Being A Dad In Pregnancy Is Hard

No one ever told me how much I'd be asked daily so many questions about my unborn child. No one prepared me for the annoyance of so many voices and so many people trying to have their say on an unborn child that's not theirs or even related to them.

The easy part was all the appointments and running around and gathering items ready for the baby. The hard part was dealing with people.

That last one is so confusing, well let me tell you how annoying it is, to work retail and serve and see the same customers almost every day who pester you for news and information about your baby. I told you yesterday Charlotte, the baby is fine still cooking no news!!!

Stop sending me name suggestions when I don't ask. I appreciate you wanted to call your boy or girl this name or that name and ended up with another but I don't want your names. I want to give them one of me and my partner choosing.

I have told you a due date, please stop asking me when they are due.

I have also told you their gender because so many voices "needed" to know what he is going to be. Why do you "need" to know? We don't want you to go out and buy things for us, we appreciate the thought but please save your money, a card would be fine to say congratulations. That's not me being rude I just don't want people being silly about it, a gender neutral outfit is lovely we do really appreciate it but again we don't want people throwing money away on us haha. Again I'm not trying to be ungrateful or anything, it's the opposite. I suppose this is a response to being overwhelmed. Not feeling like deserve it.

Where's the baby/how's the baby? Well when I was bombarded with this question every day before I went on my paternity leave, the answer was that he's still growing and ok and oh look I've already answered this question again.

"Tell me soon as they are born I need to know everything and you need to show me" - NO! Demands will be met with a FUCK OFF. Don't you dare say such stupid shit and make your demands it's MY BABY and not your circus monkey. This isn't show and tell. I'll tell and show when I'm fucking ready.

There's so much I've been asked and repeated daily and my baby is almost here and then I'll be back to work so I'll probably take note and be annoyed again at the repeat in questions again that make my head crumble.

Late Night Random Ramblin's Vol 12 - A New Rant

Just because you work at a nursery doesn't give you power and doesn't mean you get everything you want for nothing. My Mrs works in a nursery and doesn't go round shops asking people to take money off items because she works in a nursery. Fuck off Jeff. 

If you are going to stand bone idle in a door way and give a stinking look when I try to pass you, maybe take it as indication to move your stupid brain. 

The price is the price and you won't always have items for fuck all, there will be times I will let you off but for fuck sake mun, you are not skint Dorothy, you are on the dole. 

You can't just take things you need to pay for them so don't give it all mouth Derick, you fucking Mongolian chicken dance. 

There's signs saying no donations don't walk through the back door to give us donations at the til you silly skank. 

I'm sorry but charity cases can't just stroll into the shop and want everything for nothing. Rules are rules and we need to make profits ok Charlotte. 

If I share someone else post more than yours it's because I see theirs more than yours and it doesn't mean I am bullying some random fucking person I've never met before. It's like saying a random bloke in supermarket took the last pot noodle and so that's harassment. Fuck off jive. 

Random Ramblin's 52 - Summer Of 20 20 4

It's been a little while since I wrote anything here, so please forgive my absence and allow me to fill in some blanks 😊

I've literally been super busy with 2 jobs. I've had a weekend break with my loving lady to London, which was absolutely amazing!❤️ My sweet pea did a 25k walk for charity in aid of mind and apart of Girlguiding for her Queen's Guide Award. Furthermore, I am so proud of her and all her achievements and the amount she raised🎉❤️ I will be doing another post on my Girlfriend's charity walk as well as a post about her hardwork with Girlguiding cymru❤️

It's been a lovely summer. Took my beautiful Mrs away for her birthday and celebrated🥰

Basically I've had an amazing hard-working summer and the days off I've had I've lived them to the fullest with my wonderful girlfriend🥰

I watched Despicable Me 4 and that was good. I have also seen the god awful Borderlands movie, and the less said the better. Speaking of Bad Video game movies, ahem, what the hexagon is that Minecraft live action trailer?!

Also, video games not even 10 years old getting remastered is just dumb🙃

Linkin Park are back and with a new line-up. Emptiness Machine is great. I don't think the band should be dubbed Linkin Park, but rather something else subtitled A Linkin Park Project. 

That's all I got for now folks, gotta go back to the grind of life again now unfortunately. 

Stay Shiny, I will return soon!

Bluey & The Miscarriage And Infertility Episodes

So this post is going to cover two things about two important issues that are not widely discussed enough. Miscarriage and Infertility. How does a show aimed at kids deal with these topics? 

I'll tell you today and the reasons why they were brought up.

