Random Ramblin's 43 - Reflection Post Halloween 2020

Reflection time!😎

So Halloween 2020 was an unusual one. This year is so abnormal. We in Wales are in lockdown once more but the firebreak national welsh lockdown is nearing it's end, unfortunately Covid is still roaming. Its been hard for sure but there's also some great things that have and are still happening.

I've done an amazing job and I'm proud of myself for my facepaint. Which even Finn himself liked my demon Bálor paint (1st pic) and the 2nd pic was Cobra Kai halloween inspo with a skeleton they are seen in.😊

OK so I've also got my fave band Sabaton autographs so that is freaking incredible and amazing!!!!🤗😁🤯🥳 I managed to learn The Black Parade more on piano and am trying to learn more and practice more.😄 I've been back gaming and enjoying it after what felt like ages of having a period of unenjoyment with games but all good and fun again. 🙂 I also had the newest Mha movie on steel book triple play and I been waiting ages for it to arrive and I finally have it!!!☺️

Been a while since I posted here but I felt now was a good time. 

I'm healing, I'm grieving and some days are harder than others. Life is hard and has more uncertainties than ever before. Never lose hope always keep ahold of it and try to laugh and have a person who can wrap their arms around you even from far away and help you get back up on your feet when life has you down. 

I'm an advocate for hope and I won't ever lose hope, I'll keep a tight hold on it.

Peace with you all, look after your minds, be mindful of all the information you take on and don't overload yourself or over work yourself.

Take it easy people!

✌️ 😊✌️

Scott

How many TV shows have you seen? FB Challenge

You never realise how much/little TV you watch until you fill out a list. Put a :) by the shows of which you have watched more than 10 episodes.

I got 18/100 

How about you?

1. Grey's Anatomy:
2. Stranger Things: :)
3. The Vampire Diaries:
4. The Walking Dead: :)
5. Fear The Walking Dead: :)
6. Dexter:
7. American Horror Story:
8. Orange is the New Black: :)
9. A Million Little Things:
10. This is Us:
11. The Simpsons: :)
12. New Amsterdam:
13. Manifest:
14. How To Get Away With Murder:
15. Breaking Bad: :)
16. Sons of Anarchy:
17. Scandal:
18. Riverdale:
19. The Good Doctor:
20. House of Cards:
21. Once Upon a Time:
22. House:
23. True Detective:
24. Dr. Pimple Popper:
25. Power:
26. Empire:
27. One Tree Hill:
28. Supernatural:
29. Family Guy: :)
30. Santa Clarita Diet:
31. Shameless: :)
32. Pretty Little Liars:
33. Secret Life of an American Teenager:
34. Bones:
35. Criminal Minds:
36. The 100:
37. Chicago Fire:
38. Chicago Med:
39. The Resident:
40. Game of Thrones: :)
41. The Big Bang Theory: :)
42. It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia:
43. Lost:
44. The Sopranos:
45. NCIS:
46. NCIS Los Angeles:
47. NCIS New Orleans:
48. Law & Order SVU:
49. Gossip Girl:
50. How I Met Your Mother: :)
51. Blue Bloods:
52. Two Broke Girls: :)
53. The Office:
54. Blacklist:
55. Full House:
56. Fuller House:
57. Downton Abbey:
58. Hawaii Five-O:
59. Big Mouth:
60. Last Man Standing:
61. Six Feet Under:
62. Wentworth:
63. Friends: :)
64. That 70s Show:
65. Girlfriends Guide to Divorce:
66. Heartland:
67. All-American:
68. Greek:
69. Yellowstone:
70. Better Call Saul: :)
71. You:
72. Rescue Me:
73. Scrubs: :)
74. Community:
75. Letterkenny:
76. Kitchen nightmares:
77. The Masked singer:
78. Robot Chicken: :)
79. Vikings:
80. Mind Hunters:
81. New Girl:
82. The Good Place:
83. Black Mirror:
83. Lucifer:
84. Peaky Blinders:
85. iZombie: :)
86. Parks and Rec:
87. Brooklyn 99:
88. Handmaid's Tale:
89. Modern Family:
90. Smallville:
91. Seinfeld:
92. Gilmore Girls:
93. Charmed:
94. Private Practice:
95. Lost Girl:
96. True Blood:
97. Roswell:
98. Haven:
99. Mad Men:
100. Arrow: :) 

Random Ramblin's 40 - WHAT?! CORONA LOCKDOWN!

