I Just Want To Heal (original poem/lyrics)

It's been a long time coming baby,

You tell me to "take your time, you're on your own, there's no excuses"

What about the promises you made here or there, were they for nothing,

You keep your attention onto things that don't involve us,

I poured my heart out, and you turned it into dust,

Now I'm alone thinking about all the times you abused me,

And my soul is left scorned with PTSD,

Now I have to Heal.....

Because I wanna feel,

I want to know if what we had was real,

Man, I just want to Heal,

I tore your letters up, And cried into a pillow,

I burned your cards, smashed your mugs, ripped apart your picture frame,

Hoping to be free, of the blame,

I was hoping to feel,

I want to move on and Heal....

To forget your voice and those times I sacrificed,

All the time I gave you,

I'm alone, and now I just want to Heal.....

Man, I just want to Heal,

I just want to feel,

I don't want to be alone,

There are monsters sitting upon the throne,

Making my mind their home,

Coz I'm alone,

Please help me to heal,

I hope you feel the sun, and it takes you back some,

To the times in our lives, where I made you smile,

I hope to god, that you regret this,

Because heaven knows, it won't be repeated,

Now it's over I hope you feel all the guilt that made this,

Hopefully you will know the problem isn't me, it's you

I'm all alone, sitting with my thoughts, I just want to Heal,

These voices seem so real,

Depression got me to kneel,

The monsters come alive,

When I brandish the knife,

I want to be alone, so let me cut along,

I just want to feel,

Please help me to heal,

It's been a while and I hope you know,

I always wanted to help you heal,

Even when you did not deserve the kindness,

I wanted to make you know,

You were never on your own,

I just wanted to make you feel,

My love for you was real,

Now I'm all alone,

Kneeling before my throne,

And I just want to heal.

Written By: Scott Jones

04:23am - 27/11/2022