Top 10 ATTACK ON TITAN songs!

To commemorate the end of the ATTACK ON TITAN series, I have decided to list my 10 fave songs from the anime. This will include, openings and ending themes aswell as OST from all seasons of the titan shifting series.

Jiyuu No Tsubasa - Linked Horizon

The second opening is kicking off my list. Linked Horizon are absolutely outstanding with all of their musical work they have provided for the attack on titan series. The title means Wings Of Freedom. The song explores the themes of freedom, struggle and victory over oppression and how it is an ongoing battle.

Red Swan - Yoshiki, Hyde

A truly beautiful song that has made me cry a few times. "Red Swan" is a song about the power of love and hope, as well as the courage to keep fighting despite adversity. The lyrics tell the story of someone who is trying to make a better life for themselves despite their fear and hardships. The singer encourages them to try and keep going, to reach for the stars, to overcome the darkness in their life. The singer uses the imagery of a red swan to symbolize their determination to reach the light and to fly away despite the pain. The song speaks to the strength of the human spirit and the willingness to break free from cycles of hurt and find happiness.

Under The Tree - Sim

A dramatic, emotional track from Sim and yes SIM will appear again on this list, they are absolute TITANS with their music. It was so awesome to have SIM appear and make two songs for this anime which have gone on to gain critical success. "Under the Tree" is a song about wanting to hold onto a relationship with someone who has left, despite time moving forward and the uncertainty of whether the other person feels the same way.

Attack On Titan - Hiroyuki Sawano

Ok so Hiroyuki Sawano is an incredible musician and composer for piecing the next few songs together on my list. What starts is electro followed by the orchestral choir which is the signature musical style Hiroyuky brings with his original soundtrack. His music brings the destruction, emotions, betrayals and grandiose battles to scale!

Bauklotze - Hiroyuki Sawano

Hange makes their last stand with this beautiful song accompanying it. The song's title means "Building Blocks" in German. While the lyrics themselves may not have a direct connection to the plot or themes of the series, the song's overall composition and use within the show contribute to the viewer's experience and engagement with the story. Sawano's music has played a significant role in making "Attack on Titan" a memorable and emotionally powerful anime series.

You See Big Girl - Hiroyuki Sawano

Death and destruction coming from a seemingly unstoppable beast that towers over 60ft high this track captures that feel of seeing the death and destruction and even madness that follows from seeing an ally turn into the very thing that has been killing your friends and family. The use of various languages and the blend of orchestral and electronic elements in the soundtrack contribute to the overall epic and intense experience of the series.

Boku No Sensou - Shinsei Kamattechan

A truly terrifying military march lead into death and destruction, what would happen if the armies of the world had titans in their control? It would be scary, and this one backs it up but it's so damn catchy! JUSTICE, JUSTICE LA LA VIVI DA! The title means My War.

The Rumbling - Sim

Once again we have Sim with their strongest song dedicated to the horrific ground shaking event known as The Rumbling! The song ties in and captures Eren’s perspective for the last season. Eren having a catastrophic plan and fights to control his own destiny.

Shinzo Wo Sasageyo! - Linked Horizon

Come on now, sing it loud and proud with me my brother's! SASAGEYO, SASAGEYO, SHINZO WO SASAGEYO! The title means dedicate your hearts!

Gurren No Yumiya - Linked Horizon

The song that started it all, first time I heard this, I was blown away and so hyped. It always gets me hyped and singing and imagining just swinging along slashing Titans down. The title means the bow and arrow of crimson.

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Is This Death I Fear? (Original poem/lyrics) - By SJones

