Top 10 Five Finger Death Punch Songs

HOW THE HELL, HAVE I NOT DONE THIS LIST BEFORE?!

You know I love FFDP right? Damn, I swear I did this list BUT HEY if I cannot find it then, REDO IT!

This will be tough, but I am determined to get this list done! FFDP done some great covers but for the sake of this list, I will be excluding them.

Five Finger Death Punch, also abbreviated as 5FDP or FFDP, is an American heavy metal band from Las Vegas, Nevada, formed in 2005. The band originally consisted of vocalist and keyboardist Ivan Moody, rhythm guitarist Zoltan Bathory, lead guitarist Caleb Andrew Bingham, bassist Matt Snell, and drummer Jeremy Spencer.

10: Lift Me Up (Ft Rob Halford)

This was a titan of a track when it was released, and it still god-damn is! Ivan & Rob deliver a sick as fuck collab for us with this one. You can think of this one as being in need of being lifted from depths of addiction or maybe from just being down from being that person who always helps others and never gets the same back. 

9: Remember Everything

To me this is hands down one of the most emotional and powerful songs I have ever heard and FFDP it hits home hard to me and always makes me cry every time I listen to it. 

8: Burn MF

The angst of this song I feel it so much, and occasionally I cannot help but to listen and yell along waving my middle finger about going "BURN MF! BURN MF! BURN!" haha. When you hear this live it is on another level thanks to the energy and vocals from thousands of people around you also singing that chorus.

7: A Little Bit Off

You ever woke up and not felt right? This song captures that perfectly and resonates with me strongly. 

6: Never Enough

I guess this one can be summed up as being an outcast and everything you do to matter or fit in is never enough, well that's how I feel, and it was among the block of first songs I heard from FFDP and I think my good friend James Evans introduced me to them.

5: Wrong Side Of Heaven

The video is all about war and it's effects pretty much and that's what this song is also and just dealing with it. Powerful, emotional and beautiful song, one of their best!

4: Jekyll & Hyde

On some level I believe we can relate to this catchy killer track. Funny story with this one basically the band trolled their label and shot the video themselves, and it is quite a fun and funny video just like the next entry to the list. The band has said in interviews that this one was made from Ivan's early morning calls and voicemails he sent to the band regarding lyrics, and they pieced it all together to form this.

3: Under & Over It

This is just straight up brash FFDP firing back at the haters and their label saying we are who we are, and we ain't going to change. I love this one so much!

2: Hard To See

One of the first songs I heard from FFDP was this one, and it was incredible and still is. "It's about seemingly irresolvable differences. It's valid in just about any setting: politics, religion, relationships… Everything is 'only an opinion' based on limited information, yet people sometimes get attached to their point of views to the extreme…in fact, to the point they would launch wars over them." - Zoltan Bathory

1: The Bleeding

I have got to say that this song is fucking amazing and intense as hell especially live. My friend Lewis G and his band Hammerstrike played this every time and dedicated it to someone every time I have seen them play, and it was always epic.

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Five Finger Death Punch - Afterlife ALBUM REVIEW!!!

Alright fuckers and fuckette's, It is about god-damn time that we listen to METAL, and we review it here on my blog once again. 

IT IS FIVE FINGER DEATH PUNCH TIME MOTHERFUCKERS!!!!

AfterLife is the ninth studio album by American heavy metal band Five Finger Death Punch, released on August 19, 2022, via Better Noise. It is the first album since 2007's The Way of the Fist not to feature longtime lead guitarist Jason Hook, who was replaced by Andy James in 2020. So knowing we have a new guitarist on this album, I do wonder how Andy will compare with Hook. I know the band has played around with more technology with this album as the teasers have shown sounds of industrial metal and synth. 

As with my album reviews, I like to list the tracks and tell you my thoughts on the songs and then rate the album as a whole to end. What are you sitting around for? Get up and mosh!