Brandy & Infertility

In the episode of Bluey titled "Onsies" Auntie Brandy, (Bluey's Auntie) visits for the first time in years. Chili's sister Brandy wants kids but unfortunately is unable to, that's why she stayed away from the family and her sister for years. It's difficult and traumatic and anxiety inducing for her to deal and think of kids, her inner turmoil and fall into depression kept Brandy away for so long, and she gives herself a prep talk just to see her family. Brandy and Chilli have a close bond despite her not visiting for 4 years. Brandy has Bluey and Bingo Onesies, and they don't fit either kid very well and Bluey asks her mum Chili to make it fit and Chili answers with a quick "it's not meant to be kiddo" which foreshadowed a lesson later in the episode. There's a few times Brandy tries to have a heart-to-heart with her sister, but the kids interrupt it because Bingo becomes more animalistic when she wears a onesie, which is pretty funny. It's possible the sisters bonded more so over the fact Chili had a miscarriage before Bluey was born also, but I'll touch on that in a bit. So the aforementioned foreshadow moment goes with Chili talking to Bluey saying "you know how you want bingos cheetah onesie, but it doesn't fit you, so you can't have it. There's something Auntie Brandy wants more than anything, but she can't have it and no one can do anything about it. She can't have the thing she wants because it's not meant to be." Brandy and Chili have a heart-to-heart and Chili makes sure she's not alone and cares about her and her well-being and isn't mad about not seeing her in 4 years and Brandy confirms it won't be so long til she sees them again and the two dance like they did as kids to make chilli's kids laugh and smile again.

Chilli & Miscarriage

In the episode "The Show" it takes place on Mother’s Day. Bingo, Bluey and Bandit bring Chilli breakfast in bed, but Bingo trips and spills the tray. Bingo runs from the room crying, and Chilli encourages her to have a little cry, pick herself up, dust herself off and carry on. “The show must go on,” Chilli says. Then Bluey has the idea to put on a play about how Bandit and Chilli met. The key moment in the episode happens when Bingo, playing Chilli, has a balloon under her shirt to represent Chilli’s pregnancy with Bluey. The girls get carried away horsing around, and the balloon pops.

Many parents instantly became obsessed with this moment, because the view turns from showing the balloon popping, to Bandit grabbing Chilli’s hand as her smile fades. We have confirmation from “Bluey” creator and writer Joe Brumm himself, thanks to the new book “Hard to Bear: Investigating the Science and Silence of Miscarriage,” by Isabelle Oderberg. There’s so little representation of miscarriage in pop culture, nonetheless in children’s programming. My realization upon knowing this was shock but also a feeling of pride because this topic which affects me, being a father of miscarriage'd babies, hit me. This topic isn't widely discussed, and the care for those affected isn't much at all. So it's nice to see and hear this issue being raised and talked about since it's deemed to be such a common issue.

There is something truly special about “Bluey.” It’s a show that manages to transcend generations while actually having a heart and this is why and these episodes I mentioned are why I started watching this show and taking notice of it in the first place. I started recently to watch the show from it's beginning as it's soft and calming and sort of reassuring for me at the moment as my girlfriend is away for work, and it reminds me of her and her soft loving caring nature and Bandit is the dad I aspire to become. Thanks for reading and for visiting my blog, stay shiny and follow for more!

The Power Of Sleep

Tiredness, I have been a constant visitor for years and have even been the occupant. I've had so many late nights since my teenage days. So many late nights when the world would be quiet and nothing and no one would be expecting of me. 

I've revolted against early nights unless I was unwell or severely tired but I'd always get into bed and shoot up wide awake. 

The older I get the more I am taking in the amount of good an actual good rest and bedtime routine is. Let's try and fix myself by getting this sleep and routine that has eluded me for so many years. 

I have learned how little sleep really does take it out on the body, so I must remember to sleep 8 hours and stay hydrated. My body often wakes me up before my early morning alarms these days, which is an utter pain in the tubes but there was times in my life I have feared sleeping and stayed awake all night until I passed out because I feared falling asleep and not waking up. 

Fingers crossed this issue I have gets sorted and with enough sleep on a nightly basis that I actually start to feel right as rain once again. ☺️

Pulling Yourself Out Of A Pit

It's not easy. It's tough. Once you fall into the pit, you feel weak and helpless. All you try and do feels useless. You wake up after a broken sleep, in disrepair and despair from awful dreams. Negative voices and faces come and speak. Filling your head with ill will and unpleasantry.

Those voices tell me; "You are no good for anyone. You are not good enough. You are not fit enough. No one loves you and you are not worth the time and ever feeling love. You are the cause of all the bad. Everything bad in your life is your fault."

The theme of which the voices and past shadow people present is that the abusive language and actions of them is because of my existence, because you I am fat, different, broken and too good in a world full of hate and ugliness and that I should blame myself for their actions against me.

When you get into that pit, when your mind drags you down because things are too good or because too many things are staring down your neck. Just remember to be present and to breathe. It's scary, it's worrying and stressful, let alone frustrating. You always have two options you can let the nastiness play and replay over and over and let it roll you down the hill and into a pit, or you can let it play and roll down a hill and step over it allowing the voices to go into a pit by themselves. Alternatively you can scale that hill and capture those thoughts and feelings of negativity and hold them and continue to scale up the hill and use the negativity as fuel, as a power source to get the hell up and to prove them wrong!

No one said it's easy or that Scotty J would have an easy life. Scotty J would lead a difficult life because he was born into the world with a broken leg and then Scotty J developed Epilepsy from a side effect of an injection. Scotty J spent a lot of his childhood in hospitals and being unable to remember a lot of moments and times and it's not his fault, just the circumstances were unfortunate. Despite the circumstances Scotty J prevailed and continues to live on each and every day. It's not been easy to keep going on despite health issues, family passings, betrayals and heart breaks, but he keeps on going strong. A lot of the traumas of life have been locked away and forgotten about but things get triggered as bad dreams arise and the vault is left ajar, ready for keywords or moments to make the tortured souls near and not far.

