Your Mentality Matters (poem/lyrics original)

I don't know what to do, about these thought's that fester,

They're parasites, germs that need to be flushed out,

Prescribe me anti-biotics to kill the disease, 

Never letting it appear again, I breathe in and out, 

It lingers and when i exhale it goes away and dies, 

I need something stronger and better to make them die and never come back,

Down with the negativity, 

Down with the over thinking, 

Down with obsessing, 

Come on and stop your stressing,

This is the digital age, It's easy to be consumed with the waves of information,

Surf the web, don't linger in it, 

Surf your thoughts, don't dwell there, 

End the stigma, your mentality matters,

I don't know who to talk to or what to say,

I'm not mute and i don't refuse to talk,

I'm structuring my thoughts, my words

Before they all come out, Before i speak

Before i even act that of no thought, 

I'd rather not be irrational and hurt,

Down with secrecy, 

Down with snooping,

Down with addiction,

It can all stop with a perfect prescription,

This is the digital age, It's easy to be consumed with the waves of information,

Surf the web, don't linger in it, 

Surf your thoughts, don't dwell there, 

End the stigma, your mentality matters,

What's with the hate, 

Why the name calling?,

How do you think i handle the funny, snide remarks,

I don't shrug it off as well as you might think,

It all remains in my head and it makes me dread,

All the misery, the anxiety, 

Saying i bite my nails, seems like a formality,

Biting down to the bone, making my blood flow,

Down with the haters,

Down with the bullying,

Down with unfairness,

They be only hating on us because they can't be us,

This is the digital age, It's easy to be consumed with the waves of information,

Surf the web, don't linger in it, 

Surf your thoughts, don't dwell there, 

End the stigma, your mentality matters,

If you're ever in need of help or assistance, Talk it out, 

If your ever down and need a hand, Talk it out,

If you feel as if you don't exist or matter, Talk it out, 

Don't bottle it up, that bottle will only break later,

The outcome of that broken bottle will be disastrous,

You matter, your worth it, Your Mentality Matters!

The Trigger Finger (original poem/lyrics)

I put my thumb out, i stick my index and my middle fingers together, 

I make a gun, i point it to the side of my head, I've had enough,

I can't take it anymore, these thoughts, these nightmares, 

I put my thumb down and allow my body and my face to drop,

It's quiet, it worked? IT WORKED! It worked?!, 

This is not what i had envisioned,

I didn't want this, truly i didn't, 

What will become of my body,

What's going to happen to me,

What do i do now, This can't be real, 

Please give me another chance,

I can't face the light in the dark,

I have always wanted to be the light in the dark, 

I never wanted it to swallow me whole, 

Even through my darkest day's, my fire burns always,

That's the way it was supposed to be, 

That's how it's always been, no matter how bad things have been,

It's all gone out of my control, why did i do such a senseless act?, 

This is not what i had envisioned,

I didn't want this, truly i didn't, 

What will become of my body,

What's going to happen to me,

What do i do now, This can't be real, 

Please give me another chance,

I can't face the light in the dark,

If i could go back again, I'd change many a things, 

My lifestyle, my friends, my career, my body and mind,

I'd never change my soul or family, I have no regrets there, 

We all try and be good, caring, loving people,

As a family we fight, argue, bicker, yell, get inpatient, 

Have we ever disowned a soul?, Ha ha nope, 

Would we disown any of our souls?, Maybe one or two of the shady ones,

This is not what i had envisioned,

I didn't want this, truly didn't, 

What will become of my body,

What's going to happen to me,

What do i do now, This can't be real, 

Please give me another chance,

I can't face the light in the dark,

If the emptiness, coldness and loneliness awaits me,

I made a dumb choice and i am sincerely sorry, 

I did not expect to be visited by that in the afterlife, 

I had enough in the real life, is heaven just a fantasy,

I'm scared, i'm cold, hello?, HELLO!?, HELP! HELP ME!

PLEASE!, Please, Please..........

I am the law (original poem/lyrics)

I've walked the beat, I've said my piece,

Yet I've never had to use it, stopping the signs, talking to strangers and shaking hands, 

I am the law, oh oh I am the law,

I've pointed my fair share and yelled, to stop the assailants, I've chased on foot, 

I've locked them all up, I've driven after maniacs manically, 

I've secured the loot, I am the law, yeah yeah yeah I am the law.

