Being A Dad - Original Poem by SJones

Being a Dad

Being a dad isn't easy.

I get mad. I get sad.

Changing your bum can test my patience, while you wriggle and twist, cry for Mammy, and somehow find the strength to turn a simple nappy change into an Olympic sport.

I throw myself across the room like a goalkeeper, stopping you from touching the things you shouldn't touch. You don't care. You'll try again anyway. "The switch, Dad. Press it. I like it."

I stop you eating the strangest things. A plastic bag? That Looks delicious.

A door? Mmm that's worth tasting.

A cupboard? Worth slamming.

Again. And again. And again.

You explore the world, with fearless curiosity. I follow behind, trying desperately to keep you alive.

And while you're busy discovering everything, I'm busy questioning everything.

Am I a good dad?

Am I doing enough?

Why didn't I do that? Why don't I do this?

I worry about all the things, I can't teach you.

I can't ride a bike. I'm not sporty.

What good am I to you?

What if other dads are better? Do they feel like this too?

Or am I the only one lying awake, wondering if I'm enough? Sometimes I feel numb. Disconnected. And then comes the guilt.

Why don't I feel closer? Why am I struggling? Do I love my son?

The question hurts, because I already know the answer. Of course I do.

I love you in the way, that makes me worry endlessly.

I love you in the way, that makes me doubt myself.

I love you in the way, that makes me afraid of failing you.

And then you laugh.

I sneeze, and you nearly fall over laughing. I accidentally hit myself on the head with a poster tube, and you're gasping for breath. I fart, and suddenly I'm the funniest person who has ever lived. You point at plugs, with a mischievous smile.

I say no. You grin. I say no again. You grin wider. Eventually you get bored, sit on the floor, and set off to find another adventure.

You are ten months old. You crawl like a rocket. You stop, look over your shoulder, checking if I'm chasing you. And if I am? Turbo mode.

You take a few wobbly steps, and my heart nearly bursts. Ten months old, already doing things I couldn't do at your age.

I bum shuffled. I crawled. I was born with a broken leg. Yet here you are, determined to run before you can walk.

I want to give you everything.

The world. Every opportunity. Every chance to be happy. But the world scares me.

I remember my own childhood.

The bullying.

The anxiety.

The mistakes.

The freedom.

Diving into rivers.

Fishing with friends.

Exploring without fear.

And somewhere along the way, I became more aware, of pain, of consequences, of how fragile things can be.

Now the world feels louder. Faster, Crueler, The internet never forgets. Bullies no longer need a playground. A phone can place the entire world, in a child's pocket, And not all of that world is kind.

I want to protect you from everything. But I know I can't.

One day, you'll have to step into it yourself. And that terrifies me.

Being a dad isn't easy.

There are moments of joy, moments of pride, moments that make my heart soar, But too often, all I hear is my own self-doubt.

The voice asking whether I'm capable of raising this incredible little human.

Then you shout, "Dada!"

And suddenly none of the doubts matter.

Because you don't need a perfect dad.

You just need me.

And every day, I'll keep trying, to be enough.

Orange & Blue - Original Poem by SJones

Orange and blue, the colours of a dream. The colours of a hero, who taught a generation, that limits are not walls, but mountains waiting to be climbed.

He began as a child, with dirt on his boots, and wonder in his eyes. The world was vast, filled with mysteries, monsters, and people who would become family.

He fought not for riches, nor crowns, nor glory. He fought because his heart, would not let him stand aside. With every challenge, he grew. With every defeat, he learned. With every friend, he became stronger.

The years passed, and the boy became a man, yet somehow remained the same. Still smiling. Still hungry. Still searching for the next horizon.

When darkness came from the stars, he stood before it, When fear gripped the world, he refused to bend. When others fell, he carried hope upon his shoulders.

He discovered that strength, was not found in fists alone. It was found in sacrifice, In loyalty. In choosing to protect, when running away would be easier. He watched children become heroes. He watched rivals become brothers. He watched enemies become allies.

Time and time again, he proved that kindness, could achieve what anger never could. The battles grew larger. The skies grew darker. The stakes grew higher. Yet so too did the light, that burned within him. For every monster, there was courage. For every tyrant, there was defiance.