Confidence isn't my strong point for it comes and goes in different levels of strength. I overthink and I worry and I Google anything wrong and Catastrophize the worse scenarios. I've pulled myself up out of deeper pits before. I've pulled myself out of pits like this before. It's going to be okay. Tough times don't last but good guys do.

Fuel your fire to beat the pits desire.

Rest In Peace Akira Toriyama❤️🕊️🐲

My friends and family, it is with the utmost sorrow to say this but legendary manga artist Akira Toriyama has passed away. 

The tributes have been far and wide and from every country on the planet. I've got my own video tribute you can watch here  - https://youtu.be/J7k6xJWilAY?si=uybjK7xGpLBQZvLR

I am absolutely gutted to learn of the passing of the legendary Akira Toriyama😭 He's an inspirational and highly creative figure whose work has inspired generations and his impact on the world is seen often and always felt. Thank you for your work and for inspiring me❤️ 

Dragonball has been a big part of my life for as long as I can remember, from watching it after school with my nan and brother to playing all the games with friends, it's been there and I've cosplayed Goku and I even have a Dragonball tattoo.

Arigato, Rest In Peace. See you in the other world Toriyama Sensei.

Top 10 Sleep Token songs

Sleep Token are a British rock band from London, formed in 2016. The group is an anonymous, masked collective led by a frontman using the moniker Vessel. They have been categorized under many different genres, including alternative metal, post-rock/metal, progressive metal and indie rock/pop. Progressive Metal is most likely the most apt genre to define this anonymous viral band. Thanks to the power of social media, Sleep Token have assessed a big cult following through going viral. I have never seen a band blow up faster than Sleep Token, there's been bands like these guys who have grown a following gradually such as Ghost or Slipknot. Sleep Token has taken it to another level and most of it is probably thanks to TIKTOK which has had their songs and mostly the summoning used in "thirst traps" and being dubbed as "baby making metal" to a lot of TikTok users. The band have massive headline sold out arena tours worldwide and are teasing a new era, so it's the peak time to be on the bandwagon of Sleep Token.

10: Alkaline

The object of desire in this song is being described as being composed of neither elements (acid or alkaline), but something in between, perhaps. She's mysterious, otherworldly & he can't define her, but he'll accept her fully either way as she has fully encompassed him & he is completely taken over by her, imprisoned in a way, but wilfully so, as he couldn't be happier to be in her chains.

9: Take Aim

"Take Aim" by Sleep Token appears to be a song about an intense and toxic love relationship that involves manipulation, power dynamics, and self-destruction. The singer seems to be in love with someone who provokes conflicting emotions in them, making them both feel alive and tearing them apart. "Take Aim" portrays a love relationship that is both exhilarating and destructive, where the line between pleasure and pain is blurred. The lyrics suggest that the singer is aware of the toxicity of the relationship, but is unable or unwilling to break free from it.

8: Give

The song "Give" by Sleep Token appears to be about a desire for an intimate connection with someone else. The lyrics suggest that the narrator is willing to give all of themselves to this other person, even their darkest impulses. The song opens with the idea of finding a sense of belonging with someone else, which is represented by the idea of "carving out a home" in the dark. It seems that the narrator is drawn to the person they are singing to when they are alone, suggesting a yearning for intimacy and closeness. The chorus repeats the idea of giving all that one can give, and the bridge introduces the idea of "open warfare" and not fighting fair, which could suggest a feeling of vulnerability or intense emotionality that comes with pursuing a deep connection with someone else. The chorus also suggests a mutual desire for this connection, with the narrator wanting to taste the other person and be closer to them. Overall, the song seems to be about a desire for emotional intimacy and a willingness to give oneself fully in pursuit of that connection.

7: Blood Sport

To me, the undertones of this song display a relationship lost with a higher power. Not to say it's Christian by any means, but the lyrics definitely speak of something more than human. With mention of "Somewhere the atoms start fusing..." and "Stuck in a quantum pattern." & "Even if the earth breaks like burnt skin." To me is symbolic to rapture. "And the heavens just won't open up for me." It's not his god. So why would he be allowed in. "Would you invite me in again?" He's asking if it all came to an end, would he be accepted back. To me, it sounds like a man speaking to his higher power & not hearing anything in return - & in the end like giving up.

6: The Offering

The song "The Offering" by Sleep Token is a lyrical ode to a love interest. The singer is offering up "sacrifices" to the person they love and expressing their desire to receive something in return. The speaker uses a garden, silence, and diamonds as metaphors for the pureness and preciousness of the connection they share. They implore the listener to "take a bite" and to "turn the page once again" in order to explore their relationship further. Ultimately, the song suggests the taking of a risk in order to get closer to someone and offers a chance for the speaker and their loved one to discover something beautiful together.

