Random Ramblin's 50 - The Return Update

24/8/22 - That was the last time I did a Random Ramblin's post. The other random or rambly posts have been a part of my late night series of Ramblin's, which are sort of continuation of these RR posts, but the LNR posts tend to be about 1 topic rather than RR's multiple. Anyway, with that bit of random ramblin all wrapped out and cleared up, let's continue and dive into my life and what exactly has been going on since 24 August 2022.

RANDOM RAMBLIN'S

LIFE

Understandably I went through a rough time in 2022 BUT there were highlights from gigs I attended and of course making new cool friends and memories made with gaming with my existing friends too. RR's have a tendency of having large gaps of time between posts, why? Well the answer is simply I work on other things and forget to update about my life or anything cool or important happened or happening or anything I am looking forward to. So yeah and well outside of blogging and writing, I work and spend time with friends and family and my Girlfriend. Yes, I have a new GF, and she is so special, funny, cute, gorgeous, smart and just the world and more, she is everything I have ever dreamed of, and she makes me happy, and I feel so blessed and lucky and grateful for her and to share a world with her.

Since my last post I finished working the BAR for F&B's and now work as Customer Assistant for a book and hobby craft shop local to me, and it's great honestly, I love it and the crew I work with. I have never been happier in a job than I have in there. I'm also 30 now so wooo hahaha.

My rebuild of myself has been carrying on still as I gym it up, 2 times a week doing some weight lifting and cardio. 5 stone down and kept that 5 stone off last year, which is amazing. I feel my muscles getting bigger and my strength increasing, and I find the gym, fun and enjoyable and I love to go twice a week if I can.

The World Of Wrestling

It's funny how since the last RR post and this one that Vince has left and come back to the WWE twice. He seems to be gone for good now mind as the new allegations are really bad against him and the only way to win is to step down and go fight the allegations and provide the truth and if he is innocent ok that's cool but if not, well that's not good and expect to see him erased from wwe history. The Rock also now is a head shareholder of WWE and also owns his own Trademarked name "The Rock".

Rock is stealing Cody's spot against Roman at Wrestlemania. So Cody dropped his rumble winning privilege for nothing, so what was the point of him winning? I guess time will tell with what happens next as fans rally online for Cody. Oh never mind, during the course of me writing this post things have changed again and Cody Vs Roman is happening at Mania. WWE is also moving to netflix. The network is shutting down and they stopping dvds and blu-rays.

TNA is back and now after all these years of hard work and blood, sweat and tears, the man we owe so much thanks to has been fired from the company. We love and miss you Scott D'Amore.

Sting captured his final title in AEW and that's the tag titles with Darby Allin.

Film & Tv

The Iron Claw, the wrestling movie based on the true tragic story of one of the wrestling worlds most famous family, The Von Erich's is in cinemas now and it's heartbreaking but also spectacular.

A new DragonBall project is coming titled Daima and its set before Super but after Z and all our fave Z warriors been turned to kids again? It looks weird but its going to be something I watch and love no doubt because of DB.

A NEW MY HERO ACADEMIA MOVIE IS COMING!!!!

I re-watched Tomochan is a girl again and it's so lovely🥰 I need the manga and another season.

Music & Gigs

I am off to see Alestorm, Dragonforce & Amaranthe. Unfortunately Sleeptoken Cardiff is sold out😭

Poppy got new song Collab out with Bad Omens called VAN and it's good and catchy.

New band and my current fave album of the year is Dominum's - Hey Living People. It's so good!

The closing notes

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Stay Shiny!

Late Night Reflection - 3rd Feb 2023

In the past year, I've lost a few friends. It does make me sad when I think back of them. I won't ever know why they stopped messaging or meeting up and hanging out. 

However, I am forever grateful to those who have stayed in my life and those who even if I don't see them, that they still check in on me. 

In April last year my life took a nasty shift of which I am still recovering from.

Like many people I am struggling to get by financially, but I make enough to make ends meet so to speak.

I have a lot of effort and time going into trying to lose weight. I also am applying for a different job, not because I don't like it, but because I need more hours and stability.

Furthermore, I would like to say that I am getting better and better as each day passes, but of course there's always things on my mind.

I guess, I felt like sharing this here now. So yeah I don't know what to say, but thanks for reading and for continuing to support me.

Stay Shiny and see you soon!

Random Ramblin's 49 - It's Been A While

So here I am early hours of the morning on the 1st of August 2022, wide awake, listening to music. The usual (I guess). I am here trying to figure out how to write this. I been going between two minds for a while about writing another Random Ramblin's (which is a series of blog posts I do here on my blog which operate sorta like diary entries and place I go to share news and my mind and rant about.)

There's so much that has happened since my last entry, honestly. It's been a hell of a life, is what I have been saying as I have gone through a lot mentally and even physically these past few months to well, almost a year actually.

When was the last time I did a RR? *goes to look up last entry* Ah yes.....September 2021 and it's now.....August 2022. Wow! Time sure does fly! Anyway *Thinks to himself "what the hell do I write about? why am I doing this? why am I talking in my head and also writing this down?" SIGHS* 

Well without further ado, THIS....IS.......

RANDOM RAMBLIN'S!!!!

Alright, alright, alright. First off,

HOW ARE YOU?!

I hope you are well!

LIFE

How am I? Oh well thanks for asking, at the moment I am tired and in a lot of back pain from my new job. Oh yes! I have a new job well this is another another new job. Yes I quit my previous employer the cinema back in April. Also back in April my GF broke up with me but to be honest it looks like she left me for someone else, BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT I digress and this is just from MY VIEW after all and with all due respect, I won't say anything more on this matter. I do miss that Cinema job I'd be lying if I said otherwise.