Welcome to the Circus

Oh shit!!!! ARE YOU READY! LOOKS LIKE WE KICKING OFF GOING HARD AND CATCHY WITH THIS ONE! "YOU GOTTA KILL SOMEBODY" parts are sick! AHHHHHH THIS CHORUS! Yep yep! Fave song and we are one song into this album! As I said we got some new sounds spliced together in with FFDP's famous sound structure. "AM IIII THE ONLY ONE!" Damn boys you're opening this one with a banger!? What else is there on this album!?

Afterlife

Here we go again, another solid banger! Great catchy chorus and that guitar is peak! It's got the typical vibes or ffdp and their structured songs, but it's also different and unique. Chorus is great. Oh, here comes a screechy guitar and some gut busting drums. 

Times Like These

The first soft one on this album dare I say? It's nice, great flow and the structure and lyrics are deep. Instrumentally giving different sounds a shine. Ah man, lovely little chill song with deep lyrics.

Roll Dem Bones

Ooof hello Five finger! Here is the flow we are so used to by this band. Honestly when it comes to FFDP they got this addictive flow with their songs. You got this nice groove and aggressive vocals along with fast-paced vocals and then catchy chorus's with chunky riffs and drum beats. Proper umphf! ROLL DEM BONES! So far this is my fave of the album!

Pick Up Behind You

God do I love Ivan's clean vocals also. Mmm the bass and groove in this song is just mmm. I am bopping my body and head to this one.

Judgement Day

Shit this intro made me thought of some grime rap content to drop on me and then came the la-la's and then the slow maniacal sounding vocals from Ivan here. A different track from ffdp more synth and more like a drum machine is taking part with the industrial, grime like synth beats. It's different. Not something I can get into right now, but I can bet this one will get a slow following.

IOU

A mix of what we love about FFDP here. Fuck me this one just hits you know? Catchy, heavy and continuing the album's industrial theme with its instrumentals.Oooooh that solo daaamn Andy you go dude! (if that is Andy shredding) OK this is also one of my faves on this album! This just does something for me and makes me fist pump to its chorus. 

Thanks for Asking

Woah dude the start sounds like elevator or lobby music, and then we get treated to a sweet Spanish acoustic guitar and some shakers. This feels like another themed song like on the wrong side of heaven. Hey man, Ivan's vocals just slaps. Oh, here comes the band and the Spanish acoustic is still going on behind. When this song started I was confused and concerned but as I am near its end, I must say that I appreciate this one. Damn different for sure but man that was good.

Blood and Tar

Hello again Mr acoustic guitar, OH bye then haha, the band are giving it the chugs and grooves now with their heavy sound. This one is the military story of the album I feel. Seems like squad mates turning on each other. 

All I Know

Whistle away now ya'll. We got that soft acoustic start to this song. The longest song on the album just feels like Ivan speaking his mind. It could grow on people or me more with more listens. The guitar solo is sweet.

Gold Gutter

Aww shit! Ivan just said he about to burn it down! This is another one of the rough, catchy, typical "let's fuck shit up" song from FFDP for sure. Ivan laughs as he thanks the world and rants about it all because he wants to punish it through this song, so fuck the haters! WHEN IVAN SAID BOUNCE THE FUCKING CHUNKY HEAVY ASS NOISE THAT IS PROCEEDING TO BLAST MY FUCKING EAR DRUMS IN MY HEADPHONES IS GNARLY AS FUCK!!!! Jeeezus! Fair enough Ivan you go let loose it's so good to hear it!

The End

Well time for the last song on the album. Hmm pretty good, it's the again typical FFDP sound and structure but added technical vocals which makes Ivan sound like he's underwater at times in this song. Oh the flow of instrumentals after the "Burn it to the ground" part was wicked, what was that?! 

7/10

A different album and sound from FFDP which is interwoven with the sound structure of old. 

A good album!

Alright, so afterlife by FFDP what do you think?

Thanks for reading and sharing this review, I appreciate it so much!