For every impossible challenge, there was one more reason to keep going. He fell. He rose. He fell again. And still he rose. Not because he was the strongest, But because he never stopped believing, that tomorrow could be better.

That people could change, That there was always another path. The world called him a legend. A warrior. A champion. But perhaps his greatest power, was something much simpler. He reminded us, that greatness is not inherited. It is earned. 

One step. One choice. One act of courage at a time. And so the years continue. Children become parents. Parents become memories.

Yet the man in orange and blue, still races across our screens, our imaginations, and our hearts. A symbol of perseverance. A beacon of hope.

A reminder that no matter how impossible, the battle may seem, there is always another level to reach. And somewhere inside us all, there remains a child, looking toward the sky, believing they can fly.

It's Hot As Hell - Original Poem by SJones

It's hot as hell, my feet begin to swell, the heat makes me unwell, and I can hardly tell, if I'm melting in my garden, or trapped in some hot cell.

The sun is on a mission, it's cooking me quite well, my forehead's like a waterfall, my armpits ring a bell. The dog won't chase a tennis ball, the cat won't even yell, the birds have stopped their singing, they've all gone off to dwell. 

I opened up the freezer, and stood there for a spell, my wife walked in and shook her head, "You're not doing well!"

I dream about an iceberg, a fan, a breeze, a shell, but all I've got is sunshine and a sweaty, sticky smell.

So if you need to find me, there's really not much to tell, I'll be lying on the kitchen floor... because it's hot as hell!

Things That I Do - Original song lyrics by SJones

[Verse 1]

Boots sink deep in the frozen ground

Mud on our faces

Smoke all around

You pass me bread with a shaking hand

Say

"Son, Hold tight to whatever you can"

[Chorus]

We fight the dark with borrowed light

Side by side in the broken night

If this is where our last stand lands

I’ll meet my fate with your name in my hands

Father and son in a stolen time

Two shadows stuck on the same thin line

If I fall first

If you fall too

I’ll carry you home in the things that I do

[Verse 2]

Shells write fire on a paper sky

You shout my name as the dirt flies high

We dive together in the shattered rain

Your shoulder pressed to my ribs like a chain

You say

"If I go, Boy, Don’t stand still, Walk out of this with your stubborn will"

I see the fear that you try to hide

Same brown eyes as mine

Just a little more tired

[Chorus]

We fight the dark with borrowed light

Side by side in the broken night

If this is where our last stand lands

I’ll meet my fate with your name in my hands

Father and son in a stolen time

Two shadows stuck on the same thin line

If I fall first

If you fall too

I’ll carry you home in the things that I do

[Bridge]

Morning creeps in through the wire and bones

Rats and letters and dents in our souls

You show me a picture

Creased and worn

A baby boy in your arms by the door

"That was you" 

you laugh through the cold

"All the reason I ever had to grow old"

Now we’re here

Same coat

Same name

Praying this mud forgets our faces and our age

[Chorus]

We fight the dark with borrowed light

Side by side in the broken night

If this is where our last stand lands

I’ll meet my fate with your name in my hands

Father and son in a stolen time

Two shadows stuck on the same thin line

If I walk out and you’re not through

I’ll carry you home in the things that I do

(yeah) I’ll carry you home in the things that I do

Is It Fate or Is It Destiny?! - Original poem/lyrics by Sjones.

We're two worlds apart, one joint connection,

Our hearts beat, longing to meet,
My shoelace was untied, you swept me off my feet,

You showed me the ropes, Taught me how to swing,

I know you are all alone, but you have not lost a thing,

I'm still around, I won't slow you down, take a chance on me,

And if you drop your crown, i'll pick it up from the ground,

No way am I going to slow down,

Is it fate we meet or is it destiny?!,

Have I always been the one you were destined to meet,
Is this just some crazy coincidence you ask of me,
Well the evidence is clear for all to see,
I need you now, can you still meet me,

Two worlds apart yet we are stuck together,
Invisible strings tied to eachother,
I'm caught up in a web of my feelings,
All I want is your touch to calm me,
Just to save me you gave your all for me,
Hearing you screaming, callin for me,
Is it my fault i made you fall for me,

Is it fate we meet or is it destiny?!