Hi there, you join me in the comfort of a dark room, sipping upon blue wkd with some synthwave instrumental music on in the background. Comforting right? Oh yes i agree. Anyway it has been a while since i did a RR but here we are back again! 

There's been a lot to write about but i have expressed my worries, rants, concerns and feelings into my gorgeous girlfriend instead, so i aswell as she could take a load off our heads and just get back to feeling good and moving in a rhythm. BUT lately this year, well hey, we are at the end of April and for me this year has been............TERRIBLE! 

It's a shocking, upsetting, depressing, year and my mental health has fluctuated a whole lot! 

I won't go into everything that has happened this year but; I have lost my nan, lost someone else close, had arguments, we are in a world emergency crisis and locked-down so unable to see my woman or any of my loved ones or friends, I've had toxic people try to control me and my mrs and one tried to use us as scape goats and that my dear readers is not what a friend is or does, regardless of history with said person you do not do that to a friend or anyone ever!

So yeah this lockdown has come to be and it's added more stresses and more cracks are being unearthed in my foundations of mental stability. I am cracking under all that i have gone through this year, i am cracking up under all this lockdown and quarantine nonsense, i'm cracking, i am breaking.

Each time i think or say it cannot possibly get any worse, it does something happens and makes me breakdown uncontrollably and cry or feel angry or frustrated. The most dangerous thing right now in all this lock-down is being locked inside our minds with the negative thoughts.

We all need to take care and go gentle on ourselves!

I am a grown ass man and i have my feelings and i am very much in tone with those feelings i am a highly sensitive person and i am not ashamed to admit that i feel things and that i cry. I recently for the first time in my life cried in my shower that's how broken things are for me at this moment in time as i type all this out loud, as i cry again from my head being such a horrible force to go against me, it feels as if its trying to ruin things trying to make me not have nice things to sabotage my own happiness like.

It's fucking insane! 

It's insane to feel so broken in yourself too. It's crazy to feel insecure about yourself but also so highly emotional and to be a person with such strong empathy like myself its bloody hard too. It's hard when you feel so much that you care so much about every single little thing and how you must want everything to run perfect and smoothly too but it does not so you make back ups and back ups of back ups and so many back ups that you are backed up of back ups.

Got no work, can't see my mrs, family or friends, I can't really go anywhere and do anything because it's only shopping or exercise locally or face a fine or possible jail time in this crisis.

Only thing good about the Corona-apocalypse is the memes.
People need to stop hoarding items mind you and stop lighting grass fires and stop fly tipping!

I am living with so much trauma and grief right now. 

I hope you are doing better than me.

I will be bright as a diamond again soon!

Remember to stay shiny! 

Better days are coming!

Bored? Check out Gurren Lagann!

Let's talk. Mecha Anime. Specifically Gurren Lagann.

Everyone tend's to think straight to the likes of the giants that are Gundam Wing series or Evangelion. Not much seem to show love for Gurren Lagann. 

Let me tell you of how epic an anime is that it makes you rethink a genre. Gurren Lagann did that for me as i had no interest in mech anime. I had seen some Gundam Wing as a kid like but was not fussed. Evangellion is one i am set to watch soon.

What is Gurren Lagann and what is it about? 

Gurren Lagann takes place in a fictional future where Earth is ruled by the Spiral King, Lordgenome, who forces mankind to live in isolated subterranean villages. The plot focuses on two teenagers, Simon and Kamina, who live in a subterranean village and wish to go to the surface. Using a mecha known as Lagann, Simon and Kamina reach the surface and start fighting alongside other humans against Lordgenome's forces, before fighting the forces of their true enemy. 