See you next time, stay shiny!

FFDP F8 Album - My fave songs! HIGHLIGHTING MY FAVE LYRICS!

FFDP'S NEW ALBUM "F8" IS AVAILABLE EVERYWHERE NOW, IT IS EPIC AND PACKS MANY PUNCHES!

F8 instrumental/Inside out - I love this one and i have listened to it a lot since before the album's release and i heard it live when FFDP played Cardiff not long ago. "I stand alone, Guess I knew it all along, Yes I knew that you were wrong, How you left when I was down, I want you to say, It was never really me, You just turned and walked away, How you turned me inside out, Inside out!"

Full Circle - Is another tune from the death punch sound! "I know I'm never going to change the world (change the world), I'm not sure that I could even if I tried (full circle), I know I'm never going to save the world (save the world), So I'll sit here laughing as it all goes by (full circle), Full circle!"

A Little Bit Off - This spoke so many volumes to me and resonates in my soul with those days i have where i don't feel right but i can't put my finger on why, you know? I have listened to this so much! "I'm a little bit off today, something down inside me's different ,Woke up a little off today, I could tell that something's wrong ,I'm a little thrown off today, there's something going on inside me, I'm a little bit off today, a little bit off today"

To Be Alone - I really like this one certainly have listened to it a few times. "So tell me, how does it feel to know that no one is coming?, No one is running, When you hit the ground (You hit the ground), How does it feel to know that no one's around you?, No one will be there, When you hit the ground (You hit the ground), How does it feel?, How does it feel to be alone?, To be alone"

Darkness Settles In - I love this one, i was listening to it while i bathed and it was good. "All the ghosts that live inside me always waiting in the wind, I can see through my reflection, what I've become and what I've been, You see, your Heaven doesn't want me and your Hell won't let me in, It's like I'm holding all the aces but I know I'll never win"

Brighter Side Of Grey - This spoke to me and i have listened to it a lot. "There's something that I hope you'll remember, That life is not a game, it's a song"

Making Monsters - Honestly the instrumental is so evil it's brilliant! "This isn't bending knee, This isn't self reflection, What did you think I'd do, This is retaliation!"

Death Punch Therapy - It's the anthem of the knuckleheads i swear to god! "I'm under and I'm over it the same it's ever been, I'm battle born a fuckin' storm inform your next of kin"

Like honestly these songs are the best on the new ffdp album F8! 

They mostly have lyrics that i can relate to in some way and also the instrumentals are gnarly!

Honestly i recommend this album there's so many great songs and i have chosen to highlight the ones i liked best here. 

FFDP keep it up!

Five Finger Death Punch - Cardiff 30th January 2019

Who: Five Finger Death Punch with support from Bad Wolves and Megadeth

Where: Cardiff Motorpoint Arena - 30th January 2019

Another night and another unforgettable concert! Amazing night despite the queue to get in i feel it was understaffed and too slow as I missed the first 2 songs from Bad Wolves.

Finally seen some bands I've been dying to see for years!!! 

5fdp are utterly incredible!!!! Bad wolves are a band I'm really getting into now and love their zombie cover and energy! Megadeth were awesome! So yeah epic night!

You go take care knucklehead and stay shiny!

4 Fingers (Original Metal lyrics)

I've got 4 fingers, I've got 4 fingers,

and the middle one's for you,

I've got 4 fingers, I've got 4 fingers,

I'VE GOT 4 FINGERS AND THE MIDDLE ONE'S FOR YOU!!! 

I won't stand by and be idle any more,

Done listening to all the defecation, 

I'm done with all the drama, 

I won't be lied to anymore,

No more pushed around,

I refuse to be walked over,

This is my life and i'll do what i want,

IT DOESN'T CONCERN YOU!!!

I've got 4 fingers and the middle one's for you,

I've got 4 fingers and there's one I've got for you,

I've got 4 fingers and here's one i made earlier on,

I've got 4 fingers and the middle one's for you,

MOVE ON!!!