5: Take Me Back To Eden

"Take Me Back To Eden" by Sleep Token seems to be a song about the deep desire to return to a state of innocence and perfection, represented by the biblical concept of Eden. The first verse talks about diving into perfect oceans and being weightless, but also feeling the need to breathe and losing that weightlessness. The chorus mentions "those eyes like fire", perhaps alluding to the temptation of Eve in the Garden of Eden, and the protagonist feeling like a "waking hell" while the gods grow tired. The refrain repeats the desire to return to Eden beyond the path of reason, suggesting an almost irrational longing for a state of purity. Overall, the song seems to be a plea to return to a state of purity and to be seen and accepted for who we are, even if we have lost our way.

4: Granite

The song "Granite" by Sleep Token is a song about strength in adversity. The lyrics talk about someone feeling suffocated by the harshness of their situation, but ultimately deciding to stay strong despite their hardships. The song speaks to the power of standing firm in the face of all that life throws at us, and the importance of believing in ourselves despite the odds. The song showcases the narrator's resolve to remain calm and unshaken, implying that often the best way to survive a difficult situation is by keeping a level head and having faith in ourselves.

3: DYWTYLM

Do You Wish That You Loved Me? It is the ninth track from Sleep Token’s third album release, Take Me Back to Eden. A perspective shift across the album narrative, the song lyrically progresses from a state of obsession and guilt into a track that spans a unique melodic and lyrical shift, a seeming “resolution” of comfort, seeing Vessel observing the time passed between the albums, and begging the worth of self-hatred living vicariously through an idyllic lens, contrasting the acceptance and worth of moving on.

2: Aqua Regia

Aqua Regia by Sleep Token is a powerful song filled with metaphors and vivid imagery. It explores themes of love, change, and the struggle between the past and present. The song seems to be about a tumultuous relationship. The lyrics depict a love that is wild and uncontrollable, likening it to an animal call and a blood trail. Yet, there is also a sense of inevitability and acceptance, as seen in the lines about being a circuit board and hardware. The song uses the term “Aqua Regia,” a mixture of acids that can dissolve gold, as a metaphor. It could symbolize a relationship that is both precious and corrosive, or the transformative power of love. The writer seems to be sending a message about embracing change and letting go of the past. The references to dancing to alarm bells and fighting off change suggest a struggle to accept the new and let go of the old.

1: The Summoning

I feel this is about that divine meeting of souls when two intertwine, and it's like a force field is woven. It's that enigmatic pull that can't be explained only experienced and to attempt to pull them apart would be positively gut-wrenching. "The Summoning" became Sleep Token's first entry on the Billboard rock charts after it went viral on TikTok. The track garnered thousands of views from users who shared their takes and mimicked their favourite parts of the song.

That's my list on the elusive, viral, mysterious band known as Sleep Token. 

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My YouTube History 2009-2024

1st September 2009 - Youtube channel born

16 October 09 - First youtube video uploaded  gears of war 2 glitch video.

728 Uploads. 

My youtube has had 247.0K Views so far in it's lifetime. 

2.7K hours watched on my videos. 

Anime Films Recommendations

Many ask me for anime film recommendations and so here I am to deliver them to you all my dear readers😊 These are films I recommend for anyone interested in a good story or entry into Anime and so this is not a ranked or a rating list.

Your Name

Two teenagers share a profound, magical connection upon discovering they are swapping bodies. Things manage to become even more complicated when the boy and girl decide to meet in person. An absolutely beautiful film. I have seen so many times and it's just so good and hard hitting every single time. 

I Want To Eat Your Pancreas

A high school student discovers one of his classmates, Sakura Yamauchi, is suffering from a terminal illness. This secret brings the two together, as she lives out her final moments. I only seen this once but oh my god there's a part of the film which hit me so hard out of nowhere and I felt that for weeks. Heartbreaking but beautiful.

Weathering With You

In Tokyo, a runaway high school student facing financial struggles ends up with a job at a small-time publisher. One day, he meets a young girl who has the ability to control the weather. Another Makoto Shinkai film on my list and be prepared there's a few on here hehe. Beautiful animation and a lovely story. 

Porco Rosso

The plot revolves around an Italian World War I ex-fighter ace, now living as a freelance bounty hunter chasing "air pirates" in the Adriatic Sea. However, an unusual curse has transformed him into an anthropomorphic pig. Once called Marco Pagot (Marco Rossolini in the American version), he is now known to the world as "Porco Rosso", Italian for "Red Pig". A great animated comedy film that in Studio Ghibli catalogue is underrated, the English voice cast and Marco is voiced by Michael Keaton who is just brilliant in the roll. 

Dragonball Super: Broly

The film follows Goku and Vegeta as they encounter a powerful Saiyan named Broly. The film also chronicles the history of the Saiyans and the background story of these three Saiyans with different destinies connected to the turbulent period of their race, and later culminating in a massive battle between them. By now you all know how much of a big fan of DragonBall franchise I am and well if you want a quick summary of the dragon ball series start with Battle Of The Gods, then Resurrection F and finally get your bum down to watch this epic brawling animated film. Yes, I guess I just recommended two other films too in one but honestly the action and music in Broly is top notch!