When I got paired with you, in class,

I didn't know those blue eyes would warm glass, 

I'll always wipe your tears and comfort you,

I'm sorry for getting stuck and making you feel blue, 

I will go through any obstacle, I'll make you see and believe in the impossible, 

Two worlds apart, years of distance,
We have the same qualities, even down to the similarities,

I would give you all of me, just to see you living happily,

Its not your fault i fell for you,
I need you now, can you come see me too,

Is it fate we meet or is it destiny?!

Did not know if i could love again,

I have been through many bitter ends,

Thought i'd have to be cold and bad,

But you walked in my life and made me fall like mad,

I hope you feel the same because i wanna bring you to your knees,

Two worlds apart, 10 miles out of range,

We are of a different age,

But life has guided me,

Through the twists and turns it brought you closely, 

Is it fate we meet or is it destiny?!

The Flash (CW song tribute)

(Verse 1)

In the blink of an eye, he moves so fast,

A hero born in lightning, a legacy that will last,

With lightning strikes and a scarlet streak,

The Flash emerges, his purpose to seek.

(Chorus)

Oh, the Flash, he's running through time,

Fighting crime, a hero so sublime,

With speed and power, he's a lightning bolt,

Defender of Central City, never to revolt.

(Verse 2)

Barry Allen, the man behind the mask,

A forensic scientist, his duty unsurpassed,

With a heart of gold, he fights for justice,

Against villains and meta-humans, he'll never miss.

(Chorus)

Oh, the Flash, he's running through time,

Fighting crime, a hero so sublime,

With speed and power, he's a lightning bolt,

Defender of Central City, never to revolt.

(Bridge)

Through the Speed Force, he harnesses his might,

Guided by love, courage, and the need to make things right,

With his team by his side, they face the unknown,

Protecting the innocent, a legacy to be shown.

(Verse 3)

In the darkest of nights, he brings the light,

Chasing shadows, his determination takes flight,

From the Reverse-Flash to Captain Cold,

The Flash battles on, his bravery untold.

(Chorus)

Oh, the Flash, he's running through time,

Fighting crime, a hero so sublime,

With speed and power, he's a lightning bolt,

Defender of Central City, never to revolt.

(Outro)

So let the lightning strike, and the thunder roar,

The Flash races on, forever to explore,

In the CW universe, his legend will endure,

The Flash, the fastest man alive, forever pure.

Run, Barry, Run!

Talking To A Brick Wall (original lyrics/poem) Sjones

(Verse 1)
In this world of silence, I stand alone,
Talking to a brick wall, no voice to be known.
Words fall like echoes, lost in the abyss,
Conversations held with a wall, dismissed.

(Chorus)
Oh, brick wall, won't you listen to me?
Can you hear the longing, the plea?
I pour my heart out, but you don't respond,
Talking to a brick wall, my spirit beyond.

(Verse 2)
Every word I whisper, every thought I share,
They vanish into nothingness, lost in thin air.
Emotions bouncing off your cold facade,
I wonder if you ever truly understand.

(Chorus)
Oh, brick wall, won't you listen to me?
Can you hear the longing, the plea?
I pour my heart out, but you don't respond,
Talking to a brick wall, my spirit beyond.

(Bridge)
But amidst this frustration, a realization dawns,
The brick wall may never respond with its songs.
Yet, in the depths of my heart, a change takes place,
I find solace in knowing, it's myself I embrace.

(Verse 3)
Though the wall may be silent, I won't be deterred,
I'll keep sharing my stories, my voice will be heard.
For even if the wall can't comprehend,
There's healing in expressing, a journey to mend.

(Chorus)
Oh, brick wall, won't you listen to me?
Can you hear the longing, the plea?
I pour my heart out, but you don't respond,
Talking to a brick wall, my spirit beyond.

(Outro)
So I'll keep talking, with hope in my eyes,
Even if the wall won't sympathize.
In this conversation, I find strength anew,
Talking to a brick wall, but my spirit breaks through.

