A Discouraged Self Note

Applying for a new role means you have tried, its a good thing to show interest.

You have nothing to lose but everything to gain. It's alright. 

It's okay to feel disheartened or disappointed or to have a cry, even if you didn't want to cry in regards to not getting a new role. You tried with a valiant effort.

Another opportunity will come don't sweat it. 

Be proud of your attempt and trust in yourself and your abilities because you are so amazing, so loved and adored and praised by not just your lover but by family and friends too.

Keep busting your ass kid and all good things will follow suit.

Love yourself more and be kinder and patient don't hate or discourage or disappoint yourself and you'll be fine. Take time relax and breathe and think positive. 

Think of your love because she inspires you to be greater, be the man she sees you as. Believe in her who believes in you! 

Remember who you are and what you are capable of. Be strong, believe in the good, believe in you!

This is a note for me, by me. 

Best DBZ Blasts

Random Ramblin's 39 - The Great Rant

IT'S SUMMER TIME! 

MUSIC
CHECK OUT SABATON - THE GREAT WAR. This album is a modern masterpiece an instant classic. One of the best albums i have ever heard and that i have in my collection. 10/10

Taylors new album lover is coming August 23, 2019 so me and Mrs cant wait to hear it. So far Me is my fave it just clicked instantly. You need to calm down was too pop political for me to get into. Archer is dark and I dont quite know what to make of it after one listen. We see what the rest is like when its out.

FILMS
Lion King Remake is a cash grab that's mediocre and fails to capture the magic or essence of the original. No emotion in animals, does not flow as smoothly as original i felt. The realism is nice but there's more that should have been done for it. 3/10

Yesterday has a lot of questions or sets them out but does not in anyway answer them and its got too much Ed Sheeran for my liking 5/10

Rocketman was decent and entertaining and the music sequences and transitions was great 7/10

Spiderman Far From Home was crap its just another iron man movie not a spiderman, fuck up Marvel 3/10

Toy Story 4 is the weakest toy story film but still made me cry like a baby 7/10

Batman Hush is a great new addition to the DCAU and it was great to see Hush brought to the big screen even if it is animated. and we get a great twist and finale in this. 8/10

Games
Not played much i got 2 new games but not played them aswell as others from a while ago i bought but there we go in it. I play Fortnite a lot is all. 

RANT
I'm getting tired of people buying cats or dogs then making a social media account up. I get it you want attention or you want people to know and follow the thing you love most but jesus christ when does it even evolve from being your own pet to being loads others own pet instead. It feels like they are not their pets but sharing it with all their followers and im not for that. A pet isnt for boosting you on social media and a pet shouldn't be forced that and also if you are getting a pet take care of it yourself and not show it off and hope people will take care of it or whatever reason people do this shit for. Get a pet for yourself not to promote and pass off to others to make yourself matter.

Also dear petty people of the world. Dont be that person to make others feel down or bad and dont break your relationship status over anything small or trivial only to the next week or day go back to happy families. Either stick to your guns and dont bitch and moan or just stick together. If its true love you wouldn't separate go off in a huff create drama because you want attention and then go back to your partner and act like nothing happened. You do more harm than good and one day the other person will realise the terrible harm you are causing and will walk out of your life and not return so be careful.

Family life: I hate being the last to know of things and I hate coming home to get it in the neck for no reason other than the people mad at me are just angry at their own problems. I'm always nice, polite, well mannered and honest and yet you know I'll come home from a 8 hour shift to "did you break the printer?", "chew quieter why are you so loud" to an empty house without my dog and for me to worry and panic looking for him when family haven't said they were off away on holiday with him. Courtesy please give me some as I need to know this information but apparently seems to not be of importance to let me know of anything. Some family members I dont see anymore or much of and I try to contact them but get nothing of when I can come see them, there's no communication on their part and that upsets me. Family is family we are supposed to all support and love eachother but just seems like voids are just the normal as we all age and have our own homes and families of our own and that sucks and its sad. So yeah apologies to rant so much but I need to get all this out and once I start I dont want to stop because I cant stop.

******************This might come across as controversial so beware! I in no way, am saying anything negative with mental health or those who suffer it, I am merely asking a question. I don't wish to offend anyone with this and please if you are suffering or battling with your mental health do seek help and talk to friends and family you trust and write your problems out and focus on taking care of yourself. 😊👍********************

Do you think people take too much advantage with the state of mental health these days?

Example; Are some generally doing it and feeling, experiencing it or are some crying Wolf and abusing the mental health system to benefit sick pay and days off? Curious to know thoughts on this because its an interesting topic.