Bloody battlefields, neath shield I lay,

Battered, broken, my faith led astray,

Is there anyone out there,

Can anyone hear my cries for help,

I'm alone and afraid to look,

Are my brothers all dead and gone,

Do my enemies still lurk near,

Is This Death I Fear,

Arrows snapped in two,

Dagger pierced through,

I'm bleeding out,

Please take me home,

I've lost the feeling in my legs,

My bones ache and I grow colder,

I'm tired but I cannot pass yet,

I will crawl through the mud and blood,

I must reach home, my family need my saving I fret,

Arrows snapped in two,

Dagger pierced through,

I'm bleeding out,

With blood pouring and my enemies lurking,

I am afraid for once in my life,

Is This Death I Fear,

I think of heaven and eternal life which awaits me,

St Peter will see me when I close my eyes,

The angels will sing and greet me with open arms,

The harm I feel will not exist, To think I won't hear my families cries,

By the high point of the sun is the sky, I pray the dark away,

Let the vultures circle round me, I'm not leaving this realm today,

I have lost more blood than I can count by now,

I grow hungry and thirsty, but I am still alive somehow,

The birds have pecked at me, and I am not on my feet,

I'm crawling and dragging myself to victory,

Thy enemies are hunting me, My brothers and their faces haunt me,

Is this the end or IS THIS DEATH I FEAR,

Arrows snapped in two,

Dagger pierced through,

I'm bleeding out,

With blood pouring and my enemies lurking,

I am afraid for once in my life,

Is This Death I Fear,

I see the fire and smoke ahead past the tree's,

Hoping inside that my family remembers me,

Arrow heads imbedded in me, broken pieces of chain and blood trail behind,

Are my enemies around me, is this delusion or are the voices really there to remind,

Faces are blurred, and I don't know what they are saying,

I feel light and weightless now as I feel I am carried,

Thank you for guiding me home lord, those are the last words I spoke,

Now there's a light, yet there also exists darkness,

Is this the afterlife, or is this death I fear?

Written by SJones

10/7/23 1am

The Flash (CW song tribute)

(Verse 1)

In the blink of an eye, he moves so fast,

A hero born in lightning, a legacy that will last,

With lightning strikes and a scarlet streak,

The Flash emerges, his purpose to seek.

(Chorus)

Oh, the Flash, he's running through time,

Fighting crime, a hero so sublime,

With speed and power, he's a lightning bolt,

Defender of Central City, never to revolt.

(Verse 2)

Barry Allen, the man behind the mask,

A forensic scientist, his duty unsurpassed,

With a heart of gold, he fights for justice,

Against villains and meta-humans, he'll never miss.

(Chorus)

Oh, the Flash, he's running through time,

Fighting crime, a hero so sublime,

With speed and power, he's a lightning bolt,

Defender of Central City, never to revolt.

(Bridge)

Through the Speed Force, he harnesses his might,

Guided by love, courage, and the need to make things right,

With his team by his side, they face the unknown,

Protecting the innocent, a legacy to be shown.

(Verse 3)

In the darkest of nights, he brings the light,

Chasing shadows, his determination takes flight,

From the Reverse-Flash to Captain Cold,

The Flash battles on, his bravery untold.

(Chorus)

Oh, the Flash, he's running through time,

Fighting crime, a hero so sublime,

With speed and power, he's a lightning bolt,

Defender of Central City, never to revolt.

(Outro)

So let the lightning strike, and the thunder roar,

The Flash races on, forever to explore,

In the CW universe, his legend will endure,

The Flash, the fastest man alive, forever pure.

Run, Barry, Run!

Talking To A Brick Wall (original lyrics/poem) Sjones

(Verse 1)
In this world of silence, I stand alone,
Talking to a brick wall, no voice to be known.
Words fall like echoes, lost in the abyss,
Conversations held with a wall, dismissed.

(Chorus)
Oh, brick wall, won't you listen to me?
Can you hear the longing, the plea?
I pour my heart out, but you don't respond,
Talking to a brick wall, my spirit beyond.

(Verse 2)
Every word I whisper, every thought I share,
They vanish into nothingness, lost in thin air.
Emotions bouncing off your cold facade,
I wonder if you ever truly understand.

(Chorus)
Oh, brick wall, won't you listen to me?
Can you hear the longing, the plea?
I pour my heart out, but you don't respond,
Talking to a brick wall, my spirit beyond.

(Bridge)
But amidst this frustration, a realization dawns,
The brick wall may never respond with its songs.
Yet, in the depths of my heart, a change takes place,
I find solace in knowing, it's myself I embrace.

(Verse 3)
Though the wall may be silent, I won't be deterred,
I'll keep sharing my stories, my voice will be heard.
For even if the wall can't comprehend,
There's healing in expressing, a journey to mend.

(Chorus)
Oh, brick wall, won't you listen to me?
Can you hear the longing, the plea?
I pour my heart out, but you don't respond,
Talking to a brick wall, my spirit beyond.

(Outro)
So I'll keep talking, with hope in my eyes,
Even if the wall won't sympathize.
In this conversation, I find strength anew,
Talking to a brick wall, but my spirit breaks through.