I'm done with the assumptions, the petty squabbles,

I won't be made into a scape goat for you're own filthy failures,

If you've made a mess then live in it!, 

Don't drag me down to your level, I'm many flights above it!, 

I won't fight, but go ahead and cut my tether, 

I WON'T BE RESPONSIBLE FOR MY FIST!!!

I've got 4 fingers and i can make them into a knuckle sandwich for you,

I've got 4 fingers and they all fall one by one, 

I've got 4 fingers, stop pushing your luck,

I've got 4 fingers and this one's for you!, 

GET LOST!!!!

Done with the social scrolling's, the pointless meanderings, 

The chore and bore outpour of information that's so forced down my throat,

I won't listen and obey, I was never a pet, I'm a man, 

I've got my own views and opinions, to bad you're not tall enough to meet them,

I've got a secret and i will only tell you just open up and listen close,

I've got 4 fingers,

I've got 4 fingers,

I said i got 4 fingers,

I'VE GOT 4 FINGERS AND THE MIDDLE ONE'S FOR YOU!!!!

Written 12/2/20 at 4:30am

By Scott Jones

Inspired by recent personal events and the style of FIVE FINGER DEATH PUNCH!

Random Ramblin's - Part 13 - What's wrong with me? NEW ALBUM RATINGS

Hello lets ditch the alri shall I? Alri? Lol

Right oh so its been 2 weeks since I had my tat and people before it were like "nah he wont go through with it" yet I proves them wrong now these same people go "oh its stupid I dont get it why did you have that for?!" Its so god damn annoying. It's like going to McDonalds and being questioned for ordering what you'd like to eat and its so god damn annoying. I told everyone why I had it and what it stands for yet they don't stop ribbing me about it. Just stop I dont ask why you got that shitty tribal sleeve do I?!

New album ratings*****
Disturbed - Immortalized (deluxe) - 7/10
Ffdp - Got your six (deluxe) - 6/10
Two good albums by two of my fave bands I feel theres bits missing and there's some songs that dont stick and stand out unlike others but I like these new albums despite amazon not fulfilling their pre-order get it on same day dealio. Ah well. Check these two albums out!

Things are gonna be getting more serious now so yeah sorry. I like to be a comic as much as i can but sometimes even clowns cry.

So we are near the end of 2015 and to tell the truth this aint been a good year for me but it has had its good moments.  The worse bits or rather contributors to assisting how bad my year has been has been my employer. They have fucked me about and fucked me off soo much this year. I may make a one off blog post about it all but anyway I gotta move onto a downer. Past few months I have not been feeling like myself at all and I may have noted it before in a blog but i've got a book aswell I been writing in about it all a lot more and well the things that have been affecting me and that ive been experiencing I have been doing research on and well all signs point me to depression. I have been declining and questioning if its tiredness or depression but depression is the more clear answer. I'll summarise what ive been feeling now and stuff if you would like to provide help. Bad memory - cant remember driving to and from places,cant remember doing a check call when I have noted it and like unfocused. Eating more aka comfort eating. Not getting much sleep and taking longer to sleep.  Worrying over how much sleep I will get,the future and death. I'm unsure if I should call this next bit parranoia but like not wanting a call from work and just looking everywhere in work see if anyones there trying break into site and if my work shows up for a visit. Loss of confidence talking on phones.Not knowing how to make decisions so basically I want to quit my job but I dont want to aswell. Unwillingness to get out of bed when I wake up for work. Wishing I was sick to constantly get days off. Feeling of not being used and of my skills diminishing due to lack of opportunities to fully utilize them.contant tiredness yet not being able to sleep like I take too long to drift off and did I already say this I cant remember.  Feeling stuck restricted cut off from social time. God there's so much I bet I forgot a few. Things at the moment aint going too well. I dont think I should be driving or working like this in this mindset but I also dont want to stay with my employer.  To my friends and family yes I know ive been ok happy normaish and funny but know that behind that false mask I wear the inside has been covered in rain which needs to dry. I want to finish work but I guess im nervous of writting a resignation letter and of the fact I wont quit to go to a different job straight away. I know I'll get a job or do something productive but it'll take time and in that time I can build and expand skills. If I left work I wont be able to claim jsa for 6 months aswell. I dont want to go on dole again because thats as shit as my employer. I'm doing so much thinking its driving me mental.   I'm working on a site ive done before yet not done I  ages for the next few days. I dont want to work it. I know I know wtf you done It before few times whata different?  Its a site thats more busy and has more security its also up a mountain and I dont like driving up and down there. The road up that mountain is known for its accidents and deaths and temp traffic lights it a bad road. Fuck Im falling asleep here in work. Past 4 days i have felt much better as i have been working with others so you know thats great right? I still do forget some stuff and not be so alert driving but you know i have made improvements while work has continued to piss me off but i shall commentate on work in a blog post down the line.