I've heard a lot of stories of some people glorifying the whole "i'm anxious/depressed I need a week off, paid sick leave" I'm not in anyway saying that people are not dealing with any actual mental battles are faking it in anyway, I'm only saying there's some out there that will say things and take advantage of people and you'll end up seeing them going abroad, smiling, getting a tan or out partying drunk constantly.

Everyone has a natural anxiety level within them. Everyone can/will get depressed at some point in their lives of course and I'm not saying different or that some can get an extreme case of these and still go on and do amazing things while battling it. Just saying or asking; How many of these cases are actual real cases and how many are not? I'm interested in finding out.

Also how unfair is it to have these troubles and wait and wait and panic or feel afraid to seek medical help and for the doctors to not listen to you and to tell you to "go home get plenty fluids down you" or "nah you're all fine".

Thing is the system and this topic is tricky and it's not always straight forward. We all need more and better care and awareness. Start teaching it in schools. There's loads to be taught in schools I know and I'll probably do another post on this at some point.

Also; It's strange how when you're down and lonely some people will not care but when you are happy that some people will start to hate and thrive off trying to put you down and not support you or like seeing you happy.

To those kinds of people I say good day, because no one has time for that and no one has any room in their life to be that sad and jealous of others happiness.

I have no room anymore in my life for put downs or negative, snide, snark remarks I just block and remove or unfollow on social media because I am done with all that shit.

Simply put if you aren't happy for someone else being happy, don't be a dick and try to ruin their days or their lives by saying negative comments or by direct/private messaging them shit. And don't be that guy to say in person "I'm fed up of your lovey dovey crap" well kindly fuck off out of life because you are not needed in it and it wont be tolerated at all.

People wont support you at your lowest but will at your highest. I find that bullshit too. You could be all like "woe is me" and some decent people will be like "oh its gonna be OK" or there will be those that will laugh at you and say "grow up!" and scroll on. People need to start being decent beings instead of shitty ones. The fakery I've always said needs to stop too, I cant tolerate it, I'll remove and unfollow that crap. You can be there for others but its also funny how the same people won't be for you. Life is strange.

Forget politics forget work. Look after yourself, always be kinder. You are never a burden to talk to others about your problems. If you think you are and that they won't get you or understand well you are wrong. They will. Self love is not taught because no one has mastered it yet. Be kind and gentle and don't put the weight of the world on your shoulders. Everyone needs to be kinder to themselves. 

Feeling uncomfortable in your skin? Maybe it's not yours maybe it's someone else's and your an alien who took that skin and decided to wear it to start a secret invasion. Maybe or maybe not 😉.

Tossing the coin to you guys here seeing and reading this. What do you think of all this? What's your experiences and what do you think needs to be done?

Let me know, thanks for reading 😊👍 Stay Shiny!

With Eyes Like Poison (original song lyrics)

The way you look at me, Sends shivers down my spine, 

I'm tingling and it's not a good sign,

I show no fear, i tremble before your feet, 

I want you all to myself but you want more and it's not me, 

With Eyes Like Poison, 

You send men to their knees, (to their knees),

They beg for mercy but you don't know what it means, (what it means),

You're killing them with force fed lies,

When ever will i realise,

You're poison (YOU'RE POISON), you taint everything you touch,

You make the air that we breath rich in toxicity, (toxicity),

You're killing me, killing me,

With Eyes Like Poison,

You could blink a man dead, 

The way you touch me, makes me forget the past,

But you're eyes say differently, You don't want me,

You want the feeling that i emit, You won't get it playing with knives,

Honey, you're bad medicine but no one can get enough of,

You want to forget you're mistakes and but you poison everyone's lives,

With Eyes Like Poison,

You bring everyone down, (down, down),

We beg for air, (we beg for air), we are suffocating,

We plead for forgiveness for ever doing wrong,

But it's you who should apologise, (apologise), 

For ruining lives, when will i ever realise, (realise),

That you're killing me, (killing me) killing everyone around me,

With Eyes Like Poison,

(solo)

With Eyes Like Poison,

You bring everybody down, (to their knees, to their knees),

We beg for mercy but you don't know what it means,

You corrupt and feed us lies, tell us that we're no good,(no good, no good)

Stop hurting me, stop hurting me, (you're killing me)

Your poison, (your poison),

I can't take it anymore, i was a fool to think that you were pure, (not pure, not pure),

With Eyes Like Poison

How can you justify, putting on a charade and fooling everyone,

You're not fooling me, you're hurting me (hurting me),

Hurting everyone you ever loved, using us for your own gain, then pushing us away, 

Don't you realise, this is not you, this is not me,

With Eyes Like Poison,

You drive us all insane, with your flirtatious ways,

Drawing us all in before you bite, (don't bite),

You poison the blood coursing through our veins, 

By looking you bring us to our knees, (to our knees),

I was wrong to ever, get to know you,

Stop killing me, killing me,

Haven't you realised, don't you ever realise, (realise),

You're poison, you're the plague to our kind,

Only fools rush in and die, (they all die),

With Eyes Like Poison, (Poison, Poison), 

You're the end of us all, you're killing all souls,

With Eyes Like Poison!, You'll blink a man dead!