Gorgon Eyes - Original love song/poem by Sjones

You've got me shaking just by talking,
I am frozen like a statue from your gaze,
Those beautiful lips are moving, but I don't hear any words come from your mouth,
That laugh snaps me out of the hypnosis, and I am lost for words,
What do I say, what do I do?,

I can't read the room, but I want to read you,
I want to make you smile and get lost in your gaze,
Turn me into a statue with those Gorgon eyes, and I'll make you happy for the rest of our days,

Those luscious lips, them curvy hips,
I want to be drunk on you, I want to be consumed by you,
Your silky hair and pearly whites, nothing compares to the greenery in your eyes,
Is this what it's like to fall in love, because this is new, Is that my heart?,

I can't read the room, but I want to read you,
I want to make you laugh and get lost in your gaze,
Turn me into a statue with those Gorgon eyes, and I'll make you happy for the rest of our days,

I'm taking the plunge and asking you out,
I don't know why you laughed and agree'd because I nervously knocked my drink over you,
Maybe this is just a dream, and you are not real, Who'd want to be with someone like me?,
I'm a fool, I've made mistakes, and I've been alone for my heart has been torn,

I can't read the room, They are just staring and laughing at me,
I don't like the shakes any more, I've made a mistake, and it's time to leave,
My back was against you, but I felt a pull and there you were in front of my eyes,
I am lost in those Gorgon eyes and turned to stone,
Your lips have just touched mine and I could taste fine wine,
My body is melting as the dopamine is spiralling,
I'm being taken to Neverland.

I won't be you! - Original song/poem by Sjones

What are you doing, taking this crap,
I thought we were through with this?,
It's the same old story, with a different twist,
Stop being pushed around,
Push them back!,

I hear you, (yeah!),
I see you, (yeah!),
But I won't be you! (no!)
I hear you, I see you, I won't be you!

Stop resisting and let me take control,
I won't let them beat us down, (no!),
It's time now to set me free,
Wake up and face your destiny!,

For too long you have suppressed me,
In return, you have lashed out uncontrollably,
Your bodies bloodied and bruised,
Come on now and light this fuse!,

I hear you, (yeah!)
I see you, (yeah!)
But I won't be you!, (no!)

Stop resisting and let me take control,
I won't let them beat us down, (no!),
It's time now to set me free,
Wake up and face your destiny!,

What will happen when the voices stop,
Who will I become when I black out,

You hear me, you see me, and now you sleep, for now I'm here to make history!,

You've stopped resisting and I've taken control,
I'm giving out the beatings and breaking bones,
Now that I'm free you will rule this day,
I am awake and you are history!

Exorcise The Demon - Original song/poem/lyrics by SJONES

You can't put me in the ground,
Because my soul is unbound,
My freedom comes at the expense,

And the lives of the guilty are my tax, 

Running wild, wild and free,

All aboard this crazy train,

Come partake in the leaves of the wisdom tree,

You cannot see, You cannot be,

The devil inside of me,

Lost and alone, nowhere to go,

Oh, father please can you exorcise me?,

Sanity is overrated,

My demons are the goat headed,

Making my life a misery,

Just cut me open and set me free!,

You cannot see, you cannot be, 

The devil inside of me, 
Lost and alone, nowhere to go,

Oh, god please exorcise me,

 

(GROWL)

YOU CANNOT ESCAPE ME!

I AM THE SINS YOU CARRY!

MY CLAWS WILL SINK AND SHATTER,

YOUR BONES BENEATH ME,
MARK MY WORDS,

THE DEVIL IS YOU, AND YOU ARE ALL OF ME!!!!

(GROWL)

You cannot see, you cannot be, 

The devil inside of me,

Lost and alone, with nowhere to go,

Exorcise this demon out of me,

I won't be behind you - Original Lyrics/Poem - SJones

 Do you remember what the last words i told you, we were in the parking lot, smoking your dads pot, 

do you remember saying this aint working out, im not having a blast, you set me up for failure, used me and threw me in the trash,

ive forgotten how scary you are, youve gone too far and become unstable, no matter how far or how hard you fall, i wont be here behind you!

do you remember the extra pulse in your car, or are you blocking it out like the rest?, do you remember saying your love for me would never change?, you told me that again when you dropped me on my ass, like some useless change.

ive forgotten how scary you are, youve gone too far and become unstable, no matter how far or how hard you fall, i wont be here behind you!

ive forgotten how scary you are, youve become too damn unstable,

no matter how far, no matter how hard, when you fall, i wont be behind you,

ive forgotten how scary you are, youve gone too far and become unstable, no matter how far or how hard you fall, i wont be here behind you!

Written

3:50am

29/12/22

Feels Like My World Has Crashed - Original lyrics/poem by SJones

So this is where we are, star crossed lovers, walking different paths, this is not where we wanted to be, I was driven Maad, my other half didn't want to be with me,

You don't....know the pain im in, i'll love you....til im dust and ash.....

