Top 10 Song's That Make Me Cry! (I cri evrytim)

Alri? Been a while since I did a top 10 i know but whilst I was talking to my good friend James Davie on skype the other night he asked me what song's make me cry so I named a few and then I thought what if i make a top 10 list of this? So I challenged myself to do it and here it is! I hope you enjoy and hope you feel something to these songs as I do. CLICK ON THE NUMBERS TO LISTEN TO THE SONGS!

ONE SONG PER BAND. 

I'll post the meaning of the song if I can think of one or if I can find one online. 

10: Darkness - Disturbed

There could only be one Disturbed song on my list sadly as I put in the rules mentioned above. This one from the first time I heard it had tears streaming down my face. David wrote this song as an expression of how he felt when he lost his Grandfather and his journey to cope with his loss. 

9: Vermillion Pt.2 - Slipknot

Part 1 sounds like a general creep/stalker singing to himself about a girl he likes it has a dirty just gritty take music wise HOWEVER, Part 2 is not that part 2 is a beautifully structured track. The differences (between the two tracks) are subtle – 'Vermilion, Pt. 1' is about the enrapturing, the buildup, the anticipation and the neurosis," says Taylor. "'Part 2' is the aftermath, the pieces that have to be picked up later, and maybe the guilt of having lived through it.". Both songs are said to be about lost or unrequited love from a possibly suicidal person's perspective.

8: I Don't Love You - My Chemical Romance

Simply put it's an emotionally painful song clearly about a breakup. In the video the boy is completely black and the girl is completely white. I think this is to prove that they are so opposite they can't make it work. And one of them realises this. Then at the end the girl cries a black tear because she wishes they could be together and she wants to be more like him but who know's the true story behind the song I have not found anything besides other's who think like me over the song being a break up song. 

7: Simple Man - Shinedown

I like this cover much more than the original by Lynyrd Skynyrd because I find Shinedown's cover to be much more powerful and emotional. The first version of this I heard was the live version Shinedown did in 2009 I believe which they said before they started to play that it goes out to their friend Dimebag Darrell so that hit me because I am a big Pantera fan and I love Dime. It's one that hits me right in the feels.

6: Closer To The Edge - Thirty Seconds To Mars

Although it's not a sad song, it's one which I find is powerful musically, lyrically and emotionally. If I have not heard this in a while I do tear up and cry. Jared Leto explained to Musicradar.com that this song very nearly didn't make the album. He said: "Actually, we were going to throw this song out, but we decided to keep it. It was hard to mix, a total pain in ass, but I'm glad it made the record because I think it fits in with the overall framework of the album. The song is a mission, an adventure that takes you on a journey. Maybe that's why it gave us so much trouble: We had go on an adventure as a band to get it right. Some songs come very easily and other ones fight you. Oftentimes, the ones that give you trouble turn out to be the best ones - this is an example of the latter."

5: Shadow Of The Day - Linkin Park

This is a powerful song sometimes it does not get me I admit but when I sit there and think and listen to the lyrics it always does get me. Life for sure isn't easy or simple. So whether it means moving on in life or moving on through death, it's important for us to know that this is life, and if it hasn't happened to you already, it will and that's what I think this song is about and represents. 

4: Remember Everything - Five Finger Death Punch

Powerful and raw is this tune! I think of my parents and family when i hear this... because it seems like I'm never good enough for any of them... no matter how hard I try. I think this song overall is all about a guy telling his family that he is sorry for everything that happened, but he also can't forgive them for what they did to him. He wishes that things didn't happen the way they did, and asks if they could start over, would anything change? He is vividly telling the listener that abuse is real, and instead of ignoring it, one should talk about it and try to bring peace to all who were involved. It's a very powerful song, and can not go unnoticed.

3: Zzyzx Rd. - StoneSour

Zzyzx Rd. is a love song written to Taylor's wife for helping him in his struggles against alcoholism and contemplation of suicide and omg is it a beautiful and emotional track that gets me choked up every time.

2: How To Save A Life - The Fray

This one since the first time I ever heard it always makes me cry and think of my grandfather. According to lead singer Issac Slade the song was composed and influenced by his experience while working as a mentor at a camp for troubled teens: He was asked about it in an interview and this is what he said “One of the youngsters I was paired up with was a musician. Here I was, a protected suburbanite, and he was just 17 and had all these problems. And no one could write a manual on how to save him.” Slade also says that all the people who tried to help the kid were unsuccessful. And that is what the song is about. As Slade says in an interview, the boy's friends and family approached him by saying, "Quit taking drugs and cutting yourself or I won't talk to you again," but all he needed was some support. The boy was losing friends and going through depression. He lost his best friend and could not deal with it. 