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Gorgon Eyes - Original love song/poem by Sjones

You've got me shaking just by talking,
I am frozen like a statue from your gaze,
Those beautiful lips are moving, but I don't hear any words come from your mouth,
That laugh snaps me out of the hypnosis, and I am lost for words,
What do I say, what do I do?,

I can't read the room, but I want to read you,
I want to make you smile and get lost in your gaze,
Turn me into a statue with those Gorgon eyes, and I'll make you happy for the rest of our days,

Those luscious lips, them curvy hips,
I want to be drunk on you, I want to be consumed by you,
Your silky hair and pearly whites, nothing compares to the greenery in your eyes,
Is this what it's like to fall in love, because this is new, Is that my heart?,

I can't read the room, but I want to read you,
I want to make you laugh and get lost in your gaze,
Turn me into a statue with those Gorgon eyes, and I'll make you happy for the rest of our days,

I'm taking the plunge and asking you out,
I don't know why you laughed and agree'd because I nervously knocked my drink over you,
Maybe this is just a dream, and you are not real, Who'd want to be with someone like me?,
I'm a fool, I've made mistakes, and I've been alone for my heart has been torn,

I can't read the room, They are just staring and laughing at me,
I don't like the shakes any more, I've made a mistake, and it's time to leave,
My back was against you, but I felt a pull and there you were in front of my eyes,
I am lost in those Gorgon eyes and turned to stone,
Your lips have just touched mine and I could taste fine wine,
My body is melting as the dopamine is spiralling,
I'm being taken to Neverland.

I won't be you! - Original song/poem by Sjones

What are you doing, taking this crap,
I thought we were through with this?,
It's the same old story, with a different twist,
Stop being pushed around,
Push them back!,

I hear you, (yeah!),
I see you, (yeah!),
But I won't be you! (no!)
I hear you, I see you, I won't be you!

Stop resisting and let me take control,
I won't let them beat us down, (no!),
It's time now to set me free,
Wake up and face your destiny!,

For too long you have suppressed me,
In return, you have lashed out uncontrollably,
Your bodies bloodied and bruised,
Come on now and light this fuse!,

I hear you, (yeah!)
I see you, (yeah!)
But I won't be you!, (no!)

Stop resisting and let me take control,
I won't let them beat us down, (no!),
It's time now to set me free,
Wake up and face your destiny!,

What will happen when the voices stop,
Who will I become when I black out,

You hear me, you see me, and now you sleep, for now I'm here to make history!,

You've stopped resisting and I've taken control,
I'm giving out the beatings and breaking bones,
Now that I'm free you will rule this day,
I am awake and you are history!

Exorcise The Demon - Original song/poem/lyrics by SJONES

You can't put me in the ground,
Because my soul is unbound,
My freedom comes at the expense,

And the lives of the guilty are my tax, 

Running wild, wild and free,

All aboard this crazy train,

Come partake in the leaves of the wisdom tree,

You cannot see, You cannot be,

The devil inside of me,

Lost and alone, nowhere to go,

Oh, father please can you exorcise me?,

Sanity is overrated,

My demons are the goat headed,

Making my life a misery,

Just cut me open and set me free!,

You cannot see, you cannot be, 

The devil inside of me, 
Lost and alone, nowhere to go,

Oh, god please exorcise me,

 

(GROWL)

YOU CANNOT ESCAPE ME!

I AM THE SINS YOU CARRY!

MY CLAWS WILL SINK AND SHATTER,

YOUR BONES BENEATH ME,
MARK MY WORDS,

THE DEVIL IS YOU, AND YOU ARE ALL OF ME!!!!

(GROWL)

You cannot see, you cannot be, 

The devil inside of me,

Lost and alone, with nowhere to go,

Exorcise this demon out of me,

I Just Want To Heal (original poem/lyrics)

It's been a long time coming baby,

You tell me to "take your time, you're on your own, there's no excuses"

What about the promises you made here or there, were they for nothing,

You keep your attention onto things that don't involve us,

I poured my heart out, and you turned it into dust,

Now I'm alone thinking about all the times you abused me,

And my soul is left scorned with PTSD,

Now I have to Heal.....

