Random Ramblin's - Part 15 - New car smell/Thinking of the end?

Hola Helo Alri!? If you answered any of these with hello or yes back then your alright with me haha

So what is up? How are you? Doing good? Cool. Not doing good? Chin up buddy things will get better think of yourself as an arrow your just getting pulled back and waiting to be released to go into something better eh?

So so so wah! I dont even know what to say or type but yeah i will get something out of this noggin of mine.

New Car - Yes i finally got a new car its pretty nice and sadly i have not driven it yet all i have done is sit inside it haha its bigger and a year newer than my current car with the engine being 1 bit less than my old car but thats besides the point.

Quick Movie Review****************************************************************

Legend (2015) - Good film based on the Kray twins with Tom Hardy playing both brothers it has some inaccuracies and is more comical and entertaining than the 90s drama on the krays but it primarily follows Francis and the hardys oops i mean krays and nothing more really but new to the krays or not you will enjoy the film. 7/10

The Krays (90s) - Kemp twins become the Krays primarily following the mother violet aswell as the krays this has more accurate of the story and if you compare it to the 2015 legend remake you will see so many differences its hard to believe you are watching the same film more or less anyway. 6/10

Why is legend better than the krays if it has inaccuracies? Because i found Legend more entertaining and i watched it first and it was my first experience of the twins overall.

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I almost came close to unfriending a person on facebook for posting she was enjoying herself in uni reading the bible while listening to classic fm. I know what blasphemy XD

I am thinking of quitting youtube......yes its true after 6 years doing it i may leave the site....or just stop making videos. Here is what i wrote on my facebook page but i took it down recently because i thought i should consider it more but anyway here i am just thinking out loud about it all:

 Ok so my mind is pretty set on a few videos that i majorly want to do and then i may consider finishing youtube. I am just feeling like i am being beaten by youtube a lot of the time you know back in the day youtube was "oh you using a copyright piece of song or vid? That's cool bro like emoticon" now its like "oi we do not approve your usage of this no matter how warped reversed and grainy you have made it" its not fair. I am totally split at the moment i guess i do not want to close my account down when i have done those few videos because memories and just there's videos i made that still make me laugh today and you know for family and friends to see them and them be reacting in whatever way they want to react is nice too. I do not really care if i get 3 views or 10 views i do youtube because i enjoy it,its fun to do and to just make videos have a laugh with friends or talk and rant or game or some stupid shit is a whole lotta fun that i still love to do. I shall admit that i have had plans to make a new separate channel with James too and which that will contain anything with us in and be linked to our cosplay page on facebook and stuff too you know. At the moment i got a lot on my mind with the less time i got to film and make videos i just find it hard to create something or to get time to film anything even when i have a day off. It does not help when i do make a video that it gets blocked or something when loads have the same things posted that their content is not blocked or anything but mine is? It makes no sense to me. I do not find it healthy either to be jealous of other youtubers that are smaller than me who have not long started are getting everything but i aint and that thinking is wrong i should be so supportive but i aint its not fair to me or them. It is also not good with the way my head is at the moment i have had some bad news recently relating to a family member and thats just brought my mood way down. I wont get into too much more but i got a plan of about well a page full of video ideas i want to do and like i said 3 are big main ones and others are fillers and yeah i guess i am gonna concentrate on getting more time off and to myself to get things back in order but at the moment this is how things are. My friends are mostly moving off in their separate ways which sucks but its life and i can not sadly make videos with them as much anymore. I know and have been told many times "oh get a capcard/gaming pc/screen cap software and better camera" yes yes yes i have had a capcard it was not compatible with my tv so. I do not want a gaming pc. I have had screen cap software on my laptop but it was rubbish. I have a good enough camcorder honestly it goes to 1080hp its hd and everything. I am also not a gaming channel i am more of a jack of all trades channel i have done basically every single youtube video genre well except the vehicle genre. I have written this days before you see it now but it may get deleted or may not depends how i am and if i change my mind. Have a good day.

On that note i shall be seeing you in the next bloog me droog.

Random Ramblin's - Part 14 - Migrant/Refugee crisis UK! MY OPINIONS!