1: My Immortal - Evanescence

Every single time this plays the tears come streaming down my face it's unbelievable how powerful and emotional this song is. This Song Is About Amy Lee Who Lost Her Sister At A Young Age also so I'm not sure what is sadder the song or the meaning behind the song. It's my number one what else is there to say about this. 

BONUS: Brick By Boring Brick - Paramore, Jet City Woman - Queensryche & Everlong - Foo Fighters (These makes me sad time to time because of an ex gf and yes I know how pathetic of me to say such a thing.)

ANOTHER BONUS: Through Glass - Stonesour & Disturbed - Sound of silence.

So that's all sorry for such a depressing, emotional list today but it's good to cry every now and then. Good for our eyes and good for the soul. Thanks for reading :)

My WWE Games Greatest Hits Soundtrack!

I have been tasked by James Davie (he's my regular reader and suggester and so thank you as ever James) to write down 12 songs from the WWE games that i'd put on a greatest hits soundtrack compilation. I thought this was very interesting and would be something fun to do. So follow me as we take a trip down musical grappling lane! I will also state i have only played WWF Smackdown 1 - Here Comes The Pain and WWE Smackdown Vs Raw 2006 - 2K17. 

My WWE Games Greatest Hits Soundtrack List

1) HELLYEAH - You Wouldn't Know - Now this track is a firm fave of mine out of all of the songs in WWE games. I first got into this band through this tune! Hell of a song and damn right catchy so i have to include it. Featured in Smackdown Vs Raw 2008. "You couldn't be, you couldn't be me even if you wanted to!"

2) Skillet - Monster - My god the first time i heard this was just something unreal i had chills and just could not believe what i was hearing because it was that damn good and Skillet are one of my all time fave bands on the planet and i was first introduced to them through two songs on a WWE game. Featured in Smackdown Vs Raw 2010. "I hate what I've become, The nightmare's just begun, I must confess that I feel like a monster!"

3) Black Stone Cherry - Lonely Train - Song that got me into this band is their best or one of, i have seen BSC live three times and every time this song has played goosebumps and just chills its such an amazing song and catchy to boot. Featured on Smackdown Vs Raw 2007. "But you can't judge a book, Looking at the cover, You can't love someone, While messing with another, No, you can't win a war, Fighting with your brother, You wanna have peace, Gotta love one another!"

4) Pennywise - Revolution - What a catchy song, just a hell of a tune you have to sing along to during its chorus, it was heavily featured in all adverts for WWE 13 which is still one of the best wwe games in my opinion. "We're holding on, We'll right this wrong, And fight on, We will remember today, Let me hear You say wo-o-oh! We we want a revolution!"

5) Three Days Grace - Animal I Have Become - Hell of a song, used to always have the tv turned up for this to block out my bad singing while i sung along to this catchy tune and i could not help but to have it on repeat either. Featured on Smackdown Vs Raw 2007. "So what if you can see the darkest side of me?, No one will ever change this animal I have become, Help me believe it's not the real me, Somebody help me tame this animal!"

6) Egypt Central - Taking You Down - Featured in Smackdown Vs Raw 2009 is this hit, catchy and one to get you to sing along and nod your head to and one of those revolt stand up for yourself songs.  "I'll shake the ground that you stand on, I'll still be here when you're long gone, This world is mine you can't have it, It's my turn to wreak havoc."

7) Bloodsimple - Dead Man Walking - This heavy badass fast paced track was featured back on Smackdown Vs Raw 2009 also. It's hard hitting and catchy and one that's been etched in my mind since playing the game. "All the blood that I've spilt, There's no emotion, just destruction of another person, Look at the blood on my hands!"

8) Disturbed - Perfect Insanity - One of my fave bands hands down is of course on my list because this featured in Smackdown Vs Raw 2009 also. Heavy, catchy, tough and badass is how i sum this one up and WHAT A HELL OF A SOLO! "I Don't know how much I can take, The secret thoughts inside me wake, I've lost what was within me, Oh sweet insanity"

9) Megadeth - Symphony Of Destruction - Featured way back on the Smackdown Vs Raw 2006 game had a hell of a remix of Megadeth's classic headbanger. "You take a mortal man, And put him in control, Watch him become a god, Watch people's heads a-roll!"

