Remembering Jay & Bub Jones

This post is dedicated to my children who I lost due to miscarriage. It's hard to talk about and to have gone through and I miss them dearly as do their mother.

We lost Baby Jay in January 2020.

Our Expected Bump
4:25am 6/1/20
You're so little and you won't be able to hear this yet, 

You won't be able to read or understand any of this either,

But you are so loved, you are so little, so smart, so amazing,

You are being brought up into a big, scary, cold, world,

It's an exciting time to be alive none the less,

You will have two incredible people in your life that are and will be doing everything for you,

You may grow to hate, you will grow to love, listen well and listen close,

We're going to have so much fun, you will be so supported and cared about,

Much more than me and you're mother ever were, we are always here,

We love you little one, we love you squishy, we love you bumpy,

As much as you are expected, you also expect us,

We love you bump, we'll do all that's in our power,

Warmth, Food, Drink, Clothes and a roof await you,
you will be protected against the odds and scary,

Be safe, be careful, shine like a star that you are, love hard, be stronger, be healthy,

Laugh like hell and give the world a heaven and give the bad a hell.

We love you and can't wait to see you

Love DAD & MAM!

Due Date Bump
17th August 2020
We knew you oh so briefly,
We love you so very deeply,
We carry you with us forever,
We adore you for all of life,
We will remember and love you for the rest of our lives,
Every second we carried you was breathtaking,
Mammy was jittery, Daddy was ball of excitement,
The sun shines for you today,
The rain pours for us as we miss your due time,
Rainbows will light the dark cloud we are under,
You will guide us and help us to the right way,
You will always be here,
And so will we,
Baby Jones,
We love you, We see you, We remember you, We love you

Today Is Your Day

Today is the day you should have showed your face to the world,
Today is the day where your first cry would have been heard,
Today is the day where it would have marked the start of many days for years to come,
Today is the day, i would have held you close and called your name, little one,
Today is the day where mam would have been in pain and tears but happy to welcome you to the world,
Today is the day you would have taken your first breaths and ate your first meal,
Today should have been the day we take you home in our arms,
Today is the day in which we mourn your departure,
Today is the day we honour your memory and think of you more than ever,
Today is the day we send our love, give our thanks, and pray to you,
Today is the day where it's raining but there's a rainbow too,
Today is the day where the rainbow is shining, sparkling, bright just like you,
Today is the day we look up towards the stars and see a bright spark marking where you are,
Today would have been yours to hold, Today should have been ours,
Today is your day. 

https://visufund.com/miscarriage-association-lights-of-love-tree/?o=B97

We also lost another baby in September 2021 

(during this time I had covid so my gf had to go through it on her own as I had to isolate for 14 days), 

We called them Bub and they would have been born 20/4/22. 

This post is for them. 

Jonas Brothers - 29th January - Birmingham 2019

Who: Jonas Brothers with support from Livvia, Jordan Mcgraw, Picture This!

Where: Birmingham Arena - 29 January 2019

taken before it got so crowded inside :)

What I wrote on social media: "29th January was a unique new experience in going to a concert with my girlfriend and for first time in BIRMINGHAM. Long day, but it was a good performance and concert from the Jonas Brothers and the support acts. I love my baby and her family so much and I am so thankful and grateful for the opportunity to go to Birmingham with her and share that experience together, much love!"

I attended this concert and it was very unique experience and it was a good concert and a great fun day out and i enjoyed and it. Myself and my girlfriend went to see The Jonas Brothers! 

It was the first concert i have seen with my girlfriend and my first pop concert so it was a different unique experience but overall we both enjoyed!!! What was so unique? Besides it being the first concert i attended with my girlfriend and besides it being in a different city and country and besides the audience being different from what i have been used to at metal gigs? Oh hmmm i don't know, i can't quite put my finger on it hahaha. Just kidding of course but all those besides above are what made it so unique and a new experience for me really. 

We travelled up to Birmingham and the way back home took ages due to some ridiculous road works and closures but we did it and i went onto another gig the next day!!! 

So yes i would see them again with my beautiful Mrs :D 

(Yo Jonas's come a bit closer to Wales next time!)

(more on the 30th January 2019 gig soon..) 

So thanks for reading and visiting the blog, much love, remember to stay shiny!

SEE YOU SOON!

It's been a year!

It's been a year since I first saw you. It's been a year since I joked at you not lasting in work long. It's been a year since, I laughed at you not being able to do screen checks due to scary films.

It's been a year since I messaged you asking if you could cover my shift for me and I'll cover one of yours for you. 28/9/18 we shift swapped. It's been a year since you said yes. 

It's been a year since I asked you how it went. It's been a year since we opened. It's been a year since we talked about life so far and when we was born. It's been a year since I kept asking and wondering when you'd be in and when I'd work with you next. 

It's been a year since I held your hand and danced with you and talked about music at that work Xmas doo. It's been a year since new years and the nights and days we constantly spent messaging each other and we haven't stopped, we started 19/12/18 to constantly be in touch with one another. 

It's been a year since we first cwtched and snuggled. Its been a year since I told you I fancied you, liked you and more than that. It's been a year baby, where we said to one another, I'd love to spend life with you. It's always and forever that, I will love you.

It's been a year sweetheart and I love you to bits!

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Love Poem

Love, What is love? 

a poem by Scott Jones

Love is a feeling, an emotion,

Love is there in the morning, in the afternoon, in the night, all throughout your day.

Love is care, Love is support,

Love is that undying unconditional feeling you have for someone or something,

Love is powerful, Love is thoughtful,

Love is passion, Love is excitement, 

Love is never dying, Love is a chemical process and balance and a clash of things inside us,

Love is warm, Love is beautiful,

Love is graceful, Love is meaningful,

Love is to have a special someone, Love is to have all the happiness, praise and smiles,

Love is funny, Love is laughter,

Love is true, Love is life, Love is sharing,

Love is a partnership, A commitment, a bond, 

Love is staying up all night talking about life and the universe and what lies ahead,

Love is trust, honesty and respect,

Love is that feeling of being so high, so naturally high,

Love is hard, tough, emotional, challenging,

Love is a hand to hold,

Love is that warm embrace,

Love is that loving gaze,

Love is that smiling face,

Love is magic to touch,

Love is music to our ears,

Love is a breath of fresh air,

Love is understanding,

Love is patient, Love is nurturing,
Love is protective, Love is confident,

Love is sexual, it's orgasmic,

Love is that feeling of completion,

Love is always missing you, when we are not in the same room,

Love is magical,

Love is the best place,

Love is worth writing about,

Love is always having your back,

Love is being your number one fan,

Love is running fingers through your hair,
Love is assurance and reassurance,

Love is eternal,

Love is elemental,

Love is all around,

Love is that overwhelmingly beautiful scent of yours,

Love is accepting, Love is loyal, 

Love is being who you are, Love is being appreciated,

Love is two souls coming together and becoming one,

Love is fusion,

Love is tender, Love is strength, Love is Faith,

Love is always here when you need it,

Love is always, Love is forever,

Love is everywhere, especially of all, right here,

Love is Love.

I Love You!