Helo how are ya doing ya sexy thing i believe in miracles and well here is a new special topic to cover and its something deemed controversial so i am going to try and be short and sweet about it as i can and i do not have a lot to say about it but anyway here we go!

My two pence on the refugee crisis. - Ok so first of all this may be a controversial topic to talk or blog about but after seeing and hearing everyone else give their 2 cents on the topic i have finally decided to weigh in at 285 pounds! No no no that is not my weight either i dont know pounds and stone differences. Anyway i am now weighing into the topic.
So i am going to break this topic into parts ok. First of all.

Should we in the uk take in refugee's? - Yes and No. Yes because they are people after all. No because the uk already has a lot of bad shit going for itself we got homeless out of work british people who served and did not serve in the armed forces and our government seems to be bringing in more refugee's than we can handle but most importantly the government,
gives these migrants/refugee's everything! We should help our own first to be honest. I am not trying to be nasty or what ever ok i am just speaking the truth and we aint as good as the countries they are fleeing from and why britian and why not the country next door or something? We give benifits to them thats why. It is unfair to know we have people of our own country suffering yet we will be allowing/bringing in more foreigners than ever and giving them everything.
Yes if i was a refugee/migrant i would be fleeing a war torn country too ok and i am very sorry of how many people lose their lives trying to get here but please for the sake of yourselves take a safer route do not jump on board a makeshift raft with all your family to get here because it is so tragic and heartbreaking when people end up losing their lives.

What if former isis/terrorists are with the refugee's? Would you allow them in then? - Honestly i would give everyone a screening before allowing them in! Anyone with suspicious backgrounds i am sorry but you came a long way for nothing.

Would i be doing what they are doing? - Of course i would as i said.

Would i give these refugee's money and a home? - Yes i would as long as they were good people and to be frank i would bring in families first more than singletons who want to come in but i would want people in our country who are already with nothing to get something too!

What if the peole we take in prove to be evil?  Would you still take them in to uk? - Yeah of course with all new people we meet we just dont know them until we meet them and get to know them and you know meeting new people and anything in life is risky.

So that is all i basically have. I am nuetral on this topic as you can see and i mean no offence or anything i do simply wish we would take care of our own first before others but there we go.

If you got anything to add or what ever do comment,message,tweet me etc,love to know what you think of my opinion and what you think. Ok Cheers gang see ya later!

Random Ramblin's - Part 13 - What's wrong with me? NEW ALBUM RATINGS

Hello lets ditch the alri shall I? Alri? Lol

Right oh so its been 2 weeks since I had my tat and people before it were like "nah he wont go through with it" yet I proves them wrong now these same people go "oh its stupid I dont get it why did you have that for?!" Its so god damn annoying. It's like going to McDonalds and being questioned for ordering what you'd like to eat and its so god damn annoying. I told everyone why I had it and what it stands for yet they don't stop ribbing me about it. Just stop I dont ask why you got that shitty tribal sleeve do I?!

New album ratings*****
Disturbed - Immortalized (deluxe) - 7/10
Ffdp - Got your six (deluxe) - 6/10
Two good albums by two of my fave bands I feel theres bits missing and there's some songs that dont stick and stand out unlike others but I like these new albums despite amazon not fulfilling their pre-order get it on same day dealio. Ah well. Check these two albums out!

Things are gonna be getting more serious now so yeah sorry. I like to be a comic as much as i can but sometimes even clowns cry.