10) Static-X - Start A War - Featured also on Smackdown Vs Raw 2006 was this blend of industrial heavy metal catchy aggressive tune. "I'll start a war, Against you, You're one of them, You call yourself, A victim, But you're at it again"

11) Knife Party - Bonfire - A song which is mostly electronic dance instrumental despite a few repeated bars but this one is so catchy with its beats it just gets me going every time and song always stick in my head after hearing it. Featured in WWE 2K15.

12) Flo Rida W/Sia - Wild Ones (Wrestlemania Remix) - Pop song on this list from me? Yes its true and i know, all those amazing rock and metal songs even rap ones that i could have given a spot to and i pick this? Well i picked it for variety as my list has mostly been Rock/Metal despite the last two entries and WWE games always have variety and this is a catchy guilty pleasure song which i loved listening to while playing. Featured WWE 2K15.

And that is all i have for you with this list, thank you for reading and stopping by, come back for more soon!

STAY SHINY!

Top 10 Metal Songs!

What is up metallic nation?

Hope you are well and oiled ready to take your circuits for a spin in the mosh pit as today i am going to be listing my top 10 fave metal songs. This list was suggested by James Davie so a big shoutout and thanks to him.

What comes to mind when i say metal? Music? Actual metal? Aggressive vocals? Screeching guitars with amps turned up to 11? Long hair? All black clothing? 

Well what ever it is, this list is all about the metal music that is guaranteed to get you reacting either by moshing or maybe saying "well not bad but this song should have been in here" whatever it maybe or hell you could leave a comment saying "keep port talbot steelworks open!" and that is still valid to say so yeah, no matter what pops to mind do comment below at anytime and read on and enjoy :) 

RULES: One song per band....god i like to make my list's tough huh? lol. 

Funny enough when i think of metal it's normally all of these on the list that pop to mind first of all. Will post my opinion of the song, a link to the song and facts about the song. 

10: Breaking The Law - Judas Priest

Da da da da da da dada BREAKING THE LAW BREAKING THE LAW! At number 10 Judas rides in past the speed limit with this classic. You are guaranteed to know this from the starting riff and chorus and if you don't well you are BREAKING THE LAW, BREAKING THE LAW, BREAKING THE LAW! The lyrics tell of someone who gets tired of everything that comes with an ordinary life - that life has become boring. This leads the person to take a chance and start breaking the law. The song has left its mark in many places in popular culture. It was ranked #40 on VH1's 40 Greatest Metal songs list. Beavis and Butthead used to sing the song when they did something knowingly illegal. It's been used in some TV commercials, and in movies like Scarface: The World Is Yours. It's also appeared in The Simpsons.

9: Holy Diver - Dio

Another classic you are bound to know. If not for the Dio version then perhaps the Killswitch version. Both i love. Dio did it first however and it is a very iconic piece of music. Hmm mmm yeaah yeeah HOLY DIVAH! What is becoming of you? This song is about Satan, and his descent to Hell (his "dive"). The lyrics deal specifically with Revelations 12:9 where Satan was cast to the earth. The tiger is symbolic of the wild beast that comes out of the sea, as mentioned in Revelations 13:1. In June 2009, Dio told the NME: "'Holy Diver' is the metal tune that will not die. For some reason, that album and the song really hit a chord with people. Killswitch Engage did a version of it and I saw them do it at a festival recently where the reaction to their version was wonderful. But it's not something that gets resurrected every once in a while, it's just always there. I guess it's because good songs always work. What usually happens when people in bands meet me for the first time and they're fans is that they'll sing [adopts a self-mocking high pitched voice] 'Hoooly Diiiiiver' at me! It happens all the time and it's very touching."

8: Halo - Machine Head

Now many overlook this when it comes to best metal songs for me this one is a modern masterpiece. Such a great track. Rob Flynn says:"This is basically an anti-religion song, about the stuff that's been going on in America like them trying to make abortions illegal again. It's a halo over our demise". This is about how America, though supposedly a country of freedom, is still under the strangelhold of Christianity, as evidenced with the recent abortion debates. This song reflects exactly how I feel about religion and America - that society is still under it's grasp, no matter how progressive we claim to be. It's a sad, epic call for freedom from the chains of Christianity.

7: Before I Forget - Slipknot

For many metal fans this was one of the songs that got them into slipknot and metal too. Corey Taylor's lyrics are open to interpretation, which is how he likes it. This song deals with evolution and the nature of man. In 2006, this won a Grammy Award for Best Metal Performance. This was Slipknot's first Grammy - they were nominated for the award six years in a row before finally winning. The beeping at the end of the song is Morse code, which spells out the word "Slipknot." Slipknot rarely appear without their masks, but they do in this video, although only tight shots of their faces are seen. 