And it feeels like my world has craaashed, and theres nothing i can do about it, no, theres nothing you can do about it, when it feeels, like my world has craaashed, there's nothing you can do about it, no there's nothing I can do about it. 

Someone please tell me the news, how's she holding up, please stop the lies, thats not the picture she painted of me,

you dooon't know the pain im in, I;ll love her, til i breathe my last,

And it feeels like my world has craaashed, and theres nothing i can do about it, no, theres nothing you can do about it, when it feeels, like my world has craaashed, there's nothing you can do about it, no there's nothing I can do about it. 

Another man holding your coat and hand, trying to do you better than I, oh i wish i could walk, the road back into time,

and soo you wanna think its funny, you really think its funny, to laugh and mock some body, you really think it's funny?.

And it feeels like my world has craaashed, and theres nothing i can do about it, no, theres nothing you can do about it, when it feeels, like my world has craaashed, there's nothing you can do about it, no there's nothing I can do about it. 

Written

29/12/2022

2:45am

Seeing Red - Original lyrics/Poem by Scott Jones

You've done it now, You've gone and ticked me off, Get ready for action, Prepare to be....future shocked,

Left alone and abandoned,

Resentment and anger rises up,

The rage builds to its crescendo,

I'm ready to run wild and unleash punishment unto you all,

Betrayed and lied to my face,

I see red,

I feel it pulling me in,

It's bright and hypnotizing me with its gaze,

The red is tangling me up, it's all consuming,

It binds me, IT'S BLINDING ME!

So unleash hell, bring the red,

Be prepared, to meet your end,

You'll soon be famous, because you'll be dead,

Executed at my feet, your head bare hands shall meet,

Red is binding, IT'S BLINDING!, BLINDING, BLINDING!

It's everywhere consuming all within,

I run wild, unleashing my rage,

I'll let the winds of wrath blow you away,

Face defeat,

See Red,

I thought I could escape the shade,

Escape into music, let the red fade,

I want to leave the bitterness and resent behind me,

Good memories placed up high, bad memories say goodbye,

I found fame with my music and I want to change the world,

I hear the clown's ad mist my followers, they think they know how crushing loneliness can be,

They know nothing till they have known me,

So unleash hell, bring the red,

Be prepared, to meet your end,

You'll soon be famous, because you'll be dead,

Executed at my feet, your head bare hands shall meet,

Red is binding, IT'S BLINDING!, BLINDING, BLINDING!

It's everywhere consuming all within,

I run wild, unleashing my rage,

I'll let the winds of wrath blow you away,

Red is binding, IT'S BLINDING, BLINDING, BLINDING!

Face defeat,

See Red,

I've lived in the Red for far too long,

The scarlet crimson, lights up the room,

The fever that pulls me down is brutal yet beautiful,

The aura is blazing, bright, all consuming,

My heart is held captive by the allure,

No matter how much it hurts, No matter how much I learn,

I know my anger is here to stay, the words come rushing my way,

So unleash hell, bring the red,

Be prepared, to meet your end,

You'll soon be famous, because you'll be dead,

Executed at my feet, your head bare hands shall meet,

Red is binding, IT'S BLINDING!, BLINDING, BLINDING!

It's everywhere consuming all within,

I run wild, unleashing my rage,

I'll let the winds of wrath blow you away,

Red is binding, IT'S BLINDING, BLINDING, BLINDING!

Face defeat,

See Red,

Feel the flames!!!!,

Though my anger exhausts me, and I'm falling apart,

My actions are costing me all because I refuse to move on,

Holding on to the past, If you'd only listen maybe you'll understand,

It's time for you to go to sleep, for this is the suffering you have made for me,

I will make you suffer just like me,

So unleash hell, bring the red,

Be prepared, to meet your end,

You'll soon be famous, because you'll be dead,

Executed at my feet, your head bare hands shall meet,

Red is binding, IT'S BLINDING!, BLINDING, BLINDING!

It's everywhere consuming all within,

I run wild, unleashing my rage,

I'll let the winds of wrath blow you away,

Red is binding, IT'S BLINDING, BLINDING, BLINDING!

Face defeat,

See Red,

Get burnt, by the flames,

Time to see Red!

