The universe is massive, it's ever expanding, the planet is home to 7 billion people and Earth is 4.5 billion years old. It's crazy to think about it aint it?
How did this all happen? How did we get here? How did we become alive? What will happen when we die? I don't want to die. What can i do to not have that happen? What happens?
God I can't tell you how much of an over thinker i am. Thinking about death and questioning the point of life if we are to be gone it puts me in a state of panic.
Writing about it right here, right now makes my body feel so cold, like the blood has vanished from my body, i feel so cold, i'm in a state of panic, my thoughts are too much. I can't handle it at times i need a distraction to take my mind away from it. I feel like i can't breathe. It's too much to handle to think about to contemplate.
Does anyone else get like this?
I need help i know i do.
It's hard to get off my mind, it scares me, it's scaring me now. I thought talking about it well writing about it here would be easier for me but it still hits me hard. I can't tell you how hard it hits me, like i said it brings me down and just makes me upset and just scared.
I do believe in the power of reincarnation but i want my memories i want to live, i want life. I don't want to be switched off, the fear is too much to handle.
What do i do?
What can i do about this?
Distract my mind?
Make a better life to get a better mind?
I have no clue.
It's 5am let's try to sleep and hope i'm fine in the morning and get this shit out of my head. Thanks for popping in and reading.
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