6: Down with the Sickness - Disturbed

Everyone know's this for the iconic unforgettable primal vocals of Draiman. "OH WAH AH AH AH!" This is about how society treats people who are "different." A lot of people think they are "sick" and "wrong" and want nothing to do with them. In the middle of the song, David acts out a skit where he is being abused by his mother (not in the radio version). Finally, he builds up enough courage and hits her right back. This is used to symbolise how "mother society" abuses "her" children for not being the way "she" thinks they should. "She" keeps doing it until "her" children get sick of it and are so angry with her and themselves they go out and get revenge for it, most likely by killing the people that hurt them ("here it comes, get ready to die!") A good example of this would be the school shootings that go on around the country.

5: Walk - Pantera

One of my personal favourites and it kicks major ass bro so of course it is on this list. The main riff was written while the band was warming up for a show on guitarist Dimebag Darrell's practice amp when Phil Anselmo shouted, "We gotta write some s--t for this new album." Dime immediately started playing the opening riff, and Vinnie tapped the drums on the wall. They were filming for the home video and caught it all on tape to remember the riff. When Pantera first found success, they found their pals were treating them a little different as they thought the fame had gone to their heads. Frontman Phil Anselmo explained to Kerrang: "I wrote this when Pantera were first getting a lot of attention. I came back from touring and my friends had taken it upon themselves to think that I'd changed as a person into this big rockstar. 'Walk' was me telling them to shove that attitude up their ass."

4: Hallowed Be Thy Name - Iron Maiden

Here's an amazing piece of music. This song is about a man who is on death row and about to be executed, it is from the perspective of that man. Pure genius metal lyrics, incredible riffs, and the godly voice of Bruce Dickinson makes this song the greatest metal song of all time. It practically defines metal. I thank you Iron Maiden for creating this masterpiece. 

3: One - Metallica

Such a tune! This song is about a soldier fighting in a war and a mortar blows off in his face. He can't hear, see, smell, taste and he doesn't have arms or legs. He comes out of a coma in a hospital. During the time he is in the hospital he reflects on his life and things his father told him. Eventually the doctors get worried because he's having spasms all the time, but he doesn't seem to be dying. They call in the general and he can't figure it out either but the soldier with the general recognise it. "Its Morse code," he says. The general asks what he is saying and the soldier looks for a minute and then says, "He is saying K-I-L-L- M-E over and over again. The lyrics are based on the novel Johnny Got His Gun by Dalton Trumbo, which is about World War I. This was the first video Metallica made, and it expanded their fan base by giving them a presence on MTV.

2: Iron Man - Black Sabbath

Now come on everyone know's this one and this is here for so many good reasons of course. There’s a well-thumbed story that the Black Sabbath song Iron Manwas inspired by the Marvel Comics character of the same name. But it’s not true. Although Marvel had established that superhero in 1963, Sabbath bassist Geezer Butler, who wrote the lyrics for the iconic song, had never even heard of him in 1970. The idea for the song (which first appeared on the second Sabbath album, Paranoid, released in 1970), actually started with Ozzy Osbourne. Geezer - “I can’t exactly recall what Ozzy said, but it was something like: ‘Why don’t we do a song called Iron Man, or maybe Iron Bloke’. That got me thinking about a lump of metal, and then putting it all into a science-fiction context. It all flowed from there. The storyline – a self-fulfilment prophecy, mixed up with time travel – is actually quite complex. It’s about a man who goes into the future and witnesses the apocalypse. Going back to his own time, he encounters a rogue magnetic field, which turns him into a mute, steel creature. Unable to talk, he still tries to warn people about the impending end of the world, but is only mocked for his troubles. Angry and bitter, he eventually causes the devastation he’d warned everyone about. Ultimately the would-be hero becomes the villain."

1: Ace Of Spades - Motorhead 

Everyone know's this one. You probably called this at number one too. Everyone from your dog to your great nana knows and likes this one. Ace of Spades’ is rated as one of the greatest rock and metal songs ever made and has seeped into popular culture, becoming the default music to represent anarchic mayhem on endless TV shows and movies. The gambling references are a metaphor for a hard-living, wreckless lifestyle; biking, drinking, drugs, fighting, etc. He knows that it will do him in eventually, that he'll eventually be dealt the "Ace of Spades" (the death card,) but that's the way he likes it; die with your boots on and all that. The "Ace Of Spades" is the dead man's hand, which was Wild Bill Hancock's hand as he was shot dead (he was an American sheriff who was killed during a game of poker). The hand consists of aces and eights, including the ace of spades.