One Piece: Red

The story is set on the "Island of Music" Elegia, where Uta, the world's greatest diva, holds her first ever live concert and reveals herself to the public. The Straw Hats, pirates, Marines and fans from across the world gather to enjoy Uta's voice, which has been described as "otherworldly". However, the event begins with the shocking revelation that Uta is the daughter of Shanks who is one of the most powerful pirates. Music, Pirates, Hard hitting action, stunning animation, this film was my massive dive into One Piece. Literally this film was like some narcotics, my system was blown and I needed more and I was so obsessed with the music. 

Howls Moving Castle

When an unconfident young woman is cursed with an old body by a spiteful witch, her only chance of breaking the spell lies with a self-indulgent yet insecure young wizard and his companions in his legged, walking castle. This is my personal favourite Ghibli film and the English dub is superb with Christian Bale voicing the lead and titular character of Howl.

A Silent Voice

A grade-school student with a hearing impairment is bullied and transfers to another school. Years later, the former bully is tormented by his behaviour and sets out to make amends. You go through the film hating the male protagonist, however you feel for him and his pain as the story unfolds. 

Suzume

As the skies turn red and the planet trembles, Japan stands on the brink of disaster. However, a determined teenager named Suzume sets out on a mission to save her country. Able to see supernatural forces that others cannot, it's up to her to close the mysterious doors that are spreading chaos across the land. A perilous journey awaits as the fate of Japan rests on her shoulders. The scenery, music, characters and animation were beautiful! A lot of laughs and gripping story too! I loved it. 

Let me know how you get on with these amazing films, and I hope you enjoy them all. I may do another list like this in the near future, so stay shiny and stick around! :)

Random Ramblin's 50 - The Return Update

24/8/22 - That was the last time I did a Random Ramblin's post. The other random or rambly posts have been a part of my late night series of Ramblin's, which are sort of continuation of these RR posts, but the LNR posts tend to be about 1 topic rather than RR's multiple. Anyway, with that bit of random ramblin all wrapped out and cleared up, let's continue and dive into my life and what exactly has been going on since 24 August 2022.

RANDOM RAMBLIN'S

LIFE

Understandably I went through a rough time in 2022 BUT there were highlights from gigs I attended and of course making new cool friends and memories made with gaming with my existing friends too. RR's have a tendency of having large gaps of time between posts, why? Well the answer is simply I work on other things and forget to update about my life or anything cool or important happened or happening or anything I am looking forward to. So yeah and well outside of blogging and writing, I work and spend time with friends and family and my Girlfriend. Yes, I have a new GF, and she is so special, funny, cute, gorgeous, smart and just the world and more, she is everything I have ever dreamed of, and she makes me happy, and I feel so blessed and lucky and grateful for her and to share a world with her.

Since my last post I finished working the BAR for F&B's and now work as Customer Assistant for a book and hobby craft shop local to me, and it's great honestly, I love it and the crew I work with. I have never been happier in a job than I have in there. I'm also 30 now so wooo hahaha.

My rebuild of myself has been carrying on still as I gym it up, 2 times a week doing some weight lifting and cardio. 5 stone down and kept that 5 stone off last year, which is amazing. I feel my muscles getting bigger and my strength increasing, and I find the gym, fun and enjoyable and I love to go twice a week if I can.

The World Of Wrestling

It's funny how since the last RR post and this one that Vince has left and come back to the WWE twice. He seems to be gone for good now mind as the new allegations are really bad against him and the only way to win is to step down and go fight the allegations and provide the truth and if he is innocent ok that's cool but if not, well that's not good and expect to see him erased from wwe history. The Rock also now is a head shareholder of WWE and also owns his own Trademarked name "The Rock".

Rock is stealing Cody's spot against Roman at Wrestlemania. So Cody dropped his rumble winning privilege for nothing, so what was the point of him winning? I guess time will tell with what happens next as fans rally online for Cody. Oh never mind, during the course of me writing this post things have changed again and Cody Vs Roman is happening at Mania. WWE is also moving to netflix. The network is shutting down and they stopping dvds and blu-rays.

TNA is back and now after all these years of hard work and blood, sweat and tears, the man we owe so much thanks to has been fired from the company. We love and miss you Scott D'Amore.

Sting captured his final title in AEW and that's the tag titles with Darby Allin.

Film & Tv

The Iron Claw, the wrestling movie based on the true tragic story of one of the wrestling worlds most famous family, The Von Erich's is in cinemas now and it's heartbreaking but also spectacular.

A new DragonBall project is coming titled Daima and its set before Super but after Z and all our fave Z warriors been turned to kids again? It looks weird but its going to be something I watch and love no doubt because of DB.

A NEW MY HERO ACADEMIA MOVIE IS COMING!!!!

I re-watched Tomochan is a girl again and it's so lovely🥰 I need the manga and another season.

Music & Gigs

I am off to see Alestorm, Dragonforce & Amaranthe. Unfortunately Sleeptoken Cardiff is sold out😭

Poppy got new song Collab out with Bad Omens called VAN and it's good and catchy.