ANYWAY I quit my Cwtchy cinema job to go work in a care home and It was great BUT I have/had a lot of unsolved trauma and I had so many memories pour back into me with dealing with Dementia residents because of my Nan who I sadly lost 2 years ago. The care home job was not for me at this time being sadly. In the months of May - July, I did not sign on to the Dole as it were and rather I was applying for work and having 2 interviews a week and eventually I landed the job I am in now and you know what, It's hard work right BUT I am liking it. What's my new role? Well I work as a Bartender in a restaurant and it's not as easy as it sounds or looks chief but hey I am enjoying it on most days. 

The past 5 months or so have definitely been a rebuild period for myself. Mentally and physically. It's tough and goes to show a lot of shit catches up to you and ruins you. I'm still on the mend from a lot of mental and physical issues but by taking the right steps daily and recognising when you need help and treatment is important and getting it is even more important and significant. I need to correct my posture and weight more really. I'm a work in progress and I always will be. Destroying bad habits and old habits takes time and a lot of energy and effort and consciousness (let's be fair) to make it all work and run smoothly. So just be aware of what's going on with yourself in your mind and body and try and sort any issues to save yourself in the future. Cheers for reading this bit of ramblin hehe. 😊👍

Unrelated but I have been watching a lot of Bill Burr stand up and Paul Smith stand up. 

Both fantastic comedians and I recommend giving them a nose. 

Wrestling

What a mad few months it has been for the wrestling world. Vince is gone from WWE and HHH is in charge due to the allegations against Vince making him retire from his duties with WWE.

In September WWE has their biggest PPV taking place in Cardiff, Wales and OF COURSE I AM GOING!!!!!

Film & Tv

Shocking and sad news with TV and Film land as Warner Bros have cancelled many films and TV shows including the Scoob sequel and the Batgirl film.

Dragonball Super: Superhero has released and it's incredible and so awesome!

Cw has called time on The Flash with season 9 being the last season and its also the shortest season as its been issued for only 13 episodes.

Gaming

Fortnite X Dragonball Super collab is probably Fort's best collab ever made, it is hella fun!

Music & Gigs

Machine Head, Slipknot and Five Finger Death Punch all got new album is out soon. (as of writing they are due to be released end of August and into September)

I am also seeing Machine Head and Amon Amarth in September!

Also seeing Corey Taylor in October!

Might see Three Days Grace in September but unsure yet it as it depends on my schedule and income.

Anyway that's all I got time for this week Basil haha.

Check me out on youtube & tiktok if you are bored or in need of a laugh.

If you need someone to talk to please give me a message anytime too!

Be well and be safe people!

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Stay Shiny!

You Are More Than What You Say.

You are not awful when you are tired, you are not gross when you have been sweating, you are not ugly when you are sick, you are not worthless when full of doubt. 

You are not cold when you are caring, you are not selfish when you are learning, you are quite cute when you are frowning, you are always loved and you always matter, when you are depressed. 

You are not a mess when you are feeling anxious, You are an angel and a blessing even in darkness. 

You are not useless when you are feeling unsure, you are not ever alone and you are not ever going to be hurt again for you possess the strength of a nuclear bomb but not only that, you have me also to lean back on. 

It's alright, believe me when i say all this and that you are doing a fantastic job with yourself alright, some days we may fall for sure, it happens but what matters most is how we get up and carry on.

Writen 5/5/20 @ 9pm.

Random Ramblin's 44 - The One With The 400TH Blog Post

What the heck do you mean this is my 400TH BLOG POST!!?!?!?

WOWE!!!!  Don't know how to respond to that news and it cause me hecking concern haha.

So I have been quiet here for a little while just wondering what to post, what to say because this is my 400th post and again It's crazy to see that and how far along this blog has come. 

(Some content here in this post may be upsetting and may cause triggers to some.)

Let's get a life update and ramble for a while randomly down the woods of my mysterious mind. 

So 6th March as you have read or seen, I had my first covid 19 vaccine. It knocked me off my feet with the side effects of the Zeneca first dose but I recovered fine 4 days after my jab. 

A question I get a lot is "Scott why did you dye your hair green?" the answer is simple, it's what I fancied, I wanted to dye my colour and I like green and so there we go. I will have red in my hair next but when that will happen well who knows. Also if you are new to my blog, hey I'm Scott aka 1stmetalgod as it is known on my youtube or twitter or even here on my blog which as you see it is titled 1stmetalBLOG. 

My Top 10 list's have made a come back and I look forward to doing more but I am in need of suggestions so please do send them my way via comments, fb, twitter just tag me @1stmetalgod.

Last year I did a charity awareness post and again this year I wish to do another one like it near the end of the year. 

I also last year wrote a lot of songs and poems and these are pure raw emotions I have expressed feeling through the power of the written word. These are just captures of emotions stuck in time when I look back at them and last year I went through so many complex emotions and the grief I have been suffering through the past year has been so rough and even now to this day I am still processing them and I am trying to do so in good and healthy ways but you know you can't be prepared for it all the time because it can hit you from nowhere and from everywhere some days. 

I lost 3 people last year and that has been some of the hardest shit I have ever had to go through and this pandemic and lack of seeing friends and family and loved ones and so much more has been so detrimental to my mental health so I have said and done stupid thing's and been depressed and quick to anger and sorrow and more and I've gone about things unhealthy and healthily. I've argued and fallen out and gotten back together with some very important people in my life during this crazy pandemic. It's all a learning curve for sure but as long as there's a support system, self care and self support and some sort of freedom within the world and ability to go places and see people it's a whole lotta good to have and to bring you back into balance and finding a balance whilst surviving a pandemic and coping with the changes and grief and the loss of so many things is and has been the hardest thing I have ever had to learn and adapt to and with. 

Keep in mind I have had to learn to walk, talk, write and to survive through epileptic seizures, broken bones and a car going into the back of my car during a driving lesson like almost 10 years ago not but I was diagnosed with whiplash from that. So I have overcome a lot and no doubt I will be overcoming more as we gaze into the crystal ball of life looking further into the unknown. 