Alright that completes my list. Remember this is just my thoughts on my personal fave top 10 metal songs and is not the true defining list of the top 10 metal songs.

Click the pics to be taken to the songs. 

If you wish to suggest future topics or top 10's for me to discuss and list please comment on google or tweet me @1stmetalgod +1STMETALGOD and let your opinions be heard also. I would love to hear from you all. 

As ever thank you very much for reading and for suggesting topics, i love my readers, you guys make my day every day :) 

See you soon!

Top 10 Disturbed songs

Helo my Disturbed beings, how are we today? 

It is time for me to be the guy and tell you my top 10 Disturbed songs!

I hope to see the band someday live for myself.

To make things more challenging i am not including covers only originals.

10: The vengeful one - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8nW-IPrzM1g

At 10 is one of their newest songs from their incredible return album Immortalized. The band returned from hiatus to give us this epic album and some epic memorable music videos,solos,lyrics and sounds. The video is all about this force the guy coming down to Earth to save those lost and to dethrone those who corrupt all. Basically that is what the song is about aswell haha. 

9: Stupify - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GVcY--XzeIc

Catchy and so good the intro/main riff is just hypnotic i love it so much. its so simple yet so effective. It's about someone being dumbfounded by their feelings lyrics suggest it's about a mental victim of abuse in someway aswell. Multiple meanings just like any other song really. 

8: Voices - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AwLxg-yvEmc

Another catchy riffage aswell as lyrics with this tune! This one is all about having voices in your head and trying to not listen to give in on their temptations as it were. 

7: The game - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BsIXGVOvah8

I utterly love this one so heavy once again it is catchy. I believe this one is all about manipulative nature of some people and possibly between two in a relationship. 

6: Darkness - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T23D193nCys

So touching, so sad. A little fact i literally listened to this song all day sobbing after my childhood friend Josh's funeral. He was too young. I believe this one if about the loss of someone and the darkness it brings to your life smothering you and how you seek to breathe again. 

5: The night - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T23D193nCys

Oh god everytime i hear this song i feel a transformation into a different being, so dark,so powerful. I feel unstoppable this song gives me powers. This one i feel is all about finding out who you are and not conforming. God i fucking love this song! Honestly i sound like a crazy person i know but it does crazy things to me. I tense up i feel so fucking good and evil it's crazy. Ok i will stop yapping now.

4: Another way to die - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HwELajFteTo

A real meaningful eye opening song here set all about global warming and other crisis happening in the world caused by humans and nature it's self and how barbaric each party is adding on more ways to die than ever before. It's a preachy one.  A damn good one too!

3: Indestructible - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aWxBrI0g1kE

A mighty tune here. It's all about a soldier whose belief's make him think he is invincible that he is indestructible master of war. 

2: Haunted - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mLgPNilXHM4

Here is my second place an atmospheric piece of metal awesomeness, fucking love this tune. It's possibly about someone finding someone else a male and a female with one being fucked up from their past haunted by their memories refusing to accept the new love they found is meaningful being but they are blinded by their hurt of the past they are damaged so they are trying to avoid human contact trying to not feel anything ever again. So someone damaged by the world who is refusing help because their trust for others has been broken. It's my thoughts on what it is about because it does tell that kind of story to me but hey i love this song so let's see what placed first.

1: Down with the sickness - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=09LTT0xwdfw

Can you feel that? Ah shit it's only number one of course!!! The first Disturbed song i seen i was like holy shit what is that sound the Owhahaha! This is monkey metal! Haha. This one's mommy bit i do not like listening to because it's fucked up and i feel ruins the song but anyway this song what is it about? Well the band has said it is all about society treating the different people as sick and wanting nothing to do with them. So yeah i kind of agree there and that will wrap it up here.

Honorable mentions: EVERY DISTURBED SONG!

Alright wow cheers for reading if you did. 

I hope you enjoyed.

Let me know if you have any suggestions for list's for me to do.

I like being busy.

This is keeping me busy.

It's fun and challenging.

Anyway, The god is out.

Random Ramblin's - Part 13 - What's wrong with me? NEW ALBUM RATINGS

Hello lets ditch the alri shall I? Alri? Lol

Right oh so its been 2 weeks since I had my tat and people before it were like "nah he wont go through with it" yet I proves them wrong now these same people go "oh its stupid I dont get it why did you have that for?!" Its so god damn annoying. It's like going to McDonalds and being questioned for ordering what you'd like to eat and its so god damn annoying. I told everyone why I had it and what it stands for yet they don't stop ribbing me about it. Just stop I dont ask why you got that shitty tribal sleeve do I?!