Because I wanna feel,

I want to know if what we had was real,

Man, I just want to Heal,

I tore your letters up, And cried into a pillow,

I burned your cards, smashed your mugs, ripped apart your picture frame,

Hoping to be free, of the blame,

I was hoping to feel,

I want to move on and Heal....

To forget your voice and those times I sacrificed,

All the time I gave you,

I'm alone, and now I just want to Heal.....

Man, I just want to Heal,

I just want to feel,

I don't want to be alone,

There are monsters sitting upon the throne,

Making my mind their home,

Coz I'm alone,

Please help me to heal,

I hope you feel the sun, and it takes you back some,

To the times in our lives, where I made you smile,

I hope to god, that you regret this,

Because heaven knows, it won't be repeated,

Now it's over I hope you feel all the guilt that made this,

Hopefully you will know the problem isn't me, it's you

I'm all alone, sitting with my thoughts, I just want to Heal,

These voices seem so real,

Depression got me to kneel,

The monsters come alive,

When I brandish the knife,

I want to be alone, so let me cut along,

I just want to feel,

Please help me to heal,

It's been a while and I hope you know,

I always wanted to help you heal,

Even when you did not deserve the kindness,

I wanted to make you know,

You were never on your own,

I just wanted to make you feel,

My love for you was real,

Now I'm all alone,

Kneeling before my throne,

And I just want to heal.

Written By: Scott Jones

04:23am - 27/11/2022

Seeing Red - Original lyrics/Poem by Scott Jones

You've done it now, You've gone and ticked me off, Get ready for action, Prepare to be....future shocked,

Left alone and abandoned,

Resentment and anger rises up,

The rage builds to its crescendo,

I'm ready to run wild and unleash punishment unto you all,

Betrayed and lied to my face,

I see red,

I feel it pulling me in,

It's bright and hypnotizing me with its gaze,

The red is tangling me up, it's all consuming,

It binds me, IT'S BLINDING ME!

So unleash hell, bring the red,

Be prepared, to meet your end,

You'll soon be famous, because you'll be dead,

Executed at my feet, your head bare hands shall meet,

Red is binding, IT'S BLINDING!, BLINDING, BLINDING!

It's everywhere consuming all within,

I run wild, unleashing my rage,

I'll let the winds of wrath blow you away,

Face defeat,

See Red,

I thought I could escape the shade,

Escape into music, let the red fade,

I want to leave the bitterness and resent behind me,

Good memories placed up high, bad memories say goodbye,

I found fame with my music and I want to change the world,

I hear the clown's ad mist my followers, they think they know how crushing loneliness can be,

They know nothing till they have known me,

So unleash hell, bring the red,

Be prepared, to meet your end,

You'll soon be famous, because you'll be dead,

Executed at my feet, your head bare hands shall meet,

Red is binding, IT'S BLINDING!, BLINDING, BLINDING!

It's everywhere consuming all within,

I run wild, unleashing my rage,

I'll let the winds of wrath blow you away,

Red is binding, IT'S BLINDING, BLINDING, BLINDING!

Face defeat,

See Red,

I've lived in the Red for far too long,

The scarlet crimson, lights up the room,

The fever that pulls me down is brutal yet beautiful,

The aura is blazing, bright, all consuming,

My heart is held captive by the allure,

No matter how much it hurts, No matter how much I learn,

I know my anger is here to stay, the words come rushing my way,

So unleash hell, bring the red,

Be prepared, to meet your end,

You'll soon be famous, because you'll be dead,

Executed at my feet, your head bare hands shall meet,

Red is binding, IT'S BLINDING!, BLINDING, BLINDING!

It's everywhere consuming all within,

I run wild, unleashing my rage,

I'll let the winds of wrath blow you away,

Red is binding, IT'S BLINDING, BLINDING, BLINDING!

Face defeat,

See Red,

Feel the flames!!!!,

Though my anger exhausts me, and I'm falling apart,

My actions are costing me all because I refuse to move on,

Holding on to the past, If you'd only listen maybe you'll understand,

It's time for you to go to sleep, for this is the suffering you have made for me,

I will make you suffer just like me,

So unleash hell, bring the red,

Be prepared, to meet your end,

You'll soon be famous, because you'll be dead,

Executed at my feet, your head bare hands shall meet,

Red is binding, IT'S BLINDING!, BLINDING, BLINDING!