New band and my current fave album of the year is Dominum's - Hey Living People. It's so good!

The closing notes

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Late Night Ramblin's: Vol 11 - Reflecting On My Use Of Social Media

I started getting onto social media back in 2009. Facebook, Youtube, Bebo, MSN Messenger were the first of those sites. Later came Instagram, Facebook, Twitch, TikTok and maybe some others that I no longer remember haha.

When I joined Facebook for a few years, I was addicted and took it as a competition to how many friends you have and would add random people who had similar interests or who had good convos with online in the comments section and yes some of them I still talk to today. Others are long gone and dust in the wind, to many there was nothing evil behind the nature of why I stopped talking or removed them from my Facebook account. Over time, I grew to realize I should not be so open and trusting of strangers and also just keep to people who actually know me and I see or talk to often or who I actually like. Instagram had the same treatment when I joined that site, I'd let anyone follow me and grow my followers, I did have 300 followers, but then I realized not many were liking my stuff or seeing my posts and some become inactive accounts, so I had to clear a lot of that out. There has been one person I did not want to unfollow or remove as a friend, and she did nothing wrong, but in the pandemic I was in a bad mentality of believing no one liked me or cared about me, and I was not hearing off some people or seeing them, and so they were removed for that reason. No one also tells you how addicting it can be to get likes, but over time I have cared less about that whole thing. My social media now is just keep in touch with friends and family and keep highlights and photos for memories. I have been a fool as I have grown up with social media and yes absolutely posted cringe photos and posts and rants. 

When I joined Twitter aka X, It was literally to talk to celebs, wrestlers, bands because that website launched and everyone was saying how "All the celebs are really on there and use that" and It's always a rush when a famous face likes or retweets or replies to you in any way shape or form. I never expect it and screenshot and keep record of those moments because it is just an unexpected rush of happiness. I have been a dumbass on Twitter too and posted cringe and argued over silly and stupid things because I was a stupid teenager. These days I just use Twitter to talk to my friends I made there in America who only use Twitter.

YouTube, I cared about getting views but never had the funds to get better equipment and to get the better views and quality content from gaming. When I finally had a capture card system for my XBOX 360 it was something I could not set up and any help I had well no one could get it to work with my laptop and Xbox, it was weird and a shame it did not work out. Yes these days I do still do YOUTUBE, but I rarely post and the videos are just for my friends and for memory's sake at this point as I capture our dumb and funny moments gaming and any glitches haha. 

TikTok I joined in Pandemic as I was sick of friends sending me stuff and then had to click to try and watch on the app and download the app, and eventually I made one and made some TikToks that I thought be fun to do or chime in on and yeah I ain't posted on there in months. YouTube and TikTok have given me plenty of warnings and content removals, and that does dampen the fun and experience of those sites.

Twitch, I only use twitch to talk to friends and watch their stuff now and again, I don't make content there at all. Msn, Skype & Bebo I used early on in my social life and those sites have been dead for years. Just used to talk to friends on there and that was it. Discord is another I delete and got back a few times because of friends. I mainly use Discord to talk to one of my English friends there, as he hates social media and is not on any now. Snapchat I use every day, mostly talking to my pretty lady or my friends or old friends from work. Whatsapp, I only use for work, nothing else.

So yes, in closing, my use of social media has dwindled down over the years, and now they are treated as conversation points and highlight reels. It is crazy to look back at it all and think in the last 20 years of how much has changed, yes it's not quite 20 years yet, but it's close. Youtube was so good before Google took over. Facebook had games, and now it's trying to be its own cyberverse thing being dubbed Meta and of course Facebook owns more than just Facebook now.

What Would You Like To See?

I am hitting a point where Top 10 list ideas are running low. So I would like to ask you all, my dear readers, on what you would like to see me post here?

I am open to any and all suggestions!

I am sorry if not all suggestions get picked or used, but I will do my best.

If you would like me to finish and post some fan fictions or stories here too, do let me know :)

If you would like me to just keep to being me and post now and then with life updates or some original poetry or lyrics, do let me know too.

I have over 600 posts on my blog! I have been doing this for 10 years or so, the growth and views come and go but my loyal readers and followers always stay and here anytime, and I cannot thank you enough!

The Signs Are There

Many signs appeared whilst I was talking and falling madly in love with this amazing woman, my Elli. There's been posts online, there's been music playing and thoughts and dreams. She has had my heart for a while. It took me a long time to talk with her, and took me a short amount of time for me to fall in love with her. I was afraid and anxious to love again, to allow myself, but she made it so effortless and easy for me to fall, she was herself, she was caring, accepting, loving. She gave me comfort and peace with her arms and soul. There were times I was talking to her, and she'd do something or say something, and I'd feel my heart race and my brain melt, and I was just holding back my mouth from saying "I love you" and the first time I said it to her, I felt so flustered, and my head was like "Oh my god what did you say? Why did you let that come out, what if she doesn't feel the" and she replied with a cute red face "I love you too". I said I liked her, and she was like "Oh really, I couldn't tell" with that cute confident smirk on her face. It was a rush, it was so exhilarating, and it still is, and she still makes my heart race and mind melt by the things she says and does. She can look at me and just the whole world stops, and I get my breath taken away. I am really thankful and lucky and grateful for her. 