Uhh i dont know what else to say but thanks for reading and stopping by as ever i thank a you and i shall see a you again.

Random Ramblin's - Part 11 - What now?

Alri?

So what's up? You doing ok?

That time again where i blog shit and just talk about whats fresh and new and just whats been going on for me in my life and annoying me or what ever else comes to mind because its unhealthy keeping it all in. This has been in writing for 3 weeks by the way so yeah a lot of shit has gone on haha.

I own a recurve bow now. Yes i am becoming robin hood haha nah in all seriousness its a junior 20lb bow and i got 8 arrows and some other stuff with it and well since i been watching Arrow its made me go "Yeah i want to try this" not the whole be a superhero part though although it would be kick ass but i digress. I had a practice of it today took 4 arrows with me and yes good stuff just lost 1 arrow aswell and my best distance i was hitting this target i took with me,which was a cardboard box was about 10 meters away or so i just took a good few steps back and just aimed pulled and released and to no surprise i missed a lot! I hung in there however and i did hit the box 3 times which went straight through the box so you know obviously some power there to em. I like it,pretty fun to be honest.

According to my facebook i have watched to this point a total of 862 films! THAT IS INSANE! I only watch loads of films at work though because it passes the time of 15 hour shifts that i do and you cant expect me to sit there do nothing i gotta keep entertained. ****UPDATE ITS OVER 1000 NOW!****

Some of my friends have finally been reading my blogs haha i am amazed but you know thanks. All that i say or type here is just thoughts from my mind and mostly ranting and just venting out the anger that i may have. My anger is gone i have none today really i did take a lot out on a punching bag today in the gym. Some people have done some mucking about with me today but i ended up just saying screw them and i went out for a few drinks and catch up with friends ah it was a nice night. I need more nice nights out instead of slaving over my xbox 360,ps3 and laptop tbh. Also some of my friends have recognized who i have talked about at bits aswell but its no secret as they were there at the house parties i mentioned haha If you do find you or someone you know in a blog of mine well don't take it personally but if you are offended well i dunno....people get pissed at each other all the time really its naturally you know and especially for friends i find sometimes friends being pissed at eachother can fuel a negative fire that burns your friendship to ashes and sometimes it just kinda makes things healthy as you can just talk about the problems you have and just sometimes slag each other off be it as a joke or not and you know things can be ok and fine. We all have friends who annoy us in one way or another or who makes us yell at them to shut up haha. Yes i can get annoying and shit i have no problem of you telling me and then me shutting myself up ok no problem. I cant help it. I also cant help the fact i get tongue tied sometimes or quite a bit i think thats sort of a confidence thing or some sorta shit like i have been doing it a lot more since i have had my job because well i dont see many people or talk to many i am normally on my own sat in a cabin for 12/15 hours and its boring yes i have to phone in hourly and stuff and plus its also due to technology taking over and everyone is used to talking in their minds and on blank white spaces so yeah and i guess spelling errors could be the text version of being tongue tied haha. Anyhoo yes if you see something that sounds like i am talking ill of you i mean it as well you did or said something that annoyed me so i had to rant about it and get it out of my system somewhere BUT if you want to make yourself an enemy of mine then please do as i have heard that you are not living unless your making enemies along the way so c'mon! make me live! XD