I am the law, stopping criminals with ease, I am the law, 

I chase down the baddies and bring them to justice, I am the law, 

I've never used my piece, I come in peace, I am the law.

Imagine the scenes, tape everywhere, not your average Tuesday night, 

the assailant might still be in the area ready for a fight, 

I'm always ready to parry any strike, 

I am the law, oh yes indeed I am the law,

Out of the corner of my eye. A struggle my partner is taken, held hostage against us all, 

this is all new to me, stop we can help, lower the weapon and let my partner go, 

do this and you'll be free too.

I am the law, the sweat is dripping from my brow, this isn't going to end with ease, 

sir can you listen to our pleads, please, I am the law, let me help you. 

Let's help each other, I am the law no one has to get hurt,

A trigger clicks, assailant is stressed, scared, backed into a corner, 

this is it, now or never, my hand slowly goes for my piece as I keep the killer talking, 

listen to his demands, make him seem as if I can arrange all he wants, partner is gawping at me,

I am the law, I yell and aim my gun, I am the law, no more chances you've had your fill, 

I am the law I breathe in and pull, I am the law, the bullet flies through mid air. 

I am the law, my God I've killed him, I am the law,

I was sentenced to jail, I am the law, this is a disillusion of grandeur, 

I am the law..........

Swooning For You (original poem/lyrics)

When you ever, say my name, I melt, 

Just the thought of my name on the tip of your tongue, 

Just exiting your sweet lips, It's loving, 

Makes me crave for so much more, 

You make me laugh, with that pretty face of yours, 

This heart beats faster than a cheetah running,

I'm blessed to see an angel every day,

I crave to know more about you, you fascinate me,

When i wake up in the morning, i wonder, 

Are you thinking of me, I think of you,

The birds and all the love songs in the world, 

They all sing your name and it makes me smile,

When i go to bed late at night, I wonder, 

If you're thinking of me, as you close your beautiful eyes, 

When you lay your lushest hair to rest, do i cross your mind, 

You're always walking and skipping and dancing in mine,

I couldn't help falling in love with you, It was destiny, 

The universe pointed it's fingers towards you, for me, 

Come take my hand, I've got such wondrous things to show you,

It's perfectly safe, you can actually trust me, 

I see your worth and i value it, with so much respect, 

I never laid eyes on an angel, until the choirs sang, 

Til all the wind blew, til i saw you strutting towards me,

I use to think love was for fools, i thought it not be true,

But as you see, baby, i'm swooning for you, 

Don't leave me hanging, i'd really like to take you by your lovely hands, 

I'd love to guide you around town, have fun under the moonlight,

Enjoy dinner by starlight, show you how a real man acts, 

Show off your beauty to everyone my darling, you no longer need to feel enslaved and unappreciated,

You are a person, free to do as you please, be gentle with yourself,

Take it slow, be brave and stand up, i'm always here for you,

I'm only a call away from your side, Do understand, 

I need you, I love you. 

written 10/10/19

12pm

Baby Don't Forget My Love (original poem/lyrics)

Baby, hey there, you've been lost for the longest time, 

Wondering round aimlessly, clueless in the dark,

Unaware of the beautiful, loving, one standing infront of you,

Oh baby, i'm here now and it's all going to be alright, 

Those broken pieces are being glued together with care and ease, 

Relax those worries and stress, Throw your anger and caution to the wind,

I'm a good guy and i got you, I really do love you, 

My soul cries i need you, a kiss and a cuddle and the world is balanced, 

Thank you baby, it's sweet to be loved by you, my heart belongs to you, 

Keep good care and remember everything i say and tell you, 

It's all true, just remember how much i love you, 

I've been up and awaiting a darling as beautiful as you, 

To have this now is all i have ever imagined, 

I awake everyday just stunned, 

Imagine my luck on that day, where i nervously asked a question, 

Listen to the bells, hear that ringing, 

It's the jackpot and i hit it, It makes me feel like a billionaire,

Being called yours is the happiest thing i could have ever imagined, 

The journey we share, the laughs we have, 

The wide eyed smiles, our faces have never felt or seen such delight,

I got you goal keeper gloves for our special day, 

Honey you're such a keeper, thanks for always saving me, remember how much i love you,