New album ratings*****
Disturbed - Immortalized (deluxe) - 7/10
Ffdp - Got your six (deluxe) - 6/10
Two good albums by two of my fave bands I feel theres bits missing and there's some songs that dont stick and stand out unlike others but I like these new albums despite amazon not fulfilling their pre-order get it on same day dealio. Ah well. Check these two albums out!

Things are gonna be getting more serious now so yeah sorry. I like to be a comic as much as i can but sometimes even clowns cry.

So we are near the end of 2015 and to tell the truth this aint been a good year for me but it has had its good moments.  The worse bits or rather contributors to assisting how bad my year has been has been my employer. They have fucked me about and fucked me off soo much this year. I may make a one off blog post about it all but anyway I gotta move onto a downer. Past few months I have not been feeling like myself at all and I may have noted it before in a blog but i've got a book aswell I been writing in about it all a lot more and well the things that have been affecting me and that ive been experiencing I have been doing research on and well all signs point me to depression. I have been declining and questioning if its tiredness or depression but depression is the more clear answer. I'll summarise what ive been feeling now and stuff if you would like to provide help. Bad memory - cant remember driving to and from places,cant remember doing a check call when I have noted it and like unfocused. Eating more aka comfort eating. Not getting much sleep and taking longer to sleep.  Worrying over how much sleep I will get,the future and death. I'm unsure if I should call this next bit parranoia but like not wanting a call from work and just looking everywhere in work see if anyones there trying break into site and if my work shows up for a visit. Loss of confidence talking on phones.Not knowing how to make decisions so basically I want to quit my job but I dont want to aswell. Unwillingness to get out of bed when I wake up for work. Wishing I was sick to constantly get days off. Feeling of not being used and of my skills diminishing due to lack of opportunities to fully utilize them.contant tiredness yet not being able to sleep like I take too long to drift off and did I already say this I cant remember.  Feeling stuck restricted cut off from social time. God there's so much I bet I forgot a few. Things at the moment aint going too well. I dont think I should be driving or working like this in this mindset but I also dont want to stay with my employer.  To my friends and family yes I know ive been ok happy normaish and funny but know that behind that false mask I wear the inside has been covered in rain which needs to dry. I want to finish work but I guess im nervous of writting a resignation letter and of the fact I wont quit to go to a different job straight away. I know I'll get a job or do something productive but it'll take time and in that time I can build and expand skills. If I left work I wont be able to claim jsa for 6 months aswell. I dont want to go on dole again because thats as shit as my employer. I'm doing so much thinking its driving me mental.   I'm working on a site ive done before yet not done I  ages for the next few days. I dont want to work it. I know I know wtf you done It before few times whata different?  Its a site thats more busy and has more security its also up a mountain and I dont like driving up and down there. The road up that mountain is known for its accidents and deaths and temp traffic lights it a bad road. Fuck Im falling asleep here in work. Past 4 days i have felt much better as i have been working with others so you know thats great right? I still do forget some stuff and not be so alert driving but you know i have made improvements while work has continued to piss me off but i shall commentate on work in a blog post down the line.

Uhh i dont know what else to say but thanks for reading and stopping by as ever i thank a you and i shall see a you again.

Random Ramblin's - Part 11 - What now?

Alri?

So what's up? You doing ok?

That time again where i blog shit and just talk about whats fresh and new and just whats been going on for me in my life and annoying me or what ever else comes to mind because its unhealthy keeping it all in. This has been in writing for 3 weeks by the way so yeah a lot of shit has gone on haha.

I own a recurve bow now. Yes i am becoming robin hood haha nah in all seriousness its a junior 20lb bow and i got 8 arrows and some other stuff with it and well since i been watching Arrow its made me go "Yeah i want to try this" not the whole be a superhero part though although it would be kick ass but i digress. I had a practice of it today took 4 arrows with me and yes good stuff just lost 1 arrow aswell and my best distance i was hitting this target i took with me,which was a cardboard box was about 10 meters away or so i just took a good few steps back and just aimed pulled and released and to no surprise i missed a lot! I hung in there however and i did hit the box 3 times which went straight through the box so you know obviously some power there to em. I like it,pretty fun to be honest.

