Llancaiach Fawr As A Kid (a ghost story)

When i was younger, i went on a school trip, we were a crowd of 30 on a bus, we were headed to an old house, an ancient house, a house of such rich history, a house that has not been lived in for quite some time, it was a manor house, it was haunted.....

We got there at this historic beautiful Victorian manor, got off the bus one by one buddied up with our friends and were swiftly greeted by people dressed as people of the past and they took us under their wings for an educational tour of this great manor house....

one by one we walked through the rooms, the kitchen, the bathroom, the lounge, then made our way upstairs to the ladies bedroom first, there in the corner was a crib and it moved very slowly as the floor boards also creaked and squeaked.......

I pointed at it and yelled "look its moving on its own", my school chums and the Victorian dressed actors turned round and the crib stopped and the Victorian lord told us that famously this has been spotted to be moving at times rocking back and fore and no one knows why or how.....

There' no breeze, no wind, it just moves on its own at times rocking back and forth by its own means, we ventured to the next rooms like the master bed room, where i smelled a smell of burning, and oak like scent but nothing more......

The next room was the armoury where all us kids and teachers sat down on benches and were told the history there of said armoury and of swords and armours and chain mail that was made or held there, when we got up and lined up to go downstairs and out into the gardens, i lost balance somehow and fell and i almost went down the stairs...........

I was alright got up dusted it off and followed everyone else out to the gardens, i had goosebumps when in the gardens on the tour i looked up at the manor house, i seen a figure in the window of the master bedroom, a lady, i thought it was one of the actors, but i never really knew the truth behind that one.......

I never had any real explanations of what i seen or felt that day and they still have me curious even to this day.........

Your Mentality Matters (poem/lyrics original)

I don't know what to do, about these thought's that fester,

They're parasites, germs that need to be flushed out,

Prescribe me anti-biotics to kill the disease, 

Never letting it appear again, I breathe in and out, 

It lingers and when i exhale it goes away and dies, 

I need something stronger and better to make them die and never come back,

Down with the negativity, 

Down with the over thinking, 

Down with obsessing, 

Come on and stop your stressing,

This is the digital age, It's easy to be consumed with the waves of information,

Surf the web, don't linger in it, 

Surf your thoughts, don't dwell there, 

End the stigma, your mentality matters,

I don't know who to talk to or what to say,

I'm not mute and i don't refuse to talk,

I'm structuring my thoughts, my words

Before they all come out, Before i speak

Before i even act that of no thought, 

I'd rather not be irrational and hurt,

Down with secrecy, 

Down with snooping,

Down with addiction,

It can all stop with a perfect prescription,

This is the digital age, It's easy to be consumed with the waves of information,

Surf the web, don't linger in it, 

Surf your thoughts, don't dwell there, 

End the stigma, your mentality matters,

What's with the hate, 

Why the name calling?,

How do you think i handle the funny, snide remarks,

I don't shrug it off as well as you might think,

It all remains in my head and it makes me dread,

All the misery, the anxiety, 

Saying i bite my nails, seems like a formality,

Biting down to the bone, making my blood flow,

Down with the haters,

Down with the bullying,

Down with unfairness,

They be only hating on us because they can't be us,

This is the digital age, It's easy to be consumed with the waves of information,

Surf the web, don't linger in it, 

Surf your thoughts, don't dwell there, 

End the stigma, your mentality matters,

If you're ever in need of help or assistance, Talk it out, 

If your ever down and need a hand, Talk it out,

If you feel as if you don't exist or matter, Talk it out, 

Don't bottle it up, that bottle will only break later,

The outcome of that broken bottle will be disastrous,

You matter, your worth it, Your Mentality Matters!

The Trigger Finger (original poem/lyrics)