It's 27 episodes long which you could finish in a day provided you skip the intros and outros of course. If you want action, mech's, adventure and some laughs along the way this is the anime for you.

"Do the impossible, see the invisible, Raw! Raw! Fight the power!, Touch the untouchable, break the unbreakable, Raw! Raw! Fight the power!" - Libera Me From Hell! 

“Believe in yourself. Not in the you who believes in me. Not the me who believes in you. Believe in the you who believes in yourself.” - Kamina

Missing You Is Like Missing A Limb

In a world where lockdown runs wild,

And Quarantine reigns supreme,

We must not be lost, or apart, nor blind,

Where our fave musicians are all live on stream,

We can only blame that dreaded Covid-19,

We are forced apart, for safety,

For family, for the world,

All we have is our word,

I miss my lady, my baby,

Missing you is like missing a limb,

I awake expecting to see you next to me,

I wake thinking this is the day things won't be grim,

It's easy to escape this reality,

We have to dream, we will meet again,

Our world feels like a movie,

Surreal, uneasy, peaceful, eerie,

Some are trying to not to listen, taking all for free,

When they hear daily to stay home, we are living in history,

This has not happened before, it probably won't happen again in our lifetime,

It's okay to lose your cool and to whine, 

Missing you is like missing a limb,

Feels like you have always been here, 

I am lost now without you near,

It feels like i am missing skin,

You are always on my mind,

Sleep well, take care, be kind,

It's hard and we are all suffering,

We are in different ways handling,

Stress, anxiety, depression runs amok, 

So we have to stay home and read, lets pick a book,

Let's continue to reach out, to talk, to support and love from afar,

For the time will come one day soon where we will hold eachother and smile with tears,

For this lockdown and quarantine will not last for years,

Missing you is like missing a limb,

I move, i turn, i think, i hold, i don't feel the same,

I think of you more than ever, 24/7,

Hearing from you is like getting a little piece of heaven,

I'm sorry it's unpleasant, i'm sorry it's difficult,

The pain i feel, is so surreal, The world has me so bummed,

I can't wait for the day our hands to touch again,

May our souls shine bright, until then.

Cracking Up! - A comedy song (original song lyrics)

I'm stuck in a lockdown, 

I'm in quite a bind,

I think i'm going round the bend, 

I think i've lost my mind!, 

I think i'm cracking up, cracking up, 

Everyone's shaving their heads,

Cracking up, cracking up,

Over all these hard boiled eggs!,

I'm bored got nothing to do now,

I wanna see my people, I wanna see a me-ow!, 

That's Jerry the neighbours cat, who even walks a cat?, 

My dog he's a Jack, he's exhausted from all the family taking him on a stroll,

I think i'm cracking up, cracking up, 

Everyone's going toilet paper mad,

Cracking up, cracking up,

I hope they wash their hands!, O_O

They say it's okay to leave the house, 

I walk out for an hour, hoping not to crack,

I stretched and slipped and owch, i've hurt my back,

I think i'm cracking up, cracking up,

Who designed exercise,

Cracking up, cracking up, 

I need a bloomin' rest,

It's time to do my weekly shop,

Oh buggering hell, there's nothing here, 

Not even a flip flop!, 

Do whores whored more than anyone else ya wonder?, 

I think i'm cracking up, cracking up, 

Julie's been jogging twice this afternoon, this is a civil unrest,

Cracking up, cracking up,

Please hurry and make an arrest!,

Cracking up, cracking up, 

At all these bloody memes,

Cracking up, cracking up, 

Ol Dave's forgot his bag for life,

Cracking up, cracking up,

What a week it's been,

Here in quarantine,

I don't get the fuss, 

No time to rush, 

Oh bollocks!,

It's only Monday! 

ABOUT THIS PIECE

So there's a corona virus lockdown and the nation is in self isolation with quarantine.

I have heard, read and seen so many things that i thought i would put myself in the shoes of a 60 year old no nonsense man who thinks the world is going crazy or is it just him? Haha, this was fun! 

Written: 3AM 2/4/20 By Scott Jones