Brings me to another point on my mind. My family will never see me, the spiritual and mental embodiment me now like they see me physically but you know I can't help but to feel they don't get that I like to be busy and doing something always, I'm not always laid back as I show around them and I am always thinking and wanting to be on the move and doing something like. It just urks me to be laughed at and ridiculed by my family and I'm sick of being told what I should do and stuff just leave me be and let me deal and figure things out and if I need advice I will ask for said guidance because I don't want to do shit or listen to what they have to think and want to enforce on me because that kinda thing makes me not want to do shit more. So I wish they would be happy for me when I am happy about something rather than drag me down because they may be in a shitty mood it really feels like the carpet is being pulled from under me. I just want respect and support and to not feel like a child and patience I would also like from others. 

I recently completed a few online courses. Child & Adolescent Mental Health, First Aid and Parapsychology Diploma. So I am now entitled to use these next to my name O.A. Dip (Parapsychology) as per instructions on the certificate of the diploma. I will hope to be educating myself more on things I am interested in and there's a career path I do wish to give a try and that's to become a support worker so I will be putting energy into finding out more about that kind of work and how I could become one, down the road here of life but for now I'm just learning new skills and gaining new qualifications for my own personal interest and development. 

Since January I have lost 3 and a half stone. I have had an injury in February placing me to rest for a little while and as of writing I feel well in my ankle and leg since pulling a ligament and bruising and having a small fracture in my pinky toe. I have been walking every single day before my injury and after my injury i have done little walks now and again and the last walk I did was a 5 mile walk and I am so easily prone to blisters and god have I suffered some nasty ones. I may have taken a slow detour but I am not going over board in comfort eating and other bad habit's I have had and have carried with me for all these 25 plus years. 

I feel like this past year and even the year before that I have been discovering a lot about myself and I am thankful for this and these discoveries even when times have been tough and I have thought about doing the utmost worse things to myself to take myself out of the life equation and this is sad but true. I was at a point in my life where nothing seemed to be going well and everything seemed dark and heated with others and loss of so many people and things all at once and living each day the exact same just was having me so hollow and dark and depressed and alone, it truly was a horrible thing to experience and go through. I was drinking a lot more than I ever have in my darkest clouds and taking more pain killers and in the darkest times I thought and even said out loud to people closest to me about having had enough and that a rope or more pain killers than usual are sounding like the best bet for me but listen to me now, I did not do or attempt any of that I merely imagined dark scenarios and thoughts and my friends here reading this, I urge you now if you ever felt or feel like this to talk to someone you trust about it all and please get the help and help youself out of it aswell, it's not nice and not easy to do but please it's better than taking your own life. These thought's and dark bout I had came from last year and not from the recent injury I must say to be clear. 

Point of a lot of this I am making is that, I am just still discovering myself right now and there's a lot of internal and external work I need or would like to do for myself just it will all take time and It won't come overnight and that I am ramblin' now but even through the darkest day's, this guy and the fire inside him will burn, always. 

So that will conclude my life update at this moment in time as of writing. Anything could happen at anytime and as ever I hope you are having a nice day and staying well and safe mentally and physically. I hope you enjoyed reading this, it was a lot of personal insight to myself and it's not always easy to blog or talk about openly or so publicly so to speak as my blog is of public nature. Probably the next life update of any kind I will give is when the pandemic is over or something else, who really knows we will just wait and see but I am certain for before then that I will be posting other interesting things here on my blog. 

So for now and for always, thanks for reading and supporting me and stay shiny!

When I Go Do This For Me

 Must remember to ask someone to get the narrator from dbz to do me an outro to my funeral with this piece of music - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lgqFvGWlPF0&list=WL&index=136&ab_channel=RobbieWallace2007%7BFifiLaFume%27sHusband%7D

"And so we see the body of Scott laid to rest. He was a good man with the kindest heart, with the best-est of friends. His loves for dragonball, star wars and wrestling will live on forever in the hearts of those who cared for him best. Scott never rest until the day was done where he made someone laugh, smile or feel special about themselves. He even seen lights in the darkest of places in the darkest of people. He made friends from enemies and made enemies along the way but one thing never changed and that was his heart of gold. Friends and family we ask you to shed a tear, to crack a smile, to be good to each other and always remember the legend of this man today, we are gathered one last time to say goodbye to, Farewell Scott until the next episode of after life Z."

I've Had My First Covid Vaccine!

 Friday 5th March, 

I went to my local GP after being contacted on Tuesday 2nd March (click here for that post)

I met with a nurse named Naomi and she was tidy and helpful enough, giving me the details on what I can expect and answering my questions I had about it. I rolled up my sleeve once we was both ready and she inserted the needle into my arm injecting the first dose into my arm. Astra vaccine is what I was given.

What I felt was a sharp pinch followed by like cold liquid touching my skin well going into my arm so say for example a bit of water splashed you and it ran down your arm? It's basically what that felt like.

Side effects I was told about were headache, aches in joints and my arm feeling dead so pins and needles like and static basically. I felt really tired then after my jab.

Further or any more update on side effects and how I feel, I will post another update with and you can bet in 12 weeks time I will be doing another blog post and video on getting my second and final dose of the vaccine down the line.

I am making youtube videos documenting this and the first video will be uploaded soon on my youtube channel which is called: 1stmetalgod. CLICK HERE FOR THE VIDEO!

Any questions you have feel free to message me or leave a comment.

Thanks for reading!

THANK YOU NHS!

Top 10 AEW Entrance Theme Songs

Hey, what's up?

It's been a while since I did a top 10 so why not return and return to the blog with a top 10 all new and fresh out of my mind and today's digestive topic is AEW Wrestling Entrance themes. 

So I'm going to be listing my top 10 faves. I hope you like this list and the songs on them and if you have any other suggestions please comment or tag me on twitter @1stmetalgod. 

10: Arrival - Sting

New to the brand but a legend in the ring Sting shocked the world a few months back by appearing in AEW. Of course with Sting here we can't help but to always shout at the arrival of the immortal one with a loud "WOO!" and say "IT'S STIIIIIIIIIIINGG!!!!!!!". 