So we are near the end of 2015 and to tell the truth this aint been a good year for me but it has had its good moments.  The worse bits or rather contributors to assisting how bad my year has been has been my employer. They have fucked me about and fucked me off soo much this year. I may make a one off blog post about it all but anyway I gotta move onto a downer. Past few months I have not been feeling like myself at all and I may have noted it before in a blog but i've got a book aswell I been writing in about it all a lot more and well the things that have been affecting me and that ive been experiencing I have been doing research on and well all signs point me to depression. I have been declining and questioning if its tiredness or depression but depression is the more clear answer. I'll summarise what ive been feeling now and stuff if you would like to provide help. Bad memory - cant remember driving to and from places,cant remember doing a check call when I have noted it and like unfocused. Eating more aka comfort eating. Not getting much sleep and taking longer to sleep.  Worrying over how much sleep I will get,the future and death. I'm unsure if I should call this next bit parranoia but like not wanting a call from work and just looking everywhere in work see if anyones there trying break into site and if my work shows up for a visit. Loss of confidence talking on phones.Not knowing how to make decisions so basically I want to quit my job but I dont want to aswell. Unwillingness to get out of bed when I wake up for work. Wishing I was sick to constantly get days off. Feeling of not being used and of my skills diminishing due to lack of opportunities to fully utilize them.contant tiredness yet not being able to sleep like I take too long to drift off and did I already say this I cant remember.  Feeling stuck restricted cut off from social time. God there's so much I bet I forgot a few. Things at the moment aint going too well. I dont think I should be driving or working like this in this mindset but I also dont want to stay with my employer.  To my friends and family yes I know ive been ok happy normaish and funny but know that behind that false mask I wear the inside has been covered in rain which needs to dry. I want to finish work but I guess im nervous of writting a resignation letter and of the fact I wont quit to go to a different job straight away. I know I'll get a job or do something productive but it'll take time and in that time I can build and expand skills. If I left work I wont be able to claim jsa for 6 months aswell. I dont want to go on dole again because thats as shit as my employer. I'm doing so much thinking its driving me mental.   I'm working on a site ive done before yet not done I  ages for the next few days. I dont want to work it. I know I know wtf you done It before few times whata different?  Its a site thats more busy and has more security its also up a mountain and I dont like driving up and down there. The road up that mountain is known for its accidents and deaths and temp traffic lights it a bad road. Fuck Im falling asleep here in work. Past 4 days i have felt much better as i have been working with others so you know thats great right? I still do forget some stuff and not be so alert driving but you know i have made improvements while work has continued to piss me off but i shall commentate on work in a blog post down the line.

Uhh i dont know what else to say but thanks for reading and stopping by as ever i thank a you and i shall see a you again.

Random Ramblin's - Part 12 - Popping my tattoo cherry (late post)

Hey oh! Oh err alri?

Hows it hanging gents? Low? good
Ladies hows it hanging with you? Low aswell? That happens in old age i am told haha!

Right lets kick shit off. oh no i swore eh oh no what do i do? Put a faking penny in the swear o jar ah ha!

So about 3/4 hours ago i came back from having my very first tattoo. Yes i had one and its crazy to me that i have one i thought as a kid. Prison people or tough people only have tats but well nope not always as i am neither. I took it like a man. I did not flinch move moan or anything i did bite my lip at a lil bit of it and it did of course hurt like its supposed to haha. I had pantera's CFH logo on my right leg its like 5 inches big and 4 inches wide well thats my rough guess. 3 hours before my tattoo i did apply numbing cream but it was also raining and i did have shorts on so by time my time came for a tattoo i am pretty sure it wore off. I did and have made a film of this whole tattoo process well i say film its a video that is most likely 10mins long its nothing much just documenting a week before a week after and the week of me getting my first tattoo. What did it feel like? It felt like a needle well like a pin you know the pins you use for sowing well it felt like that was being dragged and like stabbed me a lil bit you know, it was bearable pain. I have had worse fillings than my first tattoo. I had a filling before where the needle didn't inject the anesthetics proper so it my cheek and mouth did not go numb and christ the pain from that jesus my head was aching after it along with my mouth and i did say to her (yes my dentist is a woman) my cheek is not numb and so she prodded me with the needle 5 more times i was aching man more so than this tattoo. Why did i have this tattoo? Well i love pantera and i wanted a tattoo but was unsure what so i thought i will have CFH logo on me as its not too big or detailed and it will be a nice starter incase i want more and i am planning more but i am unsure yet when i will be having them but there we go. This tattoo was a new great experience for me and if you want a tattoo i say go for it! Honestly before you have one make sure you have a look at the place you want to have it at and you have an idea in mind and you get to know the artist a little bit and well soon as you have everything set in stone book a tattoo wait and then go have it. Honestly people say it hurts which it does and everyone's pain tolerance is different some cry,some swear,some scream,some shake and i have been told some pass out! Do not worry about it get an energy drink in you get a good amount of sleep and make sure you are focused and pumped up for it and when you are in process of being tattooed make sure you listen to music or talk to someone with you it makes things seem a lot faster and less painful as i was concentrated on the music that was played and talking to my friend lewis when i was having mine and all worked out well and oh yes it also helps if your tattoo artist is a funny mad mad like mine was. I work security at a recycling plant and what i am going to have to do is put bepanthan (yes you need to apply nappy rash moisturizer daily for it to heal) and wrap it in cling film and then put my trousers on which aint too loose but since i work in a shit hole rubbish recycling site i need to take extra caution and safety and i will be doing this tomorrow as i go back to work. I love days off but jesus christ they go so fucking fast its so painful! Soon as i got home from having my tattoo though i will admit i was pretty panicky you know worried and shit like i was worried it wont be taken care of rightly and id have to lose my leg and what ever and you know now i am calm and well pretty calm and yeah i think i can handle it really you know. Gotta get myself into a schedule and then its all gonna be fine :) Right nuff of that lets mosey along en! Have a look at me video - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QdlbVsw_4AE