So my friend Lewis asked me a very good question today regarding my youtube and it was. "Scott why do you care so much about yt copyright?" and yeah i am questioning it myself now and my answer is probably because yes i want to be partnered but also i do not want any trouble you know say if a video i posted got copyrighted and some artist say if the copyright was from a song just seen it and decided to sue me well i would be over my head in shit creek and i do not want that at all so that would be my answer.

I hate depression. I am not depressed right now infact i am feeling good but its just depression is such a pain to go through you know. I been through it before i suffered it for a few months in 2012 as i said in a previous blog post yes i may not have shown it but my head was a minefield it was just you know messed up man and i wont go more into it now as i basically covered it in my earlier blog post i did a while back so yeah go see there for a longer in depth look and my experience.

This is a very tame blog post for me as i am normally ranty but as i said typing this at the moment i have been feeling good just because i had a nice day and yeah haha its odd for me to feel good or to smile but yeah thats what you get sometimes when the clouds over your head decide to take a break haha.

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So here is an all new feature where i will talk about what albums i am looking forward to and name some of my faves and most listened to at the moment.

My most Listened to albums at the moment:
Plasterscene: Head full of toys (E.P.) - Although this is not an album it is just a few songs a local band have and i got to say it is really great and addictive to listen to. I know the vocalist he is a good friend of mine and i just love the lyrics,the groovy bass and chilling guitar and pounding drums man! So great! One of the best local bands for me going at the moment. Is my opinion bias because i know one member? I dont think so but you be the judge and give them a listen :)

Slipknot: The Grey Chapter - I do not think i could get tired of this album after 6 years of waiting for a new album boy did it pay off! EVERYTHING IS PERFECT! I UTTERLY LOVE IT! The new members are great and as ever the classic things you expect from slipknot are all over the album with nods and tributes to their former bassist Paul Grey. I seen slipknot live for my first time this year on the uk tour and it was amazing. I was rocking so much and for so long and screaming my heart out or rather singing to everything they played but when they ended i felt it was so short it was just over so quick yes i know they played 17 songs which is a lot but i wanted a lot more haha but i loved it and i will happily go see them again!

Disturbed Asylum & Indestructible -  Yes i am a metal head haha Since Disturbed have come out of hiatus and put together a new album that's out very soon i have been on a mission to relisten to every single album til the release of immortalized and these two albums in particular are my favorites of the band.  I love all of disturbeds albums and songs and i love them all together you know? Its just soo good the stuff they produce.

Trivium - In waves & Vengence falls - Much like disturbed since Trivium have a new album out later this year i have been listening to their old albums a lot again. I love Trivium and i think their weakest albums are shogun and vengence falls but all their albums have good songs on and i love trivium despite not liking every album or song. Matt Heafy follows me on twitter aswell so you know i have much love for Trivium Scrote!

That is about it as far as albums i have been listening to a lot lately.

ALBUMS I AM LOOKING FORWARD FOR:

FFDP - Got your six
Trivium - Silence in the snow
Disturbed - Immortalized

I have also been listening to and watching a lot of Johnny Cash lately since i seen the walk the line film i liked him prior to seeing the film but i guess i appreciate him a lot more now you know. Great artist!