Written by Scott Jones

6/11/22

4am

Nothing Will Save You From Light - Original song/poem/lyrics by Sjones

I feel the pressure to be better, to blend in with societal values, 

I turn the news on, there's so many people causing damage for their pleasure, 

It's so appalling, I'm gonna stop stalling, I pull my book out, 

You better look out because I'm not joking, 

I see their names flash, I put ink to the page, Now their death is calling, 

I see the light fade from their eyes, No one knows but I know, 

The world is off balance, it's not right so prepare to say night night, 

So save yourself, say a prayer, 

I hope it does you justice,

I'll write another name and count to ten,

Tonight's the night,

No one and nothing will save you from Light,

No one's gonna stop me, I will leave no trace,

Nothing to fear, I won't be erased,

No nothing and no one will save you from Light, 

You are so clueless, trying to find me, it's useless, 

There's no more excuses, I'm bringing justice, 

The world is thanking me, people whisper quietly "Kira is the answer",

Every single name I write, has made up their minds and chose their choices,

They Can't stop me, it's pretty pointless, There's nothing L can do, 

So save yourself, say a prayer, 

I hope it does you justice,

I'll write another name and count to ten,

Tonight's the night,

No one and nothing will save you from Light,

No one's gonna stop me, I will leave no trace,

Nothing to fear, I won't be erased,

No nothing and no one will save you from Light, 

So save yourself, say a prayer, 

I hope it does you justice,

I'll write another name and count to ten,

Tonight's the night,

No one and nothing will save you from Light,

No one's gonna stop me, I will leave no trace,

Nothing to fear, You don't know my face, I won't be erased,

No nothing and no one will save you from Light. 

Written 25/7/22

Inspired by Death Note and Light aka Kira. 

Corruption Holds The Crown - Original song/lyrics/poetry by Sjones.

My family rules the world, running it with a fist of fear,

They own powerful machines of steel, they lost the sight of what is real,

who's suffering, who's to blame, for this madness that I see,

For all the blood spilled and all the bodies piled up in front of our eyes?,

The people of Japan make their plea, Which makes everything clear to me,

If they could understand, the sadness that they breed,

I will make them see the error of their ways,

I will stand up to them and take down my family,

I will take it away, take it away one person at a time,

They say, they are all the same,

Well I'm not waiting, I'm not waiting to see,

Any more bodies, laying there, laying there, under their feet,

I'll take it away, I'll stop the corruption that holds the crown, (the corrupt holds the, the corrupt holds the crown),

I could tell you all about it, How I got this power,

But time moves on and I can't slow down,

I got to move all the pieces, I got to show those clowns,

I know their moves and all their habits, I'm four steps ahead, they're in over their heads,

If they could understand, the sadness that they breed,

I will make them see the error of their ways,

I will stand up to them and take down my family,

I will take it away, take it away one person at a time,

They say, they are all the same,

Well I'm not waiting, I'm not waiting to see,

Any more bodies, laying there, laying there, under their feet now, I'm not waiting,

I'll take it away, take it away, I'll stop the corruption that holds the crown, (the corrupt holds the, the corrupt holds the crown),

They all say, nothing's gonna slow them, gonna slow them down,

And I'm not waiting, I'm not waiting!,

They may try, to take the lives of innocents away,

There's no debating, the corrupt hold the crown,(the corrupt holds the, the corrupt holds the crown),

Inspired by Code Geass: Lelouch Of The Rebellion. 

Written 24/7/22

Looking For What I Once Was (original lyrics/poem)

Poisonous blood, stains the walls in a sea of reddddd, One slice from the unforgiving sword, will show you your end, It's all becoming clear to me, for the one you seek, for he is me and I am the one, to end me!

I am lost at war, looking out for what I once was, now go, leave me in the trenches beneath your feet, or you'll meet your bitter end!

Move away, get away, run away, now,

Move away, get away, run away, now,

Violent are the winds that sweep in, across the battlefields, and I can not sleep, My temperature is rising and I have cold feet, and all the noises won't recede, 

I am lost at war, looking out for what i once was, now go, leave me in the trenches beneath your feet, or you'll meet your bitter end!

Move away, get away, run away, now,

Move away, get away, run away, now,

At the simple age of 16, they send boys like me to their early graves, one at a time over the top, even injured you don't stop, PTSD, trenchfoot, blind and dismembered, they challenge you to be better, Now that i am

Lost at war, looking out for what i once was, now go, leave me in the trenches beneath your feet, or you'll meet your bitter end, 

Move away, get away, run away, now,

Move away, get away, run away, now,

Move away, run away,

Get away, run away,

Now, now, now, now, now, now, now, now, now..........