9: Everybody Dies - Lance Archer

So destructive and unstable just like the murderhawk, i really like his theme. 

8: Join Us - Dark Order

Cult like and dark and intimidating as are the team of the Dark Order but also the theme is very badass heavy and catchy now JOIN US.

7: Juicy - Orange Cassidy

Far out man it's the laid back freshly squeezed one himself. I love Orange he is so funny but also he is such a great talent. 

6: Battle Cry - Kenny Omega

Video game themed suiting Kenny's likes and ofcourse when it kicks in with that demonic voice and speedy instrumentals it's so good and really makes him stand out. 

5: Kingdom - Cody Rhodes

Cody's theme is iconic with AEW and himself and it's so catchy, fits him and its a great bop. 

4: Tarzan Boy - Jungle Boy

Tony Khan the mad legend himself surprised us and Jungle Boy with this hell of a Christmas present a 80s classic and one which is so fun it represents Jungle Boy to a tee for so many obvious reasons, belter of a song and a hell of a competitor is Jungle Boy. 

3: I Fell - Darby Allin

Slow, unsteady, calm but collected and very impactful, Darby is such an enigma he's grown to become one of my favourite wrestlers since AEW has come about. 

2: Unscripted Violence - Jon Moxley

Plug in and play but beware for here comes the MOX, talk about making yourself known with such a badass unrelating song to walk out to, perfect edgy fit for the maniac Jon is. 

1: Judas - Chris Jericho

You can't help but to sing along and love this one. It's such a great song and so fitting for Jericho and this is my number one fave pick for my list.

(all aew names, songs, logos belong to their respective copyright holders!)

Thanks for reading, that's my list, come back again for more blogs and top 10s and all other assorted bits and bobs to make you laugh and make you think. 

Random Ramblin's 43 - Reflection Post Halloween 2020

Reflection time!😎

So Halloween 2020 was an unusual one. This year is so abnormal. We in Wales are in lockdown once more but the firebreak national welsh lockdown is nearing it's end, unfortunately Covid is still roaming. Its been hard for sure but there's also some great things that have and are still happening.

I've done an amazing job and I'm proud of myself for my facepaint. Which even Finn himself liked my demon Bálor paint (1st pic) and the 2nd pic was Cobra Kai halloween inspo with a skeleton they are seen in.😊

OK so I've also got my fave band Sabaton autographs so that is freaking incredible and amazing!!!!🤗😁🤯🥳 I managed to learn The Black Parade more on piano and am trying to learn more and practice more.😄 I've been back gaming and enjoying it after what felt like ages of having a period of unenjoyment with games but all good and fun again. 🙂 I also had the newest Mha movie on steel book triple play and I been waiting ages for it to arrive and I finally have it!!!☺️

Been a while since I posted here but I felt now was a good time. 

I'm healing, I'm grieving and some days are harder than others. Life is hard and has more uncertainties than ever before. Never lose hope always keep ahold of it and try to laugh and have a person who can wrap their arms around you even from far away and help you get back up on your feet when life has you down. 

I'm an advocate for hope and I won't ever lose hope, I'll keep a tight hold on it.

Peace with you all, look after your minds, be mindful of all the information you take on and don't overload yourself or over work yourself.

Take it easy people!

✌️ 😊✌️

Scott

Random Ramblin's 42 - Rock Bottom/The Times They Are A Changin'

It takes a lot to see and recognise your faults and to confront them in yourself and your emotions too for that matter. First step of any problem is admitting you have one and facing it head on.

The self reflection and all the emotions lockdown and this year have caused has been a long time coming perhaps and this is a sign that things need shifting and changing.

Change is not easy. Things take time and plenty hard work and dedication.

Sometimes being at rock bottom is a good thing because the only way out is by going up.

Remember to talk to someone you trust about any problems or bad times in your life.

Remember it's okay to cry and to let our your emotions is all healthy.

Don't give up, find your inner fire and feel it, don't you see that's your inner hope and hope is something always worth living for!

Remember to stay shiny and stay hydrated!

Random Ramblin's 40 - WHAT?! CORONA LOCKDOWN!

Hi there, you join me in the comfort of a dark room, sipping upon blue wkd with some synthwave instrumental music on in the background. Comforting right? Oh yes i agree. Anyway it has been a while since i did a RR but here we are back again! 

There's been a lot to write about but i have expressed my worries, rants, concerns and feelings into my gorgeous girlfriend instead, so i aswell as she could take a load off our heads and just get back to feeling good and moving in a rhythm. BUT lately this year, well hey, we are at the end of April and for me this year has been............TERRIBLE! 

It's a shocking, upsetting, depressing, year and my mental health has fluctuated a whole lot! 

I won't go into everything that has happened this year but; I have lost my nan, lost someone else close, had arguments, we are in a world emergency crisis and locked-down so unable to see my woman or any of my loved ones or friends, I've had toxic people try to control me and my mrs and one tried to use us as scape goats and that my dear readers is not what a friend is or does, regardless of history with said person you do not do that to a friend or anyone ever!

So yeah this lockdown has come to be and it's added more stresses and more cracks are being unearthed in my foundations of mental stability. I am cracking under all that i have gone through this year, i am cracking up under all this lockdown and quarantine nonsense, i'm cracking, i am breaking.

Each time i think or say it cannot possibly get any worse, it does something happens and makes me breakdown uncontrollably and cry or feel angry or frustrated. The most dangerous thing right now in all this lock-down is being locked inside our minds with the negative thoughts.

We all need to take care and go gentle on ourselves!

I am a grown ass man and i have my feelings and i am very much in tone with those feelings i am a highly sensitive person and i am not ashamed to admit that i feel things and that i cry. I recently for the first time in my life cried in my shower that's how broken things are for me at this moment in time as i type all this out loud, as i cry again from my head being such a horrible force to go against me, it feels as if its trying to ruin things trying to make me not have nice things to sabotage my own happiness like.