It's everywhere consuming all within,

I run wild, unleashing my rage,

I'll let the winds of wrath blow you away,

Red is binding, IT'S BLINDING, BLINDING, BLINDING!

Face defeat,

See Red,

Get burnt, by the flames,

Time to see Red!

Written by Scott Jones

6/11/22

4am

Nothing Will Save You From Light - Original song/poem/lyrics by Sjones

I feel the pressure to be better, to blend in with societal values, 

I turn the news on, there's so many people causing damage for their pleasure, 

It's so appalling, I'm gonna stop stalling, I pull my book out, 

You better look out because I'm not joking, 

I see their names flash, I put ink to the page, Now their death is calling, 

I see the light fade from their eyes, No one knows but I know, 

The world is off balance, it's not right so prepare to say night night, 

So save yourself, say a prayer, 

I hope it does you justice,

I'll write another name and count to ten,

Tonight's the night,

No one and nothing will save you from Light,

No one's gonna stop me, I will leave no trace,

Nothing to fear, I won't be erased,

No nothing and no one will save you from Light, 

You are so clueless, trying to find me, it's useless, 

There's no more excuses, I'm bringing justice, 

The world is thanking me, people whisper quietly "Kira is the answer",

Every single name I write, has made up their minds and chose their choices,

They Can't stop me, it's pretty pointless, There's nothing L can do, 

So save yourself, say a prayer, 

I hope it does you justice,

I'll write another name and count to ten,

Tonight's the night,

No one and nothing will save you from Light,

No one's gonna stop me, I will leave no trace,

Nothing to fear, I won't be erased,

No nothing and no one will save you from Light, 

So save yourself, say a prayer, 

I hope it does you justice,

I'll write another name and count to ten,

Tonight's the night,

No one and nothing will save you from Light,

No one's gonna stop me, I will leave no trace,

Nothing to fear, You don't know my face, I won't be erased,

No nothing and no one will save you from Light. 

Written 25/7/22

Inspired by Death Note and Light aka Kira. 

Corruption Holds The Crown - Original song/lyrics/poetry by Sjones.

My family rules the world, running it with a fist of fear,

They own powerful machines of steel, they lost the sight of what is real,

who's suffering, who's to blame, for this madness that I see,

For all the blood spilled and all the bodies piled up in front of our eyes?,

The people of Japan make their plea, Which makes everything clear to me,

If they could understand, the sadness that they breed,

I will make them see the error of their ways,

I will stand up to them and take down my family,

I will take it away, take it away one person at a time,

They say, they are all the same,

Well I'm not waiting, I'm not waiting to see,

Any more bodies, laying there, laying there, under their feet,

I'll take it away, I'll stop the corruption that holds the crown, (the corrupt holds the, the corrupt holds the crown),

I could tell you all about it, How I got this power,

But time moves on and I can't slow down,

I got to move all the pieces, I got to show those clowns,

I know their moves and all their habits, I'm four steps ahead, they're in over their heads,

If they could understand, the sadness that they breed,

I will make them see the error of their ways,

I will stand up to them and take down my family,

I will take it away, take it away one person at a time,

They say, they are all the same,

Well I'm not waiting, I'm not waiting to see,

Any more bodies, laying there, laying there, under their feet now, I'm not waiting,

I'll take it away, take it away, I'll stop the corruption that holds the crown, (the corrupt holds the, the corrupt holds the crown),

They all say, nothing's gonna slow them, gonna slow them down,

And I'm not waiting, I'm not waiting!,

They may try, to take the lives of innocents away,

There's no debating, the corrupt hold the crown,(the corrupt holds the, the corrupt holds the crown),

Inspired by Code Geass: Lelouch Of The Rebellion. 

Written 24/7/22

Let's Fly Away (original lyrics)

 She's just a dumb girl, living in a fantasy world, she doesn't know that, I know she's down bad and you can tap that, she'll leave you hanging like a bat, 

She thinks she's right, she's hella mean, only thing loving her is machine's, set phasers to stun and prepare to run, or better yet let's just fly away. Fly away. Let's just fly awaaaay oh yeah.