A word of advice to new metal bands or to those of you starting metal bands - DO  NOT PLEASE DO THE EXACT SAME THINGS AS THE REST! Cut the constant breakdowns heavy aggressive vocals and dressing all in black veil brides gear and stop the back vocals of the "oh woah oh" shit please. DO SOMETHING NEW AND UNIQUE SOMETHING THAT MAKES YOU STAND OUT FROM THE REST! If you got something that to start sounds slow and classic rock like and then just a vicious scream kicks in and shit gets heavier and faster well i gotta say that is unique so stay with it regardless of "oh but we wanted to be this genre and not be that genre". Its nothing negative from me its just i see and hear too many bands these days who stick to the same old formula that worked for some bands and it doesn't work for every band and is not needed for every band regardless of genre!

I removed windows 10 - Why? It was so darn so and buggy. I am back with windows 8.1 and all is normal again yay! I kept havin problems with windows 10 and you know i had no choice but to get rid of it and take a step backwards back to the more comfortable os.

That's all for this week folks well this blog post was written 29/8/15 but was posted much later than I planned sorry about that.

Random Ramblin's - Part 11 - What now?

Alri?

So what's up? You doing ok?

That time again where i blog shit and just talk about whats fresh and new and just whats been going on for me in my life and annoying me or what ever else comes to mind because its unhealthy keeping it all in. This has been in writing for 3 weeks by the way so yeah a lot of shit has gone on haha.

I own a recurve bow now. Yes i am becoming robin hood haha nah in all seriousness its a junior 20lb bow and i got 8 arrows and some other stuff with it and well since i been watching Arrow its made me go "Yeah i want to try this" not the whole be a superhero part though although it would be kick ass but i digress. I had a practice of it today took 4 arrows with me and yes good stuff just lost 1 arrow aswell and my best distance i was hitting this target i took with me,which was a cardboard box was about 10 meters away or so i just took a good few steps back and just aimed pulled and released and to no surprise i missed a lot! I hung in there however and i did hit the box 3 times which went straight through the box so you know obviously some power there to em. I like it,pretty fun to be honest.

According to my facebook i have watched to this point a total of 862 films! THAT IS INSANE! I only watch loads of films at work though because it passes the time of 15 hour shifts that i do and you cant expect me to sit there do nothing i gotta keep entertained. ****UPDATE ITS OVER 1000 NOW!****