You tell me everyday how gorgeous i am and it makes me blush, 

My heart flutters every time i see you, just as it did the first time i laid my eyes upon you,

Baby girl, you are so amazing and wonderful, with your eyes shining like jewels,

I want only ever you, forever and ever, to the ends of time, 

No one or nothing could ever come in-between this bond,

Such a strong connection we share that it's always having us become telepathic,

I just told you how much i love you in your mind and i hope you don't forget it,

We've found, what we once lost, in the embrace we share, 

Honey in the bumps along our journey, i hope you never forget just how much,

Just don't forget, just how much, just remember, just how much, 

I love you!

Written 5am

10/10/19

The Epiphany Of Idiocy (Original poem/song lyrics)

Push when you pull, fall when you rise,

It's the same thing as wearing a disguise, 

You can't hide from your folly's of man, 

Send in the clown, we are all stuck in a frown,

It's rich, it's pure, to laugh as others expense,

Smile through the pain, it's funny that way,

To be an idiot is to do without thought,

Act with no brain, Forget what you've been taught,

You'll offend and harm without consequence, 

You'll pull on push doors, you'll forget your belt, 

You'll hang loose with no cares in the world, 

An empty scarecrow, a tin man, a cowardly lion, 

It's what you share common ground with, 

To be an idiot is to act without thinking,

Offence slips out, the people are displeased, 

You won't care, lashing has rushed passed your ears, 

You wouldn't know what manners are, even if they hit you in your face,

What are you to fear, everything you touch ends in disaster,

You run around thoughtless, unleash your headless chicken, 

To be an idiot is to see if you can fit in a tight space,

You'll get stuck and stay there until you're wedged free,

Stop licking your elbow, stop standing in the middle trying to keep your balance,

Don't ask the obvious, don't be so messy, be considerate for others,

Of course how can you be expected to do this,

How could anyone expect any of this business,

Look at me i'm talking to an idiot, I had a realisation once,

What if i'm the idiot, am i the idiot, is the idiot me, 

What if i'm not an idiot, what if the idiocy is me?,

written 

10/10/19

4:30am

More Metal Than Bone (poem/lyrics)

I've got my finger on the trigger and i'm ready to blow,

You've got your mouth pressed up and ready on show,

My skin's so abrasive, You've just got to face it,

I'm more metal than bone,

My bones are falling out, can i find a way to stop it,

Buried alive a machine, Can you falsify the organic,

When its more metal than bone, can you still see me,

Don't you even know who i am anymore?, 

I can't see straight, It gives me such a migraine,

I'm more metal than bone, it leaves me so prone,

I've got my finger on the trigger and i'm ready to blow,

You've got your mouth open wide, ready to be filled,

With more metal than bone,

Teeth are corroding away, Let's fill them up, 

The docs say, it's going to be okay, that's what they always say,

That's life, you win some and you lose the others, 

No fairies, no tales, are gonna save you anymore, 

Face facts son, you're more metal than bone,

With my finger on the pulse, i'm ready to go,

Be careful with who you deal with, we could come to blows,

The fact remains the same, i'm a danger to society, 

And everybody knows,

I'm more metal than bone. 

What's it like to be me, you'd have to crawl up into a ball to see,

How much it feels to be me ever so painfully, 

To be injected with more metal than bone, It'll leave you so prone,

It would drive a sane man to lunacy, You'll see. 

I'm more metal than bone. 

written 10/10/19

4am

Joker Review - Ha-Ha-Hawesome!

So after all the praise and hype was it worth it and did it deserve it? YES! 
Does Joaquin Make a good Joker? YES! 

So Joker is a stand alone Dc film based on well looky here, it's about the Joker who is arguably the most famous villain of all time. 

Joker is about a man named, Arthur Fleck who has some problems and the film is entirely based on his perspective and I swear down there is not a single scene without him in. 

Arthur is trying to get by in life but society doesn't like him, people look down on him and mock him and beat him up when all he needs is care and support. He takes several medicinal products and has a journal to keep him on track but what happens when society gets too much and when medical business's shut down and when truths come out and friends and family aren't really there for Arthur? Well you guessed it, he put's on a happy face because Arthur is then effectively dead and here we have.....JOKER!