It's fucking insane! 

It's insane to feel so broken in yourself too. It's crazy to feel insecure about yourself but also so highly emotional and to be a person with such strong empathy like myself its bloody hard too. It's hard when you feel so much that you care so much about every single little thing and how you must want everything to run perfect and smoothly too but it does not so you make back ups and back ups of back ups and so many back ups that you are backed up of back ups.

Got no work, can't see my mrs, family or friends, I can't really go anywhere and do anything because it's only shopping or exercise locally or face a fine or possible jail time in this crisis.

Only thing good about the Corona-apocalypse is the memes.
People need to stop hoarding items mind you and stop lighting grass fires and stop fly tipping!

I am living with so much trauma and grief right now. 

I hope you are doing better than me.

I will be bright as a diamond again soon!

Remember to stay shiny! 

Better days are coming!

Random Ramblin's 40 - Are You Watching Facebook Man!?

Hello everyone, back so soon? I know what's going on?
THIS IS MY 300TH POST!

Life

Been having car problems after problems after problems so annoying and frustrating, how is it possible to live life without any stresses or worries when cars keep haemorrhaging money out of me. 

Besides car worries and the rant just below this, it's not all been all gloomy in my recent times. I went away with the Mrs to Quay West and we had a lush time, I highly recommend everyone go to Quay West and Ceredigion and Aberaeron also. 

I went with the Mrs to watch NXT UK Live in Cardiff, we went to the takeover live ppv show and the Sunday tv tapings and we thoroughly enjoyed. It was so amazing, sure Sunday was longer and it was so uncomfortable seating wise compared to the night before. Saturday we was on top in the middle of the tiered seating which gave us a fantastic view and we was comfy and it was so great. Sunday we sat 10 rows from the ring which was amazing too but the seats were so cramped and uncomfy it did my head in and has messed up my knee as it still hurts now. All in all we enjoyed so much we can't wait to do it again if they come back to Cardiff. The crowd was amazing and the chants were epic! P.s. The title of this post was a chant.

I recently also won a massive teddy from a local arcade and honestly it's huge it's bloody 6ft for christ sake haha. I gave it to my Mrs and it was bloody insane everyone was looking at me and they looked so amazed and jealous haha. It was stuck in a machine where you hold a button and release when the scissors gets to the string holding the bear and you release and it cuts it and it took me 2 goes which is £3 as it was £1 a go so three goes and i had it. I told her i'm gonna win that! I did! Call me Arcade King!

MUSIC

Taylor's new album is out and i like a few songs, such as; Lover, Me!, Paper Rings, I forgot that you existed, Cornelia St and Cruel Summer.

Slipknot's new album is out too and from this new album We Are Not Your Kind i love the following songs; Unsainted, Birth Of The Cruel, Nero Forte, Spiders, Critical Darling, Solway Faith, Red Flag and Orphan.

TOOL ARE BACK!
(I've not listened to their album Fear Inoculum as of writing)

A note on music: Music, it's starts with a sound, add in some repetition and the brain will think it's a song or it will mold it into a song so to speak. Music is amazing it can help people relearn how to speak, help people with movement disabilities move more, music can act like a drug aswell and has a deep connection to our feelings. Music itself is culturally universal and as far as we are aware other primates don't really get the same feeling of beats like we do it's been said. All music starts as air before we hear it, repeated sound creates rhythm, it all goes in through our ear processed via our brains and that is where we make it out and develop a love or a dislike to music and some music in general really. Back in 2009 scientists and the world discovered an animal that would move along to the music in time even when the track was sped up or down and more animals have been discovered to be able to do this since that wonderful Cockatoo named Snowball almost ten years ago. Ronin a sea lion in California is the first non human mammal confirmed to really get grooving with Earth Wind and Fire in a Boogie Wonderland. When sounds repeat fast enough we hear it as a pitch and multiple pitches create harmony. Octaves are pitches with double or half the frequency of another. Major scale is associated with happy feelings and minor meaning the opposite but of course this is not universal because someone in another country could experience the opposite where the minor is happy and major is sad.

Games
I want to play Gears 5 and Man Of Medan. Fortnite is going mental but i am not playing it so much now a days. Been playing Lego Undercover at the moment, it's alright like. Restarted Animal Crossing New Leaf as things fucked up so i can't wait to get back into that. 

"Do you think a chair ever wants to sit on a person?"

Thanks for reading, stay tuned for more lists and other bits here on my blog! 

STAY SHINY!

My Top 10 Colours

Bit of a random list, I know that. But let's just roll with it :) 

10: White

9: Black

8: Grey (Storm)

7: Pink

6: Silver

5: Gold

4: Purple

3: Blue

2: Green

1: Red

What are your fave 10 colours? Did you like this bit of a random spontaneous list? Whatever you think and feel about this list, do come back and do stay shiny!

A Discouraged Self Note

Applying for a new role means you have tried, its a good thing to show interest.

You have nothing to lose but everything to gain. It's alright. 

It's okay to feel disheartened or disappointed or to have a cry, even if you didn't want to cry in regards to not getting a new role. You tried with a valiant effort.

Another opportunity will come don't sweat it. 

Be proud of your attempt and trust in yourself and your abilities because you are so amazing, so loved and adored and praised by not just your lover but by family and friends too.

Keep busting your ass kid and all good things will follow suit.

Love yourself more and be kinder and patient don't hate or discourage or disappoint yourself and you'll be fine. Take time relax and breathe and think positive. 

Think of your love because she inspires you to be greater, be the man she sees you as. Believe in her who believes in you! 

Remember who you are and what you are capable of. Be strong, believe in the good, believe in you!

This is a note for me, by me. 

Random Ramblin's 39 - The Great Rant

IT'S SUMMER TIME! 