According to my facebook i have watched to this point a total of 862 films! THAT IS INSANE! I only watch loads of films at work though because it passes the time of 15 hour shifts that i do and you cant expect me to sit there do nothing i gotta keep entertained. ****UPDATE ITS OVER 1000 NOW!****

Some of my friends have finally been reading my blogs haha i am amazed but you know thanks. All that i say or type here is just thoughts from my mind and mostly ranting and just venting out the anger that i may have. My anger is gone i have none today really i did take a lot out on a punching bag today in the gym. Some people have done some mucking about with me today but i ended up just saying screw them and i went out for a few drinks and catch up with friends ah it was a nice night. I need more nice nights out instead of slaving over my xbox 360,ps3 and laptop tbh. Also some of my friends have recognized who i have talked about at bits aswell but its no secret as they were there at the house parties i mentioned haha If you do find you or someone you know in a blog of mine well don't take it personally but if you are offended well i dunno....people get pissed at each other all the time really its naturally you know and especially for friends i find sometimes friends being pissed at eachother can fuel a negative fire that burns your friendship to ashes and sometimes it just kinda makes things healthy as you can just talk about the problems you have and just sometimes slag each other off be it as a joke or not and you know things can be ok and fine. We all have friends who annoy us in one way or another or who makes us yell at them to shut up haha. Yes i can get annoying and shit i have no problem of you telling me and then me shutting myself up ok no problem. I cant help it. I also cant help the fact i get tongue tied sometimes or quite a bit i think thats sort of a confidence thing or some sorta shit like i have been doing it a lot more since i have had my job because well i dont see many people or talk to many i am normally on my own sat in a cabin for 12/15 hours and its boring yes i have to phone in hourly and stuff and plus its also due to technology taking over and everyone is used to talking in their minds and on blank white spaces so yeah and i guess spelling errors could be the text version of being tongue tied haha. Anyhoo yes if you see something that sounds like i am talking ill of you i mean it as well you did or said something that annoyed me so i had to rant about it and get it out of my system somewhere BUT if you want to make yourself an enemy of mine then please do as i have heard that you are not living unless your making enemies along the way so c'mon! make me live! XD

So my friend Lewis asked me a very good question today regarding my youtube and it was. "Scott why do you care so much about yt copyright?" and yeah i am questioning it myself now and my answer is probably because yes i want to be partnered but also i do not want any trouble you know say if a video i posted got copyrighted and some artist say if the copyright was from a song just seen it and decided to sue me well i would be over my head in shit creek and i do not want that at all so that would be my answer.

I hate depression. I am not depressed right now infact i am feeling good but its just depression is such a pain to go through you know. I been through it before i suffered it for a few months in 2012 as i said in a previous blog post yes i may not have shown it but my head was a minefield it was just you know messed up man and i wont go more into it now as i basically covered it in my earlier blog post i did a while back so yeah go see there for a longer in depth look and my experience.

This is a very tame blog post for me as i am normally ranty but as i said typing this at the moment i have been feeling good just because i had a nice day and yeah haha its odd for me to feel good or to smile but yeah thats what you get sometimes when the clouds over your head decide to take a break haha.

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So here is an all new feature where i will talk about what albums i am looking forward to and name some of my faves and most listened to at the moment.

My most Listened to albums at the moment:
Plasterscene: Head full of toys (E.P.) - Although this is not an album it is just a few songs a local band have and i got to say it is really great and addictive to listen to. I know the vocalist he is a good friend of mine and i just love the lyrics,the groovy bass and chilling guitar and pounding drums man! So great! One of the best local bands for me going at the moment. Is my opinion bias because i know one member? I dont think so but you be the judge and give them a listen :)

Slipknot: The Grey Chapter - I do not think i could get tired of this album after 6 years of waiting for a new album boy did it pay off! EVERYTHING IS PERFECT! I UTTERLY LOVE IT! The new members are great and as ever the classic things you expect from slipknot are all over the album with nods and tributes to their former bassist Paul Grey. I seen slipknot live for my first time this year on the uk tour and it was amazing. I was rocking so much and for so long and screaming my heart out or rather singing to everything they played but when they ended i felt it was so short it was just over so quick yes i know they played 17 songs which is a lot but i wanted a lot more haha but i loved it and i will happily go see them again!

Disturbed Asylum & Indestructible -  Yes i am a metal head haha Since Disturbed have come out of hiatus and put together a new album that's out very soon i have been on a mission to relisten to every single album til the release of immortalized and these two albums in particular are my favorites of the band.  I love all of disturbeds albums and songs and i love them all together you know? Its just soo good the stuff they produce.

Trivium - In waves & Vengence falls - Much like disturbed since Trivium have a new album out later this year i have been listening to their old albums a lot again. I love Trivium and i think their weakest albums are shogun and vengence falls but all their albums have good songs on and i love trivium despite not liking every album or song. Matt Heafy follows me on twitter aswell so you know i have much love for Trivium Scrote!

That is about it as far as albums i have been listening to a lot lately.