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Results day - People have had their results and passes into uni today. Congrats and all that to em. I didn't have results I wanted but then again I also never had any dreams of going to uni etc. Well I did have a dream before I was in uni and had blue hair but that's about it hahaha I've learned a lot more since leaving school and im sure if I could resit my exams now that I would not get an A so you know haha i revised like mad but ofcourse when you have 3/4 exams in one day aswell as the environment your put in for exams its kinda pressuring and well makes you kinda panic and just not focus on all you've revised and so your memory just goes to mush. Anyway you cant let a piece of paper dictate how your life will go. You do that! You can expand and level up skills you have aswell as develop new ones schools miss bits that we should be taught. I've never used algebra since I finished school yet I've had to pay tax,insurance and vote? Which ones the least important subject there? Since I beat the school levels that very much felt like a prison,I have expanded and gained new skills aswell as done some awesome things and met some amazing people and gained new friends and yes for 2 years I was in no mans land just skint,jobless and unable to go out to do some wicked stuff with friends or buy things I wanted but then eventually I did gain a job which is shit but I've gained money a lot of it and you know had 2 cars and been to lots of shows and met people I never thought I'd even meet but I did it all. I am here still at my shit job and of course I want to do something that makes me happy and keeps me on my feet using all my skills and with a good fun environment and of course I will end up with what I want one day since I believe that's fate but before that people need to concentrate on the present and remember what they've done and learned and where they've come from because thinga could be way worse than they are. Keep your heads up. Its ok to feel defeated and sad now and then its the learning process of falling down we learn to get back up and we learn to climb that mountain and ride that bull long and hard until we are satisfied and mosey on. So whether you had good results or the bad just well done for coming this far and just aim high do things one bit at a time and you will reach your goals in no time. Be happy dont worry you did your best dust this off and stand back up. Thing's are brightening on the horizon.

Girl problems - 2 weeks ago i met this real nice girl on a dating site. (Yes i am on a dating site how sad yeah well what ever kid) Well we hit it off like a house on fire tbh have a lot in common and shit and you know she wanted to meet up then i said soon as i am free does she want to go out for a meal and she said "if she has money" i said yeah thats cool i just need a day off and let you know soon as and well yeah she was phoning me 1:30am when i was in work and we'd have a chat and man shes a minecraft freak haha No seriously i felt feelings for her and i got too attached because she said she was gonna go out last monday and so you know monday came and she was saying on her fb she was feeling sad so i sent her a message and it got seen but never got a replied so i was like "hmmm ok thats weird did i do something wrong?" and nope still not heard anything from her besides still having her on my facebook and yes she is active but Tuesday i found out from my friend Jared she was out with him and few of his friends last night as she was on a date with one of them so yeah that destroyed me. Its still a pain that it affected me so much. I was worrying before that of you know what if i meet up with her and she does'nt like me and stuff and ah yes my head was doing the rounds and just shit hit the fan i had no days off that week and so that frustrated me even more i was just losing my head you know. This girl seemed to like me and keen to me and we were talking like mad yet she went out on a date and shit. Fuck! I mean god damn it women if you do not like someone tell them before they get attached or maybe thats most womens fucked up plans huh? Get someone to like them then to fuck them over and go with someone else out of the blue!? Fuck man like seriously girls be like "all men are the same sexist pigs oh i hate em" WELL WE FUCKING HATE YOU FOR RIPPING OUT OUR HEARTS AND SQUISHING OUR BRAINS! We feel pain too you know its not a one way street pain gets everyone and it does'nt care about race or creed!

1 week til my tatoo and i am nervous but excited haha but also i am not really concentrated on it and well tbh i am not concentrated on anything i dunno whats happened to my head but its been like this since well just before July and its really bugging me i should be pumped for some stuff later this year but i am just like "meh" idek its needs a kick and a wake up ffs or what if its sorta like depression but it does'nt feel like it you know just feels like lights are on but no one is home and i am on autopilot and shit ah fuck knows man. Brains are fucking amazing but fuck me i aint got a clue about what evers going on.

I'd just like to add that i was really good at pool but as of late i am utterly shit!

I am tired and pretty drunk. Peace out as i am outta here.

Hello? Hello Mcfly!? Make like a tree and get out of here!