Joaquin gives an outstanding performance, his laughs are painful and unsettling for a lot of the time it's only when he laughs as Joker is where it's not unsettling. His laughs genuinely look like they are hurting him and he laughs at non funny things when everyone else laughs at the funny parts. 

Arthur's mood and the tone and lighting is dull, moody, depressing and it gets darker and darker until the Joker arrives. Anytime he is in clown gear is when the films lighting has colour but he and we don't fully embrace the beautiful stunning colours of the world until Arthur is gone and Joker is out into the world. 

The original score is very haunting and makes you feel uneasy by way of heavy slow bassy stringed instruments such as the violin and bass/cello. The supporting cast in the film were all so good. 

The story was great there was fan theories going around about this film and the film does confirm some of these theories BUT soon as it does, it squashes them instantly. The story and script is so good. 

The licensed soundtrack is so upbeat and lovely and iconic that it completely changes the world as the world completely changes the tone of the music. 

When Joker emerges I had a big smile on my face. This film does make you feel for Arthur and makes you root him on. I know he's a loony and a bad guy but he would have been okay if things in the world had gone better if he had support and continued good treatment. He had a bad day and it's all brought him to a breaking point which is so relatable and it's so jarring to realise that one bad day could drive a man to lunacy. 

Joker is a violent, dark, epic, realistic take on the iconic villain, one I hope we get more of in the future. Joaquin please do a sequel. 

This film is gonna win awards I'm telling you. All the hype and praise is so spot on and i cannot name anything bad or wrong with this film! 

I've seen it twice now in cinemas and i highly recommend watching it!

Fave quotes: "My life is nothing but a comedy."
"Comedy is subjective, Murray. Isn’t that what they say? All of you, the system that knows so much, you decide what’s right or wrong. The same way that you decide what’s funny or not."

"Everybody is awful these days. It’s enough to make anyone crazy." 
"Nobody’s civil anymore! Nobody thinks what it’s like to be the other guy."

"All i have are negative thoughts."
"Is it me or is it getting crazier out there?"

“I just hope my death makes more cents than my life.”
“The worst part of having a mental illness is people expect you to behave as if you don’t.”
"You get what you f**king deserve!"

Joker

10/10

It'll put a smile on your face!
hahahahaha!!!!!

Top 10 Shinedown Songs

Hola! Welcome to my blog and today i have a list dedicated to my 10 fave Shinedown songs so tuck in and come enjoy and devour this list if you dare! 

I'll give you a bit of everything and background to the songs :) 

10: Second Chance

Brent mentioned this was one of the toughest songs he's ever written because it's about him saying goodbye to his parents... having to move on with his own life and become a man, to live out his dreams. Powerful song.

9: Adrenaline

 This is about when all of your energy is gone and you need to find that little bit more to keep going. This can relate to playing sports or just going through a tough time in life.

8: State Of My Head

Shinedown vocalist Brent Smith: "'State Of My Head' was actually built around its rhythm, inspired by the bounce of the song and the way the track moves. Usually I write with a melody in mind, but this time, it was more about the flow. We really didn't have the other instrumentation down - I pretty much wrote it to a drum track." "We will always be 'rock and roll' to the bone, but this song is a prime example of how we refused to limit ourselves on this album."

7: Monsters

Vocalist Brett Smith says this deals with the battle of addiction (alcoholism & drug abuse) that he still struggles with even today. That's the sentiment in the song he says, when I sing that my monsters are real and they're trained to kill.

6: Cut The Cord

As said by Brent Smith: "...and in your truest moment of weakness...When everyone and everything has betrayed you and evil and hatred has wrapped itself around your mind, body and soul...This is the song that you play...This is the statement to the world that you will not give up, you will not give in, and you refuse to fail!!! Now is your time...to "CUT THE CORD". Also; "'Cut The Cord' is a wake up call reminding us all that we can control our own destiny by finding the courage and tenacity to destroy whatever it is that's holding us back. The process may not be pretty or perfect or even easy, but absolutely necessary. The song is brutally honest and unapologetic, which is what Shinedown has always been."