Some of my friends have finally been reading my blogs haha i am amazed but you know thanks. All that i say or type here is just thoughts from my mind and mostly ranting and just venting out the anger that i may have. My anger is gone i have none today really i did take a lot out on a punching bag today in the gym. Some people have done some mucking about with me today but i ended up just saying screw them and i went out for a few drinks and catch up with friends ah it was a nice night. I need more nice nights out instead of slaving over my xbox 360,ps3 and laptop tbh. Also some of my friends have recognized who i have talked about at bits aswell but its no secret as they were there at the house parties i mentioned haha If you do find you or someone you know in a blog of mine well don't take it personally but if you are offended well i dunno....people get pissed at each other all the time really its naturally you know and especially for friends i find sometimes friends being pissed at eachother can fuel a negative fire that burns your friendship to ashes and sometimes it just kinda makes things healthy as you can just talk about the problems you have and just sometimes slag each other off be it as a joke or not and you know things can be ok and fine. We all have friends who annoy us in one way or another or who makes us yell at them to shut up haha. Yes i can get annoying and shit i have no problem of you telling me and then me shutting myself up ok no problem. I cant help it. I also cant help the fact i get tongue tied sometimes or quite a bit i think thats sort of a confidence thing or some sorta shit like i have been doing it a lot more since i have had my job because well i dont see many people or talk to many i am normally on my own sat in a cabin for 12/15 hours and its boring yes i have to phone in hourly and stuff and plus its also due to technology taking over and everyone is used to talking in their minds and on blank white spaces so yeah and i guess spelling errors could be the text version of being tongue tied haha. Anyhoo yes if you see something that sounds like i am talking ill of you i mean it as well you did or said something that annoyed me so i had to rant about it and get it out of my system somewhere BUT if you want to make yourself an enemy of mine then please do as i have heard that you are not living unless your making enemies along the way so c'mon! make me live! XD

So my friend Lewis asked me a very good question today regarding my youtube and it was. "Scott why do you care so much about yt copyright?" and yeah i am questioning it myself now and my answer is probably because yes i want to be partnered but also i do not want any trouble you know say if a video i posted got copyrighted and some artist say if the copyright was from a song just seen it and decided to sue me well i would be over my head in shit creek and i do not want that at all so that would be my answer.

I hate depression. I am not depressed right now infact i am feeling good but its just depression is such a pain to go through you know. I been through it before i suffered it for a few months in 2012 as i said in a previous blog post yes i may not have shown it but my head was a minefield it was just you know messed up man and i wont go more into it now as i basically covered it in my earlier blog post i did a while back so yeah go see there for a longer in depth look and my experience.

This is a very tame blog post for me as i am normally ranty but as i said typing this at the moment i have been feeling good just because i had a nice day and yeah haha its odd for me to feel good or to smile but yeah thats what you get sometimes when the clouds over your head decide to take a break haha.

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So here is an all new feature where i will talk about what albums i am looking forward to and name some of my faves and most listened to at the moment.

My most Listened to albums at the moment:
Plasterscene: Head full of toys (E.P.) - Although this is not an album it is just a few songs a local band have and i got to say it is really great and addictive to listen to. I know the vocalist he is a good friend of mine and i just love the lyrics,the groovy bass and chilling guitar and pounding drums man! So great! One of the best local bands for me going at the moment. Is my opinion bias because i know one member? I dont think so but you be the judge and give them a listen :)

Slipknot: The Grey Chapter - I do not think i could get tired of this album after 6 years of waiting for a new album boy did it pay off! EVERYTHING IS PERFECT! I UTTERLY LOVE IT! The new members are great and as ever the classic things you expect from slipknot are all over the album with nods and tributes to their former bassist Paul Grey. I seen slipknot live for my first time this year on the uk tour and it was amazing. I was rocking so much and for so long and screaming my heart out or rather singing to everything they played but when they ended i felt it was so short it was just over so quick yes i know they played 17 songs which is a lot but i wanted a lot more haha but i loved it and i will happily go see them again!

Disturbed Asylum & Indestructible -  Yes i am a metal head haha Since Disturbed have come out of hiatus and put together a new album that's out very soon i have been on a mission to relisten to every single album til the release of immortalized and these two albums in particular are my favorites of the band.  I love all of disturbeds albums and songs and i love them all together you know? Its just soo good the stuff they produce.

Trivium - In waves & Vengence falls - Much like disturbed since Trivium have a new album out later this year i have been listening to their old albums a lot again. I love Trivium and i think their weakest albums are shogun and vengence falls but all their albums have good songs on and i love trivium despite not liking every album or song. Matt Heafy follows me on twitter aswell so you know i have much love for Trivium Scrote!

That is about it as far as albums i have been listening to a lot lately.

ALBUMS I AM LOOKING FORWARD FOR:

FFDP - Got your six
Trivium - Silence in the snow
Disturbed - Immortalized

I have also been listening to and watching a lot of Johnny Cash lately since i seen the walk the line film i liked him prior to seeing the film but i guess i appreciate him a lot more now you know. Great artist!

