to be oh so happy,
Knowing your the gift of Christmas, that standing underneath my tree.

You came up here, every year,
Every Christmas without fail,
Sometimes you were alone and times you were not,
But truth be told you were such a hoot and now your gone, my brain just cannot compute,
Stop motion animated man and dog, is what we both loved in common,
But also the wealth of knowledge you have is so inspiring, it makes my brain sing and cheer,

You light up the room like a Christmas tree,
A warm Novus glow for all to see,
Wonderful sight to behold,
You make me smile, the truth be told,
I'm made to be oh so happy,
Knowing your the gift of Christmas, that standing underneath my tree.

instrumental solo*

And now its Christmas time this year, in a year which the world is crumblin down,
I look around and I say a prayer for those we've lost, all before Christmas this year,
My dear wife I shed a tear, for she's been with me all year, despite all the sadness and madness in this world, she still loves me unconditionally,

My family hold me close and let's all sit down, and enjoy this merry feast despite the shit, that's happened this year,

The best gift this Christmas is the memories of all my dears, knowing their free from any pain the world has thrown, and I plant a star upon the tree for each of thee, 

So gather round the Christmas tree and let's all share an embrace, for the best gift of Christmas is standing right here, underneath my tree......

Do Not Doubt Your Abilities!

My friends do not doubt yourself and your abilities! 

Honestly if you can draw, play guitar, code games, play any instrument, or write songs or poems, or play games professionally or play sport professionally etc. These are talents!

Basically if you have a talent do not put yourself down and be like "i'm not talented, i wish i was better at it" no no no that is all wrong! 

You can play guitar you know how much of a talent and skill that is? 

You can play games and get paid for it and you can make your own games and so do you know how talented you are for that!?

You can draw so much amazing things, you are talented! 

Do not doubt yourself!