ALBUMS I AM LOOKING FORWARD FOR:

FFDP - Got your six
Trivium - Silence in the snow
Disturbed - Immortalized

I have also been listening to and watching a lot of Johnny Cash lately since i seen the walk the line film i liked him prior to seeing the film but i guess i appreciate him a lot more now you know. Great artist!

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Results day - People have had their results and passes into uni today. Congrats and all that to em. I didn't have results I wanted but then again I also never had any dreams of going to uni etc. Well I did have a dream before I was in uni and had blue hair but that's about it hahaha I've learned a lot more since leaving school and im sure if I could resit my exams now that I would not get an A so you know haha i revised like mad but ofcourse when you have 3/4 exams in one day aswell as the environment your put in for exams its kinda pressuring and well makes you kinda panic and just not focus on all you've revised and so your memory just goes to mush. Anyway you cant let a piece of paper dictate how your life will go. You do that! You can expand and level up skills you have aswell as develop new ones schools miss bits that we should be taught. I've never used algebra since I finished school yet I've had to pay tax,insurance and vote? Which ones the least important subject there? Since I beat the school levels that very much felt like a prison,I have expanded and gained new skills aswell as done some awesome things and met some amazing people and gained new friends and yes for 2 years I was in no mans land just skint,jobless and unable to go out to do some wicked stuff with friends or buy things I wanted but then eventually I did gain a job which is shit but I've gained money a lot of it and you know had 2 cars and been to lots of shows and met people I never thought I'd even meet but I did it all. I am here still at my shit job and of course I want to do something that makes me happy and keeps me on my feet using all my skills and with a good fun environment and of course I will end up with what I want one day since I believe that's fate but before that people need to concentrate on the present and remember what they've done and learned and where they've come from because thinga could be way worse than they are. Keep your heads up. Its ok to feel defeated and sad now and then its the learning process of falling down we learn to get back up and we learn to climb that mountain and ride that bull long and hard until we are satisfied and mosey on. So whether you had good results or the bad just well done for coming this far and just aim high do things one bit at a time and you will reach your goals in no time. Be happy dont worry you did your best dust this off and stand back up. Thing's are brightening on the horizon.

Girl problems - 2 weeks ago i met this real nice girl on a dating site. (Yes i am on a dating site how sad yeah well what ever kid) Well we hit it off like a house on fire tbh have a lot in common and shit and you know she wanted to meet up then i said soon as i am free does she want to go out for a meal and she said "if she has money" i said yeah thats cool i just need a day off and let you know soon as and well yeah she was phoning me 1:30am when i was in work and we'd have a chat and man shes a minecraft freak haha No seriously i felt feelings for her and i got too attached because she said she was gonna go out last monday and so you know monday came and she was saying on her fb she was feeling sad so i sent her a message and it got seen but never got a replied so i was like "hmmm ok thats weird did i do something wrong?" and nope still not heard anything from her besides still having her on my facebook and yes she is active but Tuesday i found out from my friend Jared she was out with him and few of his friends last night as she was on a date with one of them so yeah that destroyed me. Its still a pain that it affected me so much. I was worrying before that of you know what if i meet up with her and she does'nt like me and stuff and ah yes my head was doing the rounds and just shit hit the fan i had no days off that week and so that frustrated me even more i was just losing my head you know. This girl seemed to like me and keen to me and we were talking like mad yet she went out on a date and shit. Fuck! I mean god damn it women if you do not like someone tell them before they get attached or maybe thats most womens fucked up plans huh? Get someone to like them then to fuck them over and go with someone else out of the blue!? Fuck man like seriously girls be like "all men are the same sexist pigs oh i hate em" WELL WE FUCKING HATE YOU FOR RIPPING OUT OUR HEARTS AND SQUISHING OUR BRAINS! We feel pain too you know its not a one way street pain gets everyone and it does'nt care about race or creed!

1 week til my tatoo and i am nervous but excited haha but also i am not really concentrated on it and well tbh i am not concentrated on anything i dunno whats happened to my head but its been like this since well just before July and its really bugging me i should be pumped for some stuff later this year but i am just like "meh" idek its needs a kick and a wake up ffs or what if its sorta like depression but it does'nt feel like it you know just feels like lights are on but no one is home and i am on autopilot and shit ah fuck knows man. Brains are fucking amazing but fuck me i aint got a clue about what evers going on.

I'd just like to add that i was really good at pool but as of late i am utterly shit!

I am tired and pretty drunk. Peace out as i am outta here.

Hello? Hello Mcfly!? Make like a tree and get out of here!