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Results day - People have had their results and passes into uni today. Congrats and all that to em. I didn't have results I wanted but then again I also never had any dreams of going to uni etc. Well I did have a dream before I was in uni and had blue hair but that's about it hahaha I've learned a lot more since leaving school and im sure if I could resit my exams now that I would not get an A so you know haha i revised like mad but ofcourse when you have 3/4 exams in one day aswell as the environment your put in for exams its kinda pressuring and well makes you kinda panic and just not focus on all you've revised and so your memory just goes to mush. Anyway you cant let a piece of paper dictate how your life will go. You do that! You can expand and level up skills you have aswell as develop new ones schools miss bits that we should be taught. I've never used algebra since I finished school yet I've had to pay tax,insurance and vote? Which ones the least important subject there? Since I beat the school levels that very much felt like a prison,I have expanded and gained new skills aswell as done some awesome things and met some amazing people and gained new friends and yes for 2 years I was in no mans land just skint,jobless and unable to go out to do some wicked stuff with friends or buy things I wanted but then eventually I did gain a job which is shit but I've gained money a lot of it and you know had 2 cars and been to lots of shows and met people I never thought I'd even meet but I did it all. I am here still at my shit job and of course I want to do something that makes me happy and keeps me on my feet using all my skills and with a good fun environment and of course I will end up with what I want one day since I believe that's fate but before that people need to concentrate on the present and remember what they've done and learned and where they've come from because thinga could be way worse than they are. Keep your heads up. Its ok to feel defeated and sad now and then its the learning process of falling down we learn to get back up and we learn to climb that mountain and ride that bull long and hard until we are satisfied and mosey on. So whether you had good results or the bad just well done for coming this far and just aim high do things one bit at a time and you will reach your goals in no time. Be happy dont worry you did your best dust this off and stand back up. Thing's are brightening on the horizon.

Girl problems - 2 weeks ago i met this real nice girl on a dating site. (Yes i am on a dating site how sad yeah well what ever kid) Well we hit it off like a house on fire tbh have a lot in common and shit and you know she wanted to meet up then i said soon as i am free does she want to go out for a meal and she said "if she has money" i said yeah thats cool i just need a day off and let you know soon as and well yeah she was phoning me 1:30am when i was in work and we'd have a chat and man shes a minecraft freak haha No seriously i felt feelings for her and i got too attached because she said she was gonna go out last monday and so you know monday came and she was saying on her fb she was feeling sad so i sent her a message and it got seen but never got a replied so i was like "hmmm ok thats weird did i do something wrong?" and nope still not heard anything from her besides still having her on my facebook and yes she is active but Tuesday i found out from my friend Jared she was out with him and few of his friends last night as she was on a date with one of them so yeah that destroyed me. Its still a pain that it affected me so much. I was worrying before that of you know what if i meet up with her and she does'nt like me and stuff and ah yes my head was doing the rounds and just shit hit the fan i had no days off that week and so that frustrated me even more i was just losing my head you know. This girl seemed to like me and keen to me and we were talking like mad yet she went out on a date and shit. Fuck! I mean god damn it women if you do not like someone tell them before they get attached or maybe thats most womens fucked up plans huh? Get someone to like them then to fuck them over and go with someone else out of the blue!? Fuck man like seriously girls be like "all men are the same sexist pigs oh i hate em" WELL WE FUCKING HATE YOU FOR RIPPING OUT OUR HEARTS AND SQUISHING OUR BRAINS! We feel pain too you know its not a one way street pain gets everyone and it does'nt care about race or creed!

1 week til my tatoo and i am nervous but excited haha but also i am not really concentrated on it and well tbh i am not concentrated on anything i dunno whats happened to my head but its been like this since well just before July and its really bugging me i should be pumped for some stuff later this year but i am just like "meh" idek its needs a kick and a wake up ffs or what if its sorta like depression but it does'nt feel like it you know just feels like lights are on but no one is home and i am on autopilot and shit ah fuck knows man. Brains are fucking amazing but fuck me i aint got a clue about what evers going on.

I'd just like to add that i was really good at pool but as of late i am utterly shit!

I am tired and pretty drunk. Peace out as i am outta here.

Hello? Hello Mcfly!? Make like a tree and get out of here!