I always had a crush on her, she was always so lovely and smart and pretty. Getting to know her as a person better just opened up my eyes and increased the size of my heart because I love her and I want to share a life with her, that's why I've got to ask her out. I really want to be her man. She's the sprinkles to my doughnut.

I plan to ask her for valentine's unless some sort of perfect day happens and changes that for me. I miss her and can't wait to see her again in person and to hold her.

I was getting tired of trying of waiting on meeting someone and that I stopped looking. I was focused on myself, when we both appeared back into each other's lives. I have seen her in my workplace for the first time in years and I wanted to wrap my arms around her so much because she looked so troubled and upset, I didn't want to be awkward, and I was shy and that's why I didn't message or talk to her for years. I was shy and felt it to be awkward, or I'd be a bother. Little did I know that my overthinking mind was so wrong.....

I thought the "love" I had and had to give, and that mushy side was all dead and gone, I thought I had ripped it out and buried it and left it for dead because of my past hurt and trauma and to overcome it, I felt it was best to remove it and just focus on myself. The focus on myself has helped me become better and stronger, but this amazing woman has brought my lovey side back from the dead. We are genuine and beautiful souls, and we attracted one another. Soon was replaced by finally when we met in my workplace and when we snuck around. I can't wait for finally to be here again where we are free and open to do what we want and when we want.

We were far away from each other on my birthday, but we still made every effort to message. I always aim to spend my life with people who make me feel seen, heard, cared about and loved, and she makes me feel all that and more. She's done more in a month than anyone else has in my past. I stay patient and try my best to, despite how much I miss her and want to see her and need to see her all free and happy and just here with me.

I was strong in 2023, the strength opened my eyes. I'm coming back and getting my happiness this year, and I'm getting everything else I've wanted and more. 2020-2022 changed and broke me and left me scarred, afraid, sad and left me for dead. I'm so happy to have found myself and an amazing lady I can't wait to date and go on epic adventures with.

I just want to look after her, hold her, and give her everything she deserves and more and treat her like the best woman to ever exist and how I think she deserves to be treated and that's because, I love her, and she deserves the best and I always give the best and always plan to. I want to help her with anything and through anything. Furthermore, I want to grow with her and grow together and build a life we are happy and proud of. We both give each other a lot of time, effort, care, trust and love, and we make a great team and are determined to be each other's last in life and to have the bestest life together.

Top 10 Cartoons

Happy New Year everyone!

Not sure if I have done this before, but let's go down nostalgia lane and remember some of our fave cartoons we loved watching as a kid. Here are 10 of my personal favourites.

10: Xiolin Showdown

 Its recognized for its unique blend of action, humour, and engaging characters, making it a memorable animated series for many fans.  The series follows four young monks—Omi, Kimiko, Raimundo, and Clay—chosen to become Xiaolin Dragons, warriors tasked with protecting the mystical Shen Gong Wu, powerful artefacts with unique abilities. Their main antagonist is Jack Spicer, a villain who seeks to collect the Shen Gong Wu for his own nefarious purposes.

9: Powerpuff Girls

The series follows the adventures of three kindergarten-aged girls with superpowers: Blossom, Bubbles, and Buttercup. They were created by Professor Utonium using a mixture of sugar, spice, everything nice, and an accidental dose of Chemical X. The show is celebrated for its positive portrayal of female protagonists who are strong, capable, and independent. It has been praised for breaking gender stereotypes and inspiring young viewers. 

8: Grim Adventures Of Billy & Mandy

The series stands out for its unconventional premise, mixing supernatural elements with humor, and exploring the dynamics between the cheerful but clueless Billy, the pragmatic Mandy, and the reluctant Grim Reaper. 

7: Codename Kids Next Door

"Codename: Kids Next Door" is celebrated for its humor, creativity, and the way it empowers children to fight against perceived injustices. It has left a lasting impact on those who grew up watching it during its original run. "Codename: Kids Next Door" is an animated television series that aired on Cartoon Network from 2002 to 2008. Created by Mr. Warburton, the show follows a group of five children who operate as secret agents, using codenames and high-tech gadgets to combat adult tyranny. 

6: Fosters Home For Imaginary Friends

"Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends" is an animated television series created by Craig McCracken, the same creator of "The Powerpuff Girls." The show aired on Cartoon Network from 2004 to 2009. "Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends" is celebrated for its imaginative concept, well-developed characters, and its ability to appeal to both children and adults. The series has left a lasting impact on the animation community.

5: Courage The Cowardly Dog

"Courage the Cowardly Dog" is an animated television series that originally aired on Cartoon Network from 1999 to 2002. Created by John R. Dilworth, the show is known for its unique animation style, dark humor, and surreal storytelling. "Courage the Cowardly Dog" stands out for its blend of horror, humor, and heart. The series has become a cult classic, appreciated for its distinctive style and willingness to explore darker and more experimental themes in animation.