(WW1 type song inspired by MGSRR's stranger i remain) 

Just Another Day At The Office (original poem/lyrics)

The sky's gone dark, the tides come in, looks like another doomsday machine,

With a Midas touch, It's time for lunch, before the loop start's over again.

With ufo's and aliens, It's just another day at the office,

And through it all, heroes fall and we have not yet scratched the surface,

I'm stuck here inside, filling forms and faxing away, pushing my dreams aside and astray,

I'm so bored with this job, it's just the same thing everyday,

I want to break out and, go far away,

I'm so sick and tired of the doom and gloom, It's the same thing every year,

I want to break free and, go far away,

Jump in the mech with the homies, go to zero g, pretty quickly,

Watch out for the sharky, he's getting pretty feisty,

He got a new skin, yeh, got a new skin, That Kevin over there can change, and this ones just a friend,

It's getting a bit smokey, let's get some balloon's and impulse and all get floaty,

With ufo's and aliens, It's just another day at the office,

And through it all, heroes fall and we have not yet scratched the surface,

I'm stuck here inside, filling forms and faxing away, pushing my dreams aside and astray,

I'm so bored with this job, it's just the same thing everyday,

I want to break out and, go far away,

I'm so sick and tired of the doom and gloom, It's the same thing every season,

I want to break free and, go far away,

The foundation is here to say our day, The seven will save the island and all realitay,

Io are coming, yeah they coming up fast, from under the ground and to the centre of the map,

They found the X and want us to disappear, With Thor and chums on our side have no fear,

Jonesy it's getting pretty smokey, get me a rift to go and Peeley stop being nosey,

With ufo's and aliens, It's just another day at the office,

And through it all, heroes fall and we have not yet scratched the surface,

I'm stuck here inside, It's no sweat, I need to just Insure you, pencil pushing and faxing away, pushing my dreams far away, 

I'm so bored with this job, it's just the same thing everyday, 

I want to break out and, go far away, 

I'm so sick and tired of the doom and gloom, It's the same thing every year,

I want to break free and, go far away, 

I want to go far away,

Yeah far away,

Let's go far away,

Yeah far away,

Far away,

Let's go far away,

Yeah somewhere far away....

(Inspired by Fortnite and Easy Life. Blue = chorus)

Let's Fly Away (original lyrics)

 She's just a dumb girl, living in a fantasy world, she doesn't know that, I know she's down bad and you can tap that, she'll leave you hanging like a bat, 

She thinks she's right, she's hella mean, only thing loving her is machine's, set phasers to stun and prepare to run, or better yet let's just fly away. Fly away. Let's just fly awaaaay oh yeah.

She think's that singer, is her sister, she's got no clue at all or how you view her, she's got no friends only family, she's lost in, the space inside, the walls of her miiiiiind

She thinks she's right, she thinks she's lean, only thing that gives her love is a machine, set phasers to stun, prepare to run and open up the run way, or better yet let's just fly away. Fly away. Let's just fly awaaaay oh yeah.

You know that one guy, from that anime, she likes him more than, a human being today, she can't tell the difference, between fantasy and reality, all we know for sure is she lives in her home made cave and she cheers hooray.

She thinks she's right, she obsessively cleans, only thing that gives her love is machine, set phasers to stun, prepare to run and open up the run way, or better yet let's just fly away. Fly away. Let's just fly awaaaay yeah yeah yeah

She think she's number 1 when you can do so much better than her, she thinks the world revolves around her, so stop, stop stop!

And let her be.

She thinks she's right, she thinks she's lean, only thing that gives her love is a machine, set phasers to stun, prepare to run and open up the run way, or better yet let's just fly away. Fly away. Let's just fly away,

I wanna fly away, let's just fly away, I wanna get away, let's just fly away. Yeah yeah yeah oh yeah!

*Speaking as music fades* (did you use protection? Yeah! Oh thank god we dodged that bullet ahaha)

(Kinda dance dance, 1989 and keep riding me songs were inspiration for how this flows.)

Cut My Wrists, I wanna feel alive! (Original song/lyrics)

Cut my wrists and make me feel alive!!!!

One day is all it takes, to lose your mind to fall down the pit of despair.

With a broken heart and a damaged mind, all too far beyond repair.

Screams of anguish will be unleashed, as I fall into a deep sleep,

Take away all this pain and suffering, leaving me numb and unaware!

Cut my wrists and make me feel alive,

The world is numb and devoid of colour.

With no one on my side, I carry all the baggage within me.

My internal world is freaking out, with my mind racing and my vision a blur,

Cut me up and make me feel alive!

