So They Say (original song lyrics)

Daylight Comes and like a ghost your gone,

No where to be seen, My stranger of the night,

I wish you had stayed a little bit longer, My smile perked up since knowing that night,

Loneliness makes the heart grow fonder so they say,

So they say,

I've been a stranger to myself,

My confidence use to sit on a dusty shelf,

Now it's being cleaned up and i'm ready to wear it,

Unable to make any decisions but now i can, Now i can,

Keep moving, keep moving, things will look up,

Jacket on, zipped up, It's a cold night,

Here i am looking everywhere for you out on the town,

In the middle of the street there's a post which is familiar,

Takes me back to that time i sat with you on the bench all night drinking coffee,

I remember holding your hand on the corner, you said things will get better,

They said you can always try again, So they say, Or so they say,

High heels off, dress undone, wine and good energy flowing now,

Your lips pressed up against mine, hands touching too much, It's shockingly overwhelming,

You told me this would be a slice of heaven,

I was unprepared for the hell that came with getting a halo,

This is signs of true love so they say,

So they say,

I'm broken, i'm beat, i'm scarred,

Nothing told me this is what love is like, It wasn't supposed to be like this,

Clueless and alone with lust at my door,

I was beaten harder by mere words than any fist's,

The marks i hid well from everyone in physical form but i had nothing to hide the emotional,

Things will be better, maybe it's work stress or family problems,

So they say, Oh so they say,

I've been a stranger to myself for too long,

I lost all my cares, patience and trust by living dangerously,

I loved delusionally, I lost myself to keep another happy,

I live for me now, it's hard, I can't seem to do anything right,

Walking away helped me so much to end the nightmare so that's alright, 

You'll be fine so they say, so they say,

I was broken, i did not feel like a person,

I felt an unchangeable frown upon my face and a dark cloud over my head,

Uncomfortable in my own skin, my life is not worth living,

So i say, so i say,

I thought the worst things for myself,

my lonely heart did not have to wait long,

My fire reignited when you made me laugh,

In a split second i felt a string break upon my puppetry self,

You made me smile, you made me excited, you made me feel again,

I was made out to be a human, i was shown i was real, you did this,

I believed only i could fix myself but there you were holding the tools for me smiling,

True love is just in fairy tales, it's all made up and does not exist,

So they said, oh how they remarked,

Night time now and here i am,

Laying in my bed and my stranger of the night is not a stranger anymore,

In your arms i feel so safe, secure and happy, thank you for thinking of me,

Thank you for staying with me, thanks for thawing this icy heart,

You really are a masterpiece a true piece of art,

You're happy for now, you're being unwise, you're rushing, so they say,

So here i say,

Go away.

written 5/5/20