4: SpongeBob Squarepants

"SpongeBob SquarePants" is an immensely popular animated television series created by marine science educator and animator Stephen Hillenburg. The show premiered on Nickelodeon in 1999 and has become one of the longest-running and most iconic animated series in television history. "SpongeBob SquarePants" continues to be a cultural phenomenon, entertaining audiences of all ages with its humor, creativity, and memorable characters.

3: Tom & Jerry

"Tom and Jerry" is an iconic animated comedy series created by William Hanna and Joseph Barbera. The series first debuted in 1940 and has since become one of the most beloved and enduring animated franchises in the world. "Tom and Jerry" remains a beloved classic that continues to entertain audiences with its timeless humor and animated brilliance. The cat-and-mouse duo's misadventures have become a cherished part of animation history.

2: Scooby Doo

"Scooby-Doo" is a classic animated franchise that originated in 1969 and has since become a cultural phenomenon. Created by Joe Ruby and Ken Spears for Hanna-Barbera Productions, the series has undergone various iterations and adaptations. "Scooby-Doo" remains a timeless classic that has entertained audiences of all ages with its humor, mystery-solving adventures, and memorable characters. The franchise's enduring popularity is a testament to its cultural significance in the world of animation.

1: Ed, Edd N Eddy

"Ed, Edd n Eddy" is an animated television series created by Danny Antonucci. The show originally aired on Cartoon Network from 1999 to 2009. "Ed, Edd n Eddy" is celebrated for its humor, unique animation style, and the endearing quirks of its characters. The series remains a nostalgic favorite for those who grew up watching Cartoon Network during its original run.

Honourable mentions: Looney Toons, Flintstones, Simpsons, Top Car, Wacky Races, Dastardly & Muttley and their flying machines, Taz of Tasmania, rugrats, sonic x, Recess, TMNT, Samurai Jack.

That's my list, thank you for visiting my page and reading😊

Films I Want To Watch 2024

One life💚

Lisa Frankenstein

Dune 2

Imaginary💚

Ghost busters: frozen empire💚

Kung Fu panda 4💚

Godzilla X Kong new empire💚

Monkey man

Civil war

The fall guy💚

Kingdom of planet of the apes💚

If💚

Deadpool and wolverine💚

Borderlands 💚 

MHA movie 4💚

Beatlejuice 2💚

Joker 2💚

Red one💚

Sonic 3💚

There's some i am forgetting but they will be added when I remember. 

💚 = SEEN

TOP 10 2023 POSTS!

10 posts with the most views from 2023 all listed and linked here!

10: Top 10 Limp Bizkit Songs

9: Tmnt: Mutant Mayhem Review

8: No One Will Save You Review

7: Saw X Review

6: 30 Seconds To Mars: Its The End Of The World Review

5: Barbie Movie Review

4: Late Night Ramblin's Vol8

3: Oppenheimer Movie Review

2: Blue Beetle Movie Review

1: WWE 2K23 Predicted Tracklist

Thank you all so much for yet another awesome year blogging! 

Let's get those views even higher next year and get lots more epic content for you all!

Stay Shiny & Happy New Year!

The Scotties 2023!!!

Oh my god, it is here, it's time! 

Get suited and fancy because it's time for me to give out my prestigious awards. :D

The Scotties are my own made up awards I present to many things to just highlight the best of the best this past year.

MUSIC AWARDS!

Best band: 30 Seconds To Mars

Album of the year: 30 Seconds To Mars: It's the end of the world, but it's a beautiful day

Best Newcomer Band: Sleep Token

Best concert attended: Electric Callboy in Bristol

Best surprise concert: Scooter!

Music Wrapped: https://1stmetalgodblog.blogspot.com/2023/12/my-music-wrapped.html

BEST FILMS OF 2023:

Best Tv Show: The Last Of Us

Best animated TV show: Invincible

Best Star Wars show: Ahsoka

Youtube Wrapped: https://1stmetalgodblog.blogspot.com/2023/12/youtube-wrapped-2023.html

ANIME AWARDS!

Best New Anime: Tomo-Chan Is A Girl!

Best Ongoing Anime: Jujustu Kaisen

Attack On Titan Anime has ended so I want to give that a special anime lifetime award.

GAME AWARDS!

Best Online Game: Fortnite (yes it beat Minecraft for the title this year)

Best Single player Game I've Played: One Piece Pirate Warriors 4.

Best new multiplayer game: My Hero Academia Ultra Rumble

Best Dragonball Related Content: Dragonball The Breakers Game.

Gaming Wrapped: https://1stmetalgodblog.blogspot.com/2023/12/my-playstation-wrapped.html

LIFE AWARDS

DECISION OF THE YEAR: WORKS JOB!

WOMAN OF THE YEAR: MRS❤️

Achievement award: Losing 5 Stone & Turning 30!

BOOK RECOMMENDATIONS

MEMORIAL AWARD:

STEVEN EVANS😇

OK, that about wraps up the award and what a night it has been.

Anyway thank you very much for reading, keep supporting me on youtube, blogger, tiktok.

Let's have a Merry Christmas and a great 2024! 

Thanks for the birthday wishes, Stay Shiny!

My Music Wrapped 2023

YouTube Wrapped 2023