I put my thumb out, i stick my index and my middle fingers together, 

I make a gun, i point it to the side of my head, I've had enough,

I can't take it anymore, these thoughts, these nightmares, 

I put my thumb down and allow my body and my face to drop,

It's quiet, it worked? IT WORKED! It worked?!, 

This is not what i had envisioned,

I didn't want this, truly i didn't, 

What will become of my body,

What's going to happen to me,

What do i do now, This can't be real, 

Please give me another chance,

I can't face the light in the dark,

I have always wanted to be the light in the dark, 

I never wanted it to swallow me whole, 

Even through my darkest day's, my fire burns always,

That's the way it was supposed to be, 

That's how it's always been, no matter how bad things have been,

It's all gone out of my control, why did i do such a senseless act?, 

This is not what i had envisioned,

I didn't want this, truly i didn't, 

What will become of my body,

What's going to happen to me,

What do i do now, This can't be real, 

Please give me another chance,

I can't face the light in the dark,

If i could go back again, I'd change many a things, 

My lifestyle, my friends, my career, my body and mind,

I'd never change my soul or family, I have no regrets there, 

We all try and be good, caring, loving people,

As a family we fight, argue, bicker, yell, get inpatient, 

Have we ever disowned a soul?, Ha ha nope, 

Would we disown any of our souls?, Maybe one or two of the shady ones,

This is not what i had envisioned,

I didn't want this, truly didn't, 

What will become of my body,

What's going to happen to me,

What do i do now, This can't be real, 

Please give me another chance,

I can't face the light in the dark,

If the emptiness, coldness and loneliness awaits me,

I made a dumb choice and i am sincerely sorry, 

I did not expect to be visited by that in the afterlife, 

I had enough in the real life, is heaven just a fantasy,

I'm scared, i'm cold, hello?, HELLO!?, HELP! HELP ME!

PLEASE!, Please, Please..........

I am the law (original poem/lyrics)

I've walked the beat, I've said my piece,

Yet I've never had to use it, stopping the signs, talking to strangers and shaking hands, 

I am the law, oh oh I am the law,

I've pointed my fair share and yelled, to stop the assailants, I've chased on foot, 

I've locked them all up, I've driven after maniacs manically, 

I've secured the loot, I am the law, yeah yeah yeah I am the law.

I am the law, stopping criminals with ease, I am the law, 

I chase down the baddies and bring them to justice, I am the law, 

I've never used my piece, I come in peace, I am the law.

Imagine the scenes, tape everywhere, not your average Tuesday night, 

the assailant might still be in the area ready for a fight, 

I'm always ready to parry any strike, 

I am the law, oh yes indeed I am the law,

Out of the corner of my eye. A struggle my partner is taken, held hostage against us all, 

this is all new to me, stop we can help, lower the weapon and let my partner go, 

do this and you'll be free too.

I am the law, the sweat is dripping from my brow, this isn't going to end with ease, 

sir can you listen to our pleads, please, I am the law, let me help you. 

Let's help each other, I am the law no one has to get hurt,

A trigger clicks, assailant is stressed, scared, backed into a corner, 

this is it, now or never, my hand slowly goes for my piece as I keep the killer talking, 

listen to his demands, make him seem as if I can arrange all he wants, partner is gawping at me,

I am the law, I yell and aim my gun, I am the law, no more chances you've had your fill, 

I am the law I breathe in and pull, I am the law, the bullet flies through mid air. 

I am the law, my God I've killed him, I am the law,

I was sentenced to jail, I am the law, this is a disillusion of grandeur, 

I am the law..........

Swooning For You (original poem/lyrics)

When you ever, say my name, I melt, 

Just the thought of my name on the tip of your tongue, 

Just exiting your sweet lips, It's loving, 

Makes me crave for so much more, 

You make me laugh, with that pretty face of yours, 

This heart beats faster than a cheetah running,

I'm blessed to see an angel every day,

I crave to know more about you, you fascinate me,

When i wake up in the morning, i wonder, 

Are you thinking of me, I think of you,

The birds and all the love songs in the world, 

They all sing your name and it makes me smile,

When i go to bed late at night, I wonder, 

If you're thinking of me, as you close your beautiful eyes, 

When you lay your lushest hair to rest, do i cross your mind, 

You're always walking and skipping and dancing in mine,

I couldn't help falling in love with you, It was destiny, 

The universe pointed it's fingers towards you, for me, 

Come take my hand, I've got such wondrous things to show you,

It's perfectly safe, you can actually trust me, 

I see your worth and i value it, with so much respect, 

I never laid eyes on an angel, until the choirs sang, 

Til all the wind blew, til i saw you strutting towards me,

I use to think love was for fools, i thought it not be true,

But as you see, baby, i'm swooning for you, 

Don't leave me hanging, i'd really like to take you by your lovely hands, 

I'd love to guide you around town, have fun under the moonlight,

Enjoy dinner by starlight, show you how a real man acts, 

Show off your beauty to everyone my darling, you no longer need to feel enslaved and unappreciated,

You are a person, free to do as you please, be gentle with yourself,

Take it slow, be brave and stand up, i'm always here for you,

I'm only a call away from your side, Do understand, 

I need you, I love you. 

written 10/10/19

12pm