She think's that singer, is her sister, she's got no clue at all or how you view her, she's got no friends only family, she's lost in, the space inside, the walls of her miiiiiind

She thinks she's right, she thinks she's lean, only thing that gives her love is a machine, set phasers to stun, prepare to run and open up the run way, or better yet let's just fly away. Fly away. Let's just fly awaaaay oh yeah.

You know that one guy, from that anime, she likes him more than, a human being today, she can't tell the difference, between fantasy and reality, all we know for sure is she lives in her home made cave and she cheers hooray.

She thinks she's right, she obsessively cleans, only thing that gives her love is machine, set phasers to stun, prepare to run and open up the run way, or better yet let's just fly away. Fly away. Let's just fly awaaaay yeah yeah yeah

She think she's number 1 when you can do so much better than her, she thinks the world revolves around her, so stop, stop stop!

And let her be.

She thinks she's right, she thinks she's lean, only thing that gives her love is a machine, set phasers to stun, prepare to run and open up the run way, or better yet let's just fly away. Fly away. Let's just fly away,

I wanna fly away, let's just fly away, I wanna get away, let's just fly away. Yeah yeah yeah oh yeah!

*Speaking as music fades* (did you use protection? Yeah! Oh thank god we dodged that bullet ahaha)

(Kinda dance dance, 1989 and keep riding me songs were inspiration for how this flows.)

In my dreams (original poem,lyrics)

In my dreams, I see you sailing away, I'm holding onto hope that the pain will leave me someday, our love is a moment lost to time, heartbreak should be a crime, in my dreams we are sailing away, 

Listen to the echos of forgotten dreams, we had the world at the palm of our hands or so it seemed, we thought were the champions of all, just like Icarus our love flew too close to the sun and we started to fall,

I fell and broke into pieces, I couldn't arrange them and make them fit anymore, I didn't balance life well and I've lost who I am, blinded by pain sorrow and regrets, I drink now to forget,

Every time I fall asleep I see you there, laughing and smiling with your eyes gleaming, I lay awake at night staring at the ceiling, memories come streaming to my mind, I'm surprised my hearts still beating, 

How much longer will this take, the pain and the heartbreak, I ache and i ache, I have never experienced such pain, In my dreams i find you there.  

I'm A Demon Slayer (original poem, lyrics, homage)

I'm a Demon....Slayer,
I'll cut off your head,
Demon....Slayer,
I will bring you, your end,
Demon....Slayer,
I'll kill you dead,

North East, North East,
Your mission is there,
Demon's say a prayer,
Through the snow, I go,
I will stop your feast,

I'm a Demon....Slayer,
I'll cut off your head,
Demon....Slayer,
I will bring you, your end,
Demon....Slayer,
I'll kill you dead,

South, South West, South West,
There I go to my next quest,
With the forest ahead,
The air it's filled with dread,
Come face me demon, So I can cut off your head,

I'm a Demon....Slayer,
I'll cut off your head,
Demon....Slayer,
I will bring you, your end,
Demon....Slayer,
I'll kill you dead,

With my Nichirin blade,
My sword will be a different Shade,
As I breathe in with total concentration,
I exhale and swing my blade with frustration,
You will suffer for all you have done,

Blood demon art, your head shall depart,

I'm a Demon....Slayer,
I'll cut off your head,
Demon....Slayer,
I will bring you, your end,
Demon....Slayer,
I'll kill you dead,

Flower, Love, Flame, Sun, Sound, Mist,
Serpent, Thunder, Stone, Insect, Wind, Beast,
Water,
These are the way's, my breathing can kill you,

I'm a Demon....Slayer,
I'll cut off your head,
Demon....Slayer,
I will make you dead,
Demon....Slayer,
I'll bring about your end,

Hinokami Kagura, I'm a Hashira,
Set your heart ablaze, This is a lifestyle and not a phase,
Dead calm, Six fang,
I'll bring down Muzan and all the upper clan,
Thunderclap and flash!,

I'm a Demon....Slayer,
I'll cut off your head,
Demon....Slayer,
I will bring about your end,
Demon....Slayer,
I'll kill you dead,
Demon....Slayer,
Now, OFF WITH YOUR HEAD!