The want to feel alive again makes me crumble with fear,

I will avoid and detach, how long will this last,

When the familiar faces all turn blank, Who is there to support me,

When my body aches and my inner voice years to feel death's embrace,

Will I ever wake up, will I ever find life's key,

Cut my wrists and make me feel alive,

The world is numb and devoid of colour.

With no one on my side, I carry all the baggage within me.

My internal world is freaking out, with my mind racing and my vision a blur,

Cut me up and make me feel alive!

Just one knife, just one slice,

just one cut across my wrists,

Make me feel alive, give me a rush, 

Let me smell the iron in the air and let my skin tear, 

I am far beyond repair!,

So cut my wrists and make me feel, make me feel alive!!!!

(originally written 2/11/21)

Merry Go (original lyrics metal song)

 I'm so tired of your paranoid worries, You wont even let me live my own life, you just try to control and lose all sense of reality when your told no.

AROUND AND AROUND AND AROUND WE GO

HERE WE GO

MERRY GO

AROUND AND AROUND AND AROUND WE GO

Wanting me to be on a schedule thinking its best for me when really you think I'm up all hours visiting others, Won't listen to my reasons or point of view, you'd rather go stir the hornets to come and kill me over and over again.

AROUND AND AROUND AND AROUND WE GO

HERE WE GO

MERRY GO

AROUND AND AROUND AND AROUND WE GO

Can't break this cycle of negative thought, blaming all the problems on me and not saying sorry, why do you think your higher, who picked you out of their nose in the first place?, you worry and call me constantly to check I'm still alive, is the torture on my voodoo doll not enough for you?, 

AROUND AND AROUND AND AROUND WE GO

HERE WE GO

MERRY GO

AROUND AND AROUND AND AROUND WE GO

MERRY GO

HERE WE GO!

Circles are never ending infinite symbols, can't break the negativity, you throw my help against the wall like glass it shatters and you use the shard to stab away at me, some help you are you say, do you even know me? Why are you lying to me? What aren't you telling me?, 

I'm not good enough, I thought I was not good enough for you and you felt not good enough for me, you won't let go of the pain and insecurity and now you've killed me, double standards are here in this industry, why can't you get the help that you need, why can't you trust me, why won't you listen to me?,

AROUND AND AROUND AND AROUND WE GO

HERE WE GO

MERRY GO

HERE WE GO

MERRY GO, MERRY GO

AROUND AND AROUND AND AROUND WE GO

MERRY GO

HERE WE GO

MERRY GO

THERE WE GO

The Scotties 2020

 Hello everyone! Welcome to my third ever annual awards on my blog. 

The Scotties are just imaginary awards I will give out to the best things I have read, listened to, seen, played etc of the past year. What a year, so many down's and so few up's but the good is king is all i can say, so without further ado; 

Let The Scotties Awards begin!

(low res awards this year due to budgetary cuts) 

Best live action film: 1917

So 1917 is a hell of a movie it feels entirely one shot even though it's not, it is brilliant one of the best films this year!

Best moment: My birthday. one of the happiest days of my life and this year and one of the best days, spent with my love on her birthday also and just feeling like nothing else was going on in the world and it was lsuh and so funny and happy just i loved that day.

Best Animated Film: MY HERO ACADEMIA: HEROES RISING!

What a film this is!  Just my fave film of the year I have also seen it so many times, I LOVE THIS, PLEASE WATCH MY HERO ACADEMIA!

Best Gig: Five Finger Death Punch in Cardiff!

Best app: Instagram

Best Game: DBZ Kakarot

Best Online Multiplayer Game: FORTNITE

Best Tv Show: Cobra Kai

Best Actor: Roman Griffin Davis: He was brilliant in Jojo Rabbit!

Best Voice Actor: Justin Briner

Best Actress: Elle Fanning: She was brilliant in all the bright places. 

Best Animated Series: My Hero Academia Season 4

My most played game 2020: Animal Crossing New Leaf 3DS

I have played almost every single day!

My most heard song 2020 - 21 Pilots - Level Of Concern

I have heard this quite a bit so spotify would like to say. 

Best Chart Song & Artist 2020: Folklore - Taylor Swift

I have always liked a few of her songs but I loved her new album this year some great tunes there! Yes since this blog post was written she has had another new album out continuing the folklore era but as of writing i have not heard the album but i am sure it is another good one.

Best New Artist 2020: The Hu

Best concert film: Metallica S&M2

Best wrestling company: AEW

Wrestlers Of The Year: Drew Mcintyre & Rhea Ripley

Both have worked so hard and have been ever so amazing for me this year!