MUSIC
CHECK OUT SABATON - THE GREAT WAR. This album is a modern masterpiece an instant classic. One of the best albums i have ever heard and that i have in my collection. 10/10

Taylors new album lover is coming August 23, 2019 so me and Mrs cant wait to hear it. So far Me is my fave it just clicked instantly. You need to calm down was too pop political for me to get into. Archer is dark and I dont quite know what to make of it after one listen. We see what the rest is like when its out.

FILMS
Lion King Remake is a cash grab that's mediocre and fails to capture the magic or essence of the original. No emotion in animals, does not flow as smoothly as original i felt. The realism is nice but there's more that should have been done for it. 3/10

Yesterday has a lot of questions or sets them out but does not in anyway answer them and its got too much Ed Sheeran for my liking 5/10

Rocketman was decent and entertaining and the music sequences and transitions was great 7/10

Spiderman Far From Home was crap its just another iron man movie not a spiderman, fuck up Marvel 3/10

Toy Story 4 is the weakest toy story film but still made me cry like a baby 7/10

Batman Hush is a great new addition to the DCAU and it was great to see Hush brought to the big screen even if it is animated. and we get a great twist and finale in this. 8/10

Games
Not played much i got 2 new games but not played them aswell as others from a while ago i bought but there we go in it. I play Fortnite a lot is all. 

RANT
I'm getting tired of people buying cats or dogs then making a social media account up. I get it you want attention or you want people to know and follow the thing you love most but jesus christ when does it even evolve from being your own pet to being loads others own pet instead. It feels like they are not their pets but sharing it with all their followers and im not for that. A pet isnt for boosting you on social media and a pet shouldn't be forced that and also if you are getting a pet take care of it yourself and not show it off and hope people will take care of it or whatever reason people do this shit for. Get a pet for yourself not to promote and pass off to others to make yourself matter.

Also dear petty people of the world. Dont be that person to make others feel down or bad and dont break your relationship status over anything small or trivial only to the next week or day go back to happy families. Either stick to your guns and dont bitch and moan or just stick together. If its true love you wouldn't separate go off in a huff create drama because you want attention and then go back to your partner and act like nothing happened. You do more harm than good and one day the other person will realise the terrible harm you are causing and will walk out of your life and not return so be careful.

Family life: I hate being the last to know of things and I hate coming home to get it in the neck for no reason other than the people mad at me are just angry at their own problems. I'm always nice, polite, well mannered and honest and yet you know I'll come home from a 8 hour shift to "did you break the printer?", "chew quieter why are you so loud" to an empty house without my dog and for me to worry and panic looking for him when family haven't said they were off away on holiday with him. Courtesy please give me some as I need to know this information but apparently seems to not be of importance to let me know of anything. Some family members I dont see anymore or much of and I try to contact them but get nothing of when I can come see them, there's no communication on their part and that upsets me. Family is family we are supposed to all support and love eachother but just seems like voids are just the normal as we all age and have our own homes and families of our own and that sucks and its sad. So yeah apologies to rant so much but I need to get all this out and once I start I dont want to stop because I cant stop.

******************This might come across as controversial so beware! I in no way, am saying anything negative with mental health or those who suffer it, I am merely asking a question. I don't wish to offend anyone with this and please if you are suffering or battling with your mental health do seek help and talk to friends and family you trust and write your problems out and focus on taking care of yourself. 😊👍********************

Do you think people take too much advantage with the state of mental health these days?

Example; Are some generally doing it and feeling, experiencing it or are some crying Wolf and abusing the mental health system to benefit sick pay and days off? Curious to know thoughts on this because its an interesting topic.

I've heard a lot of stories of some people glorifying the whole "i'm anxious/depressed I need a week off, paid sick leave" I'm not in anyway saying that people are not dealing with any actual mental battles are faking it in anyway, I'm only saying there's some out there that will say things and take advantage of people and you'll end up seeing them going abroad, smiling, getting a tan or out partying drunk constantly.

Everyone has a natural anxiety level within them. Everyone can/will get depressed at some point in their lives of course and I'm not saying different or that some can get an extreme case of these and still go on and do amazing things while battling it. Just saying or asking; How many of these cases are actual real cases and how many are not? I'm interested in finding out.

Also how unfair is it to have these troubles and wait and wait and panic or feel afraid to seek medical help and for the doctors to not listen to you and to tell you to "go home get plenty fluids down you" or "nah you're all fine".

Thing is the system and this topic is tricky and it's not always straight forward. We all need more and better care and awareness. Start teaching it in schools. There's loads to be taught in schools I know and I'll probably do another post on this at some point.

Also; It's strange how when you're down and lonely some people will not care but when you are happy that some people will start to hate and thrive off trying to put you down and not support you or like seeing you happy.

To those kinds of people I say good day, because no one has time for that and no one has any room in their life to be that sad and jealous of others happiness.

I have no room anymore in my life for put downs or negative, snide, snark remarks I just block and remove or unfollow on social media because I am done with all that shit.

Simply put if you aren't happy for someone else being happy, don't be a dick and try to ruin their days or their lives by saying negative comments or by direct/private messaging them shit. And don't be that guy to say in person "I'm fed up of your lovey dovey crap" well kindly fuck off out of life because you are not needed in it and it wont be tolerated at all.

People wont support you at your lowest but will at your highest. I find that bullshit too. You could be all like "woe is me" and some decent people will be like "oh its gonna be OK" or there will be those that will laugh at you and say "grow up!" and scroll on. People need to start being decent beings instead of shitty ones. The fakery I've always said needs to stop too, I cant tolerate it, I'll remove and unfollow that crap. You can be there for others but its also funny how the same people won't be for you. Life is strange.

Forget politics forget work. Look after yourself, always be kinder. You are never a burden to talk to others about your problems. If you think you are and that they won't get you or understand well you are wrong. They will. Self love is not taught because no one has mastered it yet. Be kind and gentle and don't put the weight of the world on your shoulders. Everyone needs to be kinder to themselves. 

Feeling uncomfortable in your skin? Maybe it's not yours maybe it's someone else's and your an alien who took that skin and decided to wear it to start a secret invasion. Maybe or maybe not 😉.