5: Devour 

Frontman Brent Smith tells The Pulse of Radio what the track is about: "This was a song that was totally representative of the men and women of the United States of America in the military and all the armed forces and what they do for us. But in all reality it's a hat's off to them and all they do for us. But it's also me looking into the eye of the person I'm supposed to look at as the leader of the free world and this is my opinion towards you for what you've done in those years."

4: Bully

The meaning is pretty clear cut,but it's still a very powerful song. The line that really gets me every time is, "It seems I've crossed the line again for being nothing more than who I am."

3: Diamond Eyes

 I think it's basically a metaphor for going out an taking a risk instead of holding back and regretting it. By "Diamond Eyes", I'm thinking that he's saying he's able to see more clearly (really good diamonds are known for being clear with no colour, etc).

2: Sound Of Madness

The entire song is a rant by lead vocalist Brent Smith about people complaining about their problems. Smith touches on in a not so subtle way how he is annoyed with people who have a victim mentality and blame life's issues on everyone else but themselves. Smith belts out with a melodic annoyance how he wishes people would stand up and fight for themselves instead of shrinking back down. He cries out that their problems may have something to do with the fact that they complain so much, which is evident in the line where he says their lives are a self-fulfilling prophecy. The chorus reflects that the source of the rant is because the vocalist has been through much drama and pain. In fact he says he wrote the book on it and he is still standing because he fought for where he is at. He sarcastically tells the listener to stop complaining and take your medicine. 

1: Enemies 

Great song. This song is about when there is that one person in your life that is always bringing you and the ones you love down. This is just pretty much saying to get out of my life.

So that's my list, what do you think? Got a list for me to do well give it to me :D 

For now Stay Shiny and thanks for visiting and checking this list out :)

Top 10 MCU Movies (2008 - 2019)

The dust has settled and i feel it's time to do this list. I am only doing films from 2008 - 2019 at the moment okay, i know the mcu is ever expanding every year and superhero fatigue is strong but disney gonna milk that sum bitch dry of all its money til the money stops rolling in. So let's open the multiverse up and rank these suckers. 

10: Ant Man

The movie that taught us never to underestimate any small superhero again, and made us want to buy some Ant-Man comic books. Entertaining and funny. The relationship between Scott and his daughter is also lovely and touching to watch.

9: Iron Man

The one that started the whole idea of a shared cinematic universe. Totally deserves the respect it gets. Robert Downey Jr. absolutely nails it as the arrogant, yet caring, Tony Stark. It's very entertaining and light hearted.

8: Avengers Age Of Ultron

Of course i wish Ultron could have been done and designed better but i still very much enjoyed this film.

7: Iron Man 2
The best iron man sequel, not that its saying much but i found this witty and very enjoyable from its character work to action scenes to soundtrack but the final act is messy.

6: Captain America: First Avenger
This is a really fun movie. Although not perfect, it's a film that anyone can just sit down and watch without having to google the previous 12 movies to decipher who all of the characters actually are and have a good time.

5:  Guardians Of The Galaxy Vol 2
Not as good as the original but still very entertaining and still makes this list as one of my faves, I love how much they flesh out these characters and the larger universe too. 

4: Thor Ragnarok

This movie is so entertaining and exciting and the effects are really good, best Thor movie in my opinion.

3: Guardians Of The Galaxy vol:1

A great story, cast, soundtrack just no doubt about it, this is one of the riskiest moves for marvel which paid off so darn well. It's one of the best!

2: Endgame

I loved Thanos as a villain between this and Infinity War, I loved his final death. He knew he lost, he just sat down and took it like a man, no crying or last words. Great movie, but I preferred Infinity War, this had too many plot conveniences and the hype did not fully deliver for me but as a whole the fan service in the film and the imagery and cast and music is so good and has many fave moments of all time in the mcu for me in this.

1: Infinity War

This was a PERFECT culmination of 10 whole years and was, undoubtedly, a masterpiece. Josh Brolin did a REMARKABLE job as Thanos in Guardians of the Galaxy and I'm glad we got to learn more about him in this movie. I loved the interaction between the characters and the actors' chemistry with each other, especially those who hadn't met beforehand! A villain so hard to hate is a great villain also. So yeah i feel this is the best we have had from MCU at this point.

So that's my top 10 MCU films, did they stack up to your liking? What is your 10? 

What did this list cost?..............Everything. 

Stay Shiny folks!