Mood Today (original poem, lyrics, story) by Sjones

I'm writing these words just to say,
About how I am doing and my mood today,
Quiet and fine,
Inside my mind,
It's not so silent,

Violent,
My anger and frustrations,
Surviving is a riot,
There's not many that know, all who go,
Chasing dreams over a colourful rainbow,

This too goes to show,
My mind is singing, while the exterior is quiet,
Everyone's asking, are you okay?, how are you today?,
I smile and sit in silence,

I'm okay or at least I say,
I'm not really sure what to say, of how I am really doing on this day,
Numbness and sadness underneath my clouds,
It hasn't rained in days, this sight's profound,

Take your time and focus on yourself,
They all say, little do they know,
That can't quite be,
Done,

I'm having fun,
Living my life distracting myself,
My emotions I cast aside and set up on a shelf,
As I'm living and breathing trying to forget someone else,

Memories are nice but bring pain,
Of a heart break that feels like yesterday,
It's been a while now and I still feel empty and drained,
Missing a part of me even though I am not in pieces,
Physically,

My body is exhausted
Mentally maimed,

I'm losing sleep, sleeping less on the daily,
My heart is locked away underwater in a locker titled,
Davey,
Which will give up first I often wonder,
Heart, soul or mind which will be the first to go under,

Life is something I always ponder,
What came before, what comes after,
Ok I say,

As I'm holding back laughter,

We've heard quite enough,
I feel like I'm dying, Is there any wonder,
Why?,
With all these words in my head,
I'm overflowing with all this existential dread.

Unable To Sleep, Broken Hearted, Dearly Departed. (Original poem)

I be tossing and turning, unable to sleep, My minds at a loss trying to count the sheep,
I can't move, i can't make a sound, Not even a bleep, All these overbearing things that are on my mind, how they creep.

Thoughts unwanted, head uneasy, am i keeping in too much, My inner voice it echo's such negativity, i want it to shush, I'm having breakout and breakout, skin can't take much more, If i open my mouth and let the unwanted out, will i be sore?.

I know i can't save the world, I know i am limited, I've got the biggest heart, I'm easy to be manipulated, My heart has been broken, torn and worn, These have been some of the best days of my life, I could have sworn.

Pandemic came and created much scare, I gazed into the existential void and await in much despair, 

My head is always sad, I always distract and avoid, I have a short fuse, people easily wind me up and I get so annoyed. 

I feel as if no one cares, no one is here, no one is there, Having lost family, cut off friends, I am signalling a flare, Before me now stands a door, i knock and ask who's there, Darkness and smoke surrounds the room, the bells toll but for whom?.

I have many unanswered questions and many missing scenes, A big part of me has left me to fend on my own, my soul it screams, What do i do, repeats over in my thoughts, was it all for naught?, What am i to do, what do i say, what about the future and the plans we made today. 

Will you befriend me, will you please keep in contact with me, we have a special connection you see, I will always love you and will never forget you or all our good times, this poem has many lines, I started writing this two years ago, late at night unable to neverland i go, Life is strange and this is sad, hope lives, It should always last. 

Sick of the stress, of the anger and diservice of employment, I deserve a better life, brim with enjoyment. The need to be fit is a long lasting goal, with more free time and a better stress-free work/life balance, I should be rolling in the dough. 

I want to raise a family and a home of my own, I want to be happy for the rest of my life, I am almost 30 now and I am scared more than ever of the unknown and of father time, I hope this is going well for you reading this as it's quite hard to rhyme,

I hope you read this and feel something, I wish the one who inspired and helped me for 4 years reads this and knows how special they will always be to me, Keep in touch and catch up sometime with me, I want to know if you will be safe and well, It's time to wrap this up now and to go to sleep. 

I wrote the first two paragraph's back 6/1/2020 @3:30am. Paragraph 3 onwards was written and completed on this date as of writing right now 14/4/22 @3:30am.