Tossing the coin to you guys here seeing and reading this. What do you think of all this? What's your experiences and what do you think needs to be done?

Let me know, thanks for reading 😊👍 Stay Shiny!

Late Night Ramblin's Vol 4: Fitness Bug Come Back!

Oh how the mighty fall.

Start of the year I said I'm going to go to the gym again and just go for it lose weight eat better I did good cheat days aside.

In fairness I did lose 2 stone and my arms were getting bigger by that I mean the muscles were actually growing haha.

Anyway work picked up and I got sick which cut me off from gym for 2 weeks and due to sickness and tiredness from work and I also top it off lost my gym card and it took my gym ages to send me a replacement but ofcourse I slipped back into the lazy shit that I am at home.

I feel ashamed to admit it but yeah I've slipped, I've messed up and gone back to this puppy fat mess that my body is.

All that progress gone.

Well the gym ain't cheap, time has to be made and I have to kick my arse back in gear and go for it again.

I need to not quit. Not to get lazy at home. I'd love to have a friend help me out be like personal trainer go for walks, jogs, pump iron, get the stamina up and help kick my metabolism and testosterone up to max.

Of course I need to sort my fussy eating habits out of junk food the likes of crisps, chocolate, burgers, hot dogs, fried chicken, curry, pizzas, chips you know that generic crap. Need to go more nutrition and protein mad.

Thing is I am so indecisive and just lazy and easy to quit and give up and go back to the state of laziness.

I ain't getting any younger, I do have joint pain and I ain't been or seem my prime state before no one has. I wonder what my beast mode would look like, course being cocky now I'd kill for Finn Balor abs.

So guy's I need your help, I need your positive vibes, feed me your energy, post comments or message me wherever and whenever just egg me on please believe in me.

I'll get started again soon as my work schedule is quieter.

Late Night Ramblin's Vol 3 - The Question Of Life And The Pondering Of Death

The universe is massive, it's ever expanding, the planet is home to 7 billion people and Earth is 4.5 billion years old. It's crazy to think about it aint it?

How did this all happen? How did we get here? How did we become alive? What will happen when we die? I don't want to die. What can i do to not have that happen? What happens? 

God I can't tell you how much of an over thinker i am. Thinking about death and questioning the point of life if we are to be gone it puts me in a state of panic. 

Writing about it right here, right now makes my body feel so cold, like the blood has vanished from my body, i feel so cold, i'm in a state of panic, my thoughts are too much. I can't handle it at times i need a distraction to take my mind away from it. I feel like i can't breathe. It's too much to handle to think about to contemplate. 

Does anyone else get like this?

I need help i know i do. 

It's hard to get off my mind, it scares me, it's scaring me now. I thought talking about it well writing about it here would be easier for me but it still hits me hard. I can't tell you how hard it hits me, like i said it brings me down and just makes me upset and just scared. 

I do believe in the power of reincarnation but i want my memories i want to live, i want life. I don't want to be switched off, the fear is too much to handle. 

What do i do? 

What can i do about this?

Distract my mind?

Make a better life to get a better mind?

I have no clue. 

It's 5am let's try to sleep and hope i'm fine in the morning and get this shit out of my head. Thanks for popping in and reading. 

Fallout Is Love, Fallout Is Life (parody story)

Back when I was a little boy my father locked me away in a vault. He sacrificed himself to save my life. 

Years passed and I matured and grew to be an adult then came reclamation day, when men and women would all gather to leave our underground vault shackled lives behind to go above the ground and to actually feel the ground and take in the air which hit our faces and filled our lungs, it soothed me. 

That's when I saw it.....the destruction, the mass wasteland, full of rads, bandits and creatures the likes of which mankind has never encountered before. 

I turn to go back to the vault out of fear of this big scary open world in front of me, only to see it.....it stood tall....dark course skinned.....had long sharp claws and a deafening roar....it hugged me tightly...taking the air out of my lungs. And that's when it....it.....it bent me over and said "Fallout is love, Fallout is life" but before it could penetrate my butthole, the creature was slain by a stranger using vats. 

"I'm saved what a relief" I said when the stranger came close to me and whispered in my ear. "Another settlement needs your help". 

I quiver still to this day of those words...with my skin fully absorbed of radiation the radio cries uranium fever and now I prowl, living un-dead a Ghoul for the wasteland barren as it seems, it's now my home.

"Fallout Is Love" I said, "Fallout Is Life"...........

****Alternative***

I was only 27. I loved Fallout so much. I had all the games, a tattoo and a pipboy. Every night I would play Fallout religiously, singing all the songs even when the sound was off. I'd pray to the Bethesda gods "Fallout Is Love" I said "Fallout Is Life". My Dad comes into my room he call's me "sad act!" I knew he was jealous of my devotion to Fallout. I tell him to shut up, he rubs my head really hard and tell's me to be quiet as he's off to bed. My doors closed now. My head hurts. I'm laying in bed and then it get's really cold. I feel something warm. It's moving towards me. It touches me. It's Vault Boy! I'm so happy! He whispers in my ear "Fallout 76". He turns on his pip boy and show's me the wonderful trailer. I'm crying. I am ready for this. My body is ready for the love Bethesda presents me. An image appears at the end for the collectors edition, I almost die from the excitement. I have tight pains in my chest, it hurts so much but I do it for my Vault Boy. I feel the hype inside me rising, I can't stop crying. I must buy this game! Vault Boy roars "Uranium Fever" as he shows me more gameplay from 76. My Dad walks in tired and pissed off. Vault Boy looks us straight in the eyes and say's "Releases 14th November 2018". Vault Boy leaves through my window. I collapse in my bed. Fallout Is Love, Fallout Is Life. 

War Hasn't Changed......

War Never Changes......

Where The Cheat Codes At?!

Some people like to think that Cheats have vanished from video games...I don't think that's true but then again what was the last game i played with cheats?