Written by Scott Jones 2:20am 23/7/19

I wrote this over something i said in my head when watching Batman and Robin regarding Poison Ivy; "With Eyes Like Poison, she could blink a man to death" and so i got the ball rolling because i liked that With Eyes Like Poison bit and out came this. Written in the space of a half hour. 

Top 10 Jonas Bros Songs

Here's another list quite different from the rest. The Jonas Brothers are a band of brothers literally the three are brothers, madness i know haha. 

Growing up into my teens they were not a band i was exposed to or listened to. When the Jonas bros first came round they were introduced to me in the reality disney era where the disney channel was plastered with realistic shows so instead of the animated we'd get real people real places not full on reality tv like you know. Still I heard of them one or two songs on ads would play and they were mocked and killed in Disney and other forms of media for their religious beliefs you know. 

I paid no honest attention to them honestly i didn't to me they were background noise because my frontal noise at that time was the discovery of metal but nonetheless here we are 2019, Jonas Bro's are back and im off to see them next year with my Mrs and i am getting into them these days because of her, so thanks baby for that. 

Without further ado let's get to ranking my fave 10 songs of theirs so come fly with me and swing on some vines it's time for world war 3. 

10: Don't Charge Me For The Crime

When I first heard this song, I thought it was kinda weird. It's very different from any of their other songs and I wasn't sure that I liked it. After I listened to it a couple times and heard the lyrics more, I was able to make more sense of the song and I actually liked it a lot then. I think it made the song better by bringing Common in to sing/talk during the song. The song is about two of your friends kind of being in a conflict together and you're in the middle of it because they're bringing you into it but you don't want to be involved.

9: I Believe 

This is Nick's little love song about his wife and how she makes him feel. It's a sweet song.

8: Lovebug

Corny and cliche, but still cute. That's the Jonas Brothers for you no offence but i do like it and the chorus is catchy and the guitar is very chill haha.

7: Fly With Me

It's about just living in the moment and being with each other at that time. Even if they knew they couldn't be together forever, they would cherish the time they have right now with each other. Peter and Wendy, even though they were miles and miles apart, managed to stay close for a long time. So I think that line is, if two people who live in different worlds can stay together (as friends or a couple) why can't they? 'Peter Pan and Wendy turned out fine, so won't you fly with me?'  Just a theory about this sweet song.

6: BB Good

The songs just about how "he" was hurt before in a relationship, and now he wants to start dating again, but doesn't want to get hurt. so he's asking the girl to be good to him.

5: Sucker

The rollicking pop-rock jam is about an infatuation. The lovesick brothers are so obsessed with the girl it makes them do crazy stuff like dancing on top of cars. Still, they are proud to be suckers for their love. First song I heard by them honestly. I liked it for its catchy-ness.

4: Rollercoaster

Kevin Jonas explained to Apple Music that they needed a song to help tell their story on Chasing Happiness, and Ryan Tedder presented them with "Rollercoaster." He added that they "adjusted a little bit to make it our own, and it perfectly embodies all the themes that are relevant in the documentary: having had that fun when we were young, then choosing to do it again in a healthy way, and in the end saying, 'I would gladly get on that rollercoaster with you again and do it all over again.'" It's a nice, lovely soft song which captures and tell's of the Bros experiences on their career life.

3: World War 3

 A possible break up song for the Bros yet the other party seems to be losing their cool and always starting a war or trying to and they don't want to because there won't be a "world war 3". It's a nice little rock n roll song.

2: Only Human

It's only human to grove to this reggae beat with the one you love and dance sexily in the comfort of your home. I grove to this and get the xylophone beat stuck in my head at times.

1: Much Better 

I find this song very chill like it's soothing and relaxing even if it is about a break up with one of the boys and Taylor Swift but it's ultimately about finding someone much better than the last in their relationship life. The sax solo is sweet too and so is the solo to be honest. The chorus is so damn catchy and cutesy. I like how this song moves. 

Thanks for visiting my blog and reading my lists as ever. 

Much love and thanks for that! 

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Stay Shiny!