Late Night Random Ramblin's Vol13- Am I Being Discriminated?

What a title, catches your eyes right? Well folks in today's story time allow me to rant and get shit off my chest, It's been a long time coming.

So I weigh 30 stone ok, not the best sure but I am also 6ft 3. So I'm not really too out there I'd argue. Yeah when you look at me and my wife there's a stark difference but we love eachother endlessly so yeah mind ya business and stop judging.

Since 2020 COVID, I've been fluctuating with weight going from 25 stone to 32 stone and during that time I was giving blood with the Welsh blood service. Fast forward to 2021 they told me they couldn't take my blood because I had a new growth on my hand which was just a ganglion cyst so they wanted me to do some tests and come back to them with proof that it's not a tumor and anything else scary. So then after numerous tests and a few months later to 2022 they are fine and taking my blood again then 2023 they tell me I can't give blood because I was taking painkillers for a headache. Then later in 2023 I can't give blood again because I said to them a few days ago I was on antibiotics for a chest infection and again they declined me. So then last year they have new settings and I had to declare my weight and height and other things to them for reasons unknown so then they told me because of my weight being 30 stone they cannot put me in their chairs as they have a max weight of 20 stone, yet I have been in their chairs and been more than the recommended amount and they have taken my blood with no problems. It's rediculous and a waste of time, so now if I need to give blood I have to go to hospital in Llantrisant to lay in their hospital beds to do so🙄

Let's now talk about my dentist. So I've gone to my dentist since I had teeth, that's a long time like almost 30 years right? So remember now during COVID I've gone from 25 stone to 30 stone right and I'm at 30 stone again. Last time I seen my dentist prior to end of May was back in January and in January I had a check up as normal for the past 20 years, chair goes back I get glasses and a bib on and get my teeth looked at and done right? Well this past week I've had the worse toothache ever and she didn't know what it was and also asked me about my weight before she did any work and she said due to the chair being only able to hold up to 20 stone that she couldn't help me and she'd have to refer me to someone else for any work I needed now. Which is absolutely fucking stupid and also please know I'm paying this dentist £10 a month....for what!? My fillings have cost me hundreds of pounds per filling and she's given me half my mouth full of them!!! So I went back today a few days after writing the last paragraph to get my review for my tooth pain, basically she didn't even see me or allow me to sit down in her chair and I explained about the pain and how it's lessened since last week, however I've now got mouth ulcers. One is at front of my mouth and the other is on the gum by the problematic tooth. She said "ok I can't do nothing more, your overweight capacity for my new chair so I'll refer you to another dentist and I'll see you when you have lost weight. You can get fat jabs off the drs now so try them and see you when you have lost the weight." 🙄 Fucking joke. I don't want to use jabs because 1: The haven't been fully studied and have dangerous side effects. 2: it feels like I'd have cheated to get the weight off. I rather work it off and stand with pride about that, BUT it is hard to lose weight. I am in a lot of pain and struggle with my feet or knees and everytime I've lost weight it's been hard to keep at it because of my pains or sickness or then because of my hunger is too great. It's fucking hard!

Clothing shops on high streets I can't go to BUT I've finally found one I can shop at! Yours clothing shop in Swansea, it caters to big men with their fabulous downstairs department. That's the first time I've ever gone into a clothes shop and spent over £100 recently. That's crazy!!!!

I can't sleep. I got so many things stressing me out and I just want peace. I want the good old days, no cares, no bills, chilling with gaming and good films. I feel like I can't breathe and it makes me miss some solitude and gaming for long sessions. I'm tired, I'm hurt, I need to get this off my chest, I just need some support. I need some peace also. I just need something else, something more.....something....

Random Ramblin's 36 - The Lowdown

Hello and again welcome back to my blog and again I will start by saying it's been a while since the last bout of Random Ramblin's besides late night ones of course. 

Compared to the last post it's been about 2 months since I last went to the gym, I know shame on me. I got sick, had a lot of work on and then top it off I lost my membership pass. However I have been emailed back by them a few days ago that I can come down and get a new one for no cost so woo hoo. I'll be back at it. 2 months off going to the gym it's not felt different well besides noticing my progress go back to ground zero but hey I can do it again. 

Besides that lot I saw Machine Head once again :) 

Writing

Steady pace as ever, not really worked on any ebooks lately just more blogs and songs and stuff as you will have picked up from seeing my other posts here on my blog :) 

Movies

Oh boy I have seen a lot of movies since I last filled you in. 

I watched all of the Maze Runner films the third was disappointing but first two were good. MR1 = 8/10, 2 = 8/10, 3 = 4/10. 

I have seen Infinity War three times! It's really damn good! 9/10!

Deadpool 2 is great too, I love the soundtrack so damn good! 7/10

The Frighteners was decent, never seen it before liked it, great cast in it. 6/10

Batman Ninja I did not like it was over the top trash to me. 2/10

Jurassic World: Fallen Kingdom was a great return to the series roots. Great horror elements in it I loved it won't lie. 8/10

Digimon Tri: Chapter 4 - Loss = This was utterly brilliant and soul destroying almost cried about one moment. 9/10

Solo: A Star Wars Movie - Well what a trainwreck two thing's I liked about it really but honestly if Ep 9 sucks I'm done with Star Wars. 3/10

Super Troopers 2 - Well this was alright just not near as good as the first. 5/10

Hereditary - Unsettling and very creepy but the ending was cheap and lame and something we've seen many times it sucked but overall great music, cast and camera trickery. 7/10

Game Night: Brilliantly amazing comedy such originality honestly surprise hit of the year 9/10

Rampage: Decent blockbuster flick 6/10

Three Billboards Outside Ebbing: Brilliantly funny ending annoyed me but hey was really good 8/10

Tomb Raider: Decent video game flick based on the reboot of the characters video games 5/10

Baywatch: Terrible cringe worthy film i wanted to turn it off so many times. 1/10

A Quiet Place - Brilliant film! Here's my full review - https://1stmetalgodsblog.blogspot.com/2018/04/a-quiet-place-silent-but-deadly-review.html 8/10

The Shape Of Water - Here's my full review - https://1stmetalgodsblog.blogspot.com/2018/02/the-shape-of-water-film-review-spoiler.html 9/10

Told you there was a lot to cover so I did my best to keep it short.

GAMING

I have been suffering PGD which is short for post game depression but i am fine now. 

When will we get gta 6? (CLICK HERE)

Another Fallout? Yes we have gotten word and trailers of Fallout 76 it looks alright same engine as number 4, it's set to be the earliest fallout game and will have people invading you and helping you. Interesting no?

THAT DMC5 TRAILER HOLY SHIT! 

Dying Light 2's branching story has me interested. 

Walking Dead's final telltale season omg! 

Gears 5 does not look like a gears game to me but its the second game i want on xbox one, i do not own xbox one but if i did i only want gears 4 and 5. 

Just Cause 4 wow it has tornadoes and a crazy open world. 

Death Stranding i have no clue whats going on but the gameplay included a lot of walking.

Crackdown 3 looks highly entertaining fun. 

Closing Comments

Well there aint much left to say now but before i go, i will say i do feel lost and neglected by some people. Is there anything i can do to make it all right as rain? No idea. Is there advice or support you the reader could give me? If so just comment below whatever you have to say about me or anything i'd love to hear your thoughts.

Thanks for popping by, much love, stay shiny!