Best company: Zobie & Vshout.

These guys are amazing and have given me opportunities i have only ever dreamt of and i have gotten the autographs and shoutouts from people i love and look up to and they have and always do provide brilliant service and so i give them a massive shoutout and i urge you to look into them, if you want something signed by some of your fave stars. 

And that about does it here at The Scotties Awards 2020!

It has been a shorter than expected category list this year but what do you expect from a year which has been mostly spent under lockdown. 

 Let's hope 2021 is not shit, see you in the new year! 

The Gift Underneath My Christmas Tree - (original song/poem/lyrics)

There's coal on the fire, The house is warming up,
Presents are all around As the snow gently touches the ground,
Choirs are singing jolly ol carols of old,
As mother has the turkey roasting, nice and gold,
I look at pictures of years ago, Tears fill my eyes as I remember those who have came and gone,
My eyes get wide and my jaw drops down as you enter the room all alone,

You light up the room like a Christmas tree,
A warm Novus glow for all to see,
Wonderful sight to behold,
You make me smile, the truth be told,
I'm made to be oh so happy,
Knowing your the gift of Christmas, that standing underneath my tree.

The tv is showing, those same old films, we love dear,
Although your glasses fog up, you can't see your bingo cards clear,
But we all share a laugh along with you, like all the big old families do,
You count to three and then you jump as the crackers pop at tea,

You light up the room like a Christmas tree,
A warm Novus glow for all to see,
Wonderful sight to behold,
You make me smile, the truth be told,
I'm made to be oh so happy,
Knowing your the gift of Christmas, that standing underneath my tree.

You came up here, every year,
Every Christmas without fail,
Sometimes you were alone and times you were not,
But truth be told you were such a hoot and now your gone, my brain just cannot compute,
Stop motion animated man and dog, is what we both loved in common,
But also the wealth of knowledge you have is so inspiring, it makes my brain sing and cheer,

You light up the room like a Christmas tree,
A warm Novus glow for all to see,
Wonderful sight to behold,
You make me smile, the truth be told,
I'm made to be oh so happy,
Knowing your the gift of Christmas, that standing underneath my tree.

instrumental solo*

And now its Christmas time this year, in a year which the world is crumblin down,
I look around and I say a prayer for those we've lost, all before Christmas this year,
My dear wife I shed a tear, for she's been with me all year, despite all the sadness and madness in this world, she still loves me unconditionally,

My family hold me close and let's all sit down, and enjoy this merry feast despite the shit, that's happened this year,

The best gift this Christmas is the memories of all my dears, knowing their free from any pain the world has thrown, and I plant a star upon the tree for each of thee, 

So gather round the Christmas tree and let's all share an embrace, for the best gift of Christmas is standing right here, underneath my tree......

1 IN 8 (original song lyrics)

They said it wasn't going to be easy,

I took it to heart,

I lost a piece of me,

Growing with you,

I became 1 in 8 and indulged in self hate,

I lost my mind and grew cold inside,

Cold now soaks me,

A heavy cloud above my head,

That sinking gut feeling,

it's real heavy,

Depression and anger make life no easy feat,

I am one in, one in, one in, 8

Remember when the news hit,

We got ecstatic and were laughing so much,

Then the red sea came along and brought blood,

It was a lot on you but i held your hand throughout,

You were afraid but acted like such a brave soldier,

Whilst i was calm and strong for you,

As i made you laugh, despite being in pain,

The dr's came to us, they broke our hearts,

We raged, we screamed, we cried, without letting out any sounds,

We felt our whole world crumble around, 

A dream which came true had just disappeared,

It was snapped out of existence and leaves us in pieces,

Memory of that time was dark, clouded still,

To know what we was feeling, to think was it real,

Cold now soaks me,

A heavy cloud above my head,

That sinking gut feeling, 

it's real heavy,

Depression and anger make life no easy feat,

I am one in, one in, one in, 8

We've held a lot up inside us, (You can try again)

We've put out a lot in the front, (Don't worry it wasn't time)

We've been torn up, from the inside to the out, (You should have been protected)

Resent, Regret, Repent, Repent, 

GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME,

SHUT UP AND LEAVE ME ALONE!, 

I'M ONE IN 8!, 

Cold now soaks me,

A heavy cloud above my head,

That sinking gut feeling, 

it's real heavy,

Depression and anger make life no easy feat,

I am one in, one in, one in, 8

written 8/8/20