It was most likely....GRAND THEFT AUTO 5! 

Yes i believe that was the last game i played which had cheats in. This game came out back in 2013 originally but then came out once more on the current gen consoles a year later. 

Also the last code i used that worked was for a secret item in Rocket League but i am unsure to class it as a cheat or not but hey here it is - At the starting screen, before the title screen appears and without skipping any previous splash screens, press Up(2), Down(2), Left, Right, Left, Right, Circle, X, Options. When the title screen appears, the text will read "Supersonic Acrobatic Rocket-Powered Battle-Cars", which was an older title from the game's developer. 

I love Rocket League and i felt like i had to share the code to any of my friends reading this, incase they did not know already but here is the code to unlock a cool item and Easter egg so enjoy everyone!

Originally cheat codes started for the testers as a way of debugging games, they were basically codes in the games themselves. Back in the days of early 90's gaming and before that if these cheat codes were removed by the developers it would cause the game some game breaking bugs and glitches. Back then only a select amount were allowed to stay in games only to simply test the game out and make sure everything works. Games these days are made so differently and with more tech so it makes it easier to remove these codes and just glue up most bugs in the games coding but of course this "gluing process" does not make the games stable and fully debugged at all since as time has progressed things have become quite complex and thus is why most games come out buggy on release specifically Ubisoft games. 

Cheat codes were thought of to be a taboo matter back with last gen as if you used them, the trophies and achievements would get disabled which sucks. If you loved using cheats on ps2 or xbox etc it felt as if using cheats was punishment in a way, because jumping from ps2 to ps3 and to play a gta title was a slap in the face it felt like. Cheats on GTA in the PS2 days "go nuts kid" and then in PS3 days it was "Sorry kid we have to turn trophies off if you wish to use cheats." and my response was "why?!" why do this to us gamers? Your most reliable fans? Why slap us for using codes you guys supplied the general public with? Was it really the publisher's fault or was it the maker of the consoles we have fault for the disablement of trophies or achievements on the console we used these codes on? 

Cheats have existed for years and even though people may say they have faded least we forget they have and will always exist under their alternative name known as, Mods. 

I suppose the Konami code will still work on Konami games for well ever because it's the longest most reliable cheat code in history but time will tell if that get's erased or not down the line, in this dark age of loot boxes and vr gaming. 

Don't worry too much though, we still have fond memories of cheats we used and we can only hope cheats return to full form in the next gen of gaming and that our fave sandbox games like GTA and Saints Row will have cheats because without cheats those games would not be the same. 

Thanks for reading!

Stay Shiny!

GAME ON!

Random Ramblin's 34 - Insert Title Here

No title, no problem because that no title thing has become a title...does this make me a champion now?

Helo, how are you? Hope you are well as ever my dear reader and my METALLIC NATION! If you are not well, do drop me a message or tweet or comment and let's chat and hopefully i can make you feel a bit better but if that fails well at least we had a chat. Pull up a chair as a month has past since the last post here on my blog, so let's have a catch up. 

Still working on them ebooks....it takes time so i am not rushing anything. Also been working on a new fan fiction based off DBZ so it's quite exciting. 

Speaking of DBZ.....earlier this month i got to meet one of my hero's with the voice of Goku himself and had my ballz signed too of course and a chat and fist bump and handshake and even did the Kamehameha with him too so you know it was just insaiyan pride! 

Weird News Sunday is going well, i am really happy people are tuning in and enjoying the videos and talking about them with me. If you have a weird news story do send it in to me please.

Find what makes you happy and pursue a career path with it. Channel all negative energy and keep on being you! #MotivationMonday

"Pringles are an addiction, don't get into them" XD #FunniestAdviceYouEverRecieved

Mad seeing someone you used to work with drive a bus now. Not seen em in 2/3 years a nice catch up with a cleaner i used to work with in security. 

Edgar Wright liked one of my tweets....cool eh?

SAD NEWS

R.I.P. Original ‘Godzilla’ Suit Actor Haruo Nakajima

R.I.P. Chester Bennington

R.I.P John Heard

R.I.P Pudsey (Bgt Dog Winner)
R.I.P. Sonny Landham
R.I.P. Bruce Forsyth

MUSIC NEWS

NEW MARS SINGLE SOON! Keep posted here, where i will most likely do a comment or maybe i will do a reaction video to it!

Trivium's new song The sin and the sentence is out and boy does it kick ass!

EXCITING NEWS

I got into Gamemaster magazine and won the STAR LETTER. After so many years i have written into them and now it happened and oh i was in it again for suggesting Baby Driver would be a good game! Wondering what i won for being letter of the month aka star letter? I won a Ready Player One book and PS4 Ezio collection :) 

GAME NEWS 

SIMS 4 IS COMING TO PS4!!!!!

Michael Myres is coming to Deadlight!!!!

I bought Crash Bandicoot it's hard as hell! 

Been grinding my way through WWE 2K17 career mode a lot.....not getting anywhere.....

FILM BIT

This is the bit i list what films i have watched this month and say a bit about them and maybe rate them...

Valerian is a pretty good film. The visuals were the best thing about the film. Would have been an epic game if Bioware made it 6/10.

Atomic Blonde is good with amazing action scenes but it's story is ok  and i did think the last 10 mins were not needed but its sexy stylish and i'd give it 8/10. My movie of the month!

The Mummy 2017 this is not how you do a mummy film and kick of a dark universe, i see what they were trying to do but it did not work i think it was ok but nothing that special 4/10. 

Pandorum was ok...interesting indeed but just ok 5/10. 

The Last Witch hunter is pretty good not going to lie, i did enjoy it 7/10. 

iBoy is pretty good 6/10. 

ADVICE OF THE MONTH

Life...it'll make you worried, scared, sad and angry but on the bright side it will make you laugh, smile and be happy. Enjoy yourself!

That is all i have so thanks for reading as ever.

Next month i am off on holiday